The Marquise: I Earn My Own Worship

"Thank you, mother."

Shen Xianli looked at his mother with a head full of silver hair, and remembered that Jingwen always said in front of him that her mother was very loving and could not let go of the children in the family. She always held this one and hugged that one, and in the end she was so tired that she could not breathe.

At that time, she talked about her eldest brother's poor health, but she never neglected her second sister and herself. All three of them were her treasures.

Later, her fourth brother was born. Although he was not born from her womb, her mother raised him herself, and he was no different from her biological son.

He rarely had contact with his mother before, but now he could truly feel his mother's love.

What mother-in-law would go to such lengths for her grandson?

Shen Xianli whispered to Jingwen in his heart, "Look, mother is very good and takes good care of the children. You can rest assured on the other side."

Song Shengfu didn't know what he was thinking. It was late at night, so she went back on her own.

On the way back, she was still thinking about her children. In fact, she did very little to raise them.

She had never had children before, so she didn't know how to take care of these three grandchildren who came to her at first sight.

Fortunately, her three children were well-behaved and obedient, so she didn't encounter any troubles.

Probably the time I worried the most was when I first arrived, thinking about how to change Kang Ge'er's personality.

But just these have made her feel how difficult it is to raise a child. When she thinks about those parents, Song Shengfu feels how difficult it is to be a parent.

Take Shen Xianli for example. He is a typical example of someone who can’t hug you when he holds the sword, and can’t protect you when he puts the sword down.

She could understand Shen Xianli's choice. Now that the Emperor of Chu was old, one of the princes would eventually win and sit on the throne of the ruler of the world.

Duan Bofu is like a person walking on a tightrope on a cliff. If he is not careful, he will fall to the bottom of the cliff.

Whether it is Duan Jing'an or Shen Xianli, the burden on them has invisibly increased a lot. In the current situation, they can only advance and not retreat.

There is a reason why Kang Ge'er chose to go out and explore the world at such a young age.

Song Shengfu sighed deeply. She had her own worries at different stages.

Ordinary people will worry about their next meal or next year's food rations, and those in high positions will also worry about whether their heads will still be in their bodies tomorrow.

If she has time, she should burn a few more incense sticks to bless the Emperor of Chu to live a long life.

At least as long as he is in power, nothing serious will happen in Duan Bo's mansion.

Song Shengfu truly loves these younger generations, but she often feels indebted to them. When they are having a hard time, she feels that she can do very little and cannot help.

She actually knew that this idea might have some problems, but she was already in the game and hoped to make decisions according to her own wishes.

This is how people are. Their emotions and desires are destined to be irrational.

For those who don’t have children, it’s incredible to see other people going through the ups and downs of their family life, just like her in the past.

And now, at this point, she seems to be able to understand the truth more comprehensively.

She couldn't help but think of her original self. Objectively speaking, her original self, Song Shengfu, might not be a qualified mistress of a marquis's mansion, but she was sincere and loving to every child in the family.

She devoted all her energy to her children for the rest of her life.

Maybe it's not that she is incompetent, but that she is tripped up by the child.

She only has so much energy, and with the children at home in this situation, she has no time to think about anything else.

As spectators, we always look at things with a critical eye, and we all hope that she is a qualified and perfect hostess, wife, and mother.

Song Shengfu would also criticize that apart from the original body's kindness to his children, there were major problems in the development of the Marquisate, the subsequent maintenance of the status quo, and the upbringing of his children and grandchildren.

The decline of Duan Bo's Mansion was directly or indirectly related to her.

This is viewed from a God's perspective.

When Song Shengfu reflected on herself again, she thought that if she were in this era and had such a big family, she might not do better than her original self.

Therefore, when she can look at things objectively and is in the situation herself, she can see through many things.

For this reason, she is always willing to be more tolerant and understanding towards the women around her, because they are actually the most amazing people.

With a set of ten, the advantages of Lu's company were magnified infinitely in her eyes. She felt that Lu's company was already very powerful.

She manages the household business, is filial to her parents-in-law, takes care of her husband, educates her son, etc. Even though there are many shortcomings, she has done a good job as a woman.

She once complained in her heart why she did not educate Kang Ge'er well, and indulged and spoiled him, leading him to a cliff; she would occasionally think of her neglect and indifference to her two nephews, which led to the beginning of the two children's unfortunate life.

Everyone expects a perfect protagonist, but forgets that people are imperfect.

If you are not there in person, everyone is just a spectator.

At this time, Song Shengfu transforms from a spectator to a character in the play, which makes her stand between objectivity and reality, unable to comprehend it but able to understand it.

In such chaos, Song Shengfu fell into a deep sleep.

The dream was full of strange things. She seemed to be talking to someone, but she didn't know what she was saying.

The next day, she felt extremely heavy.

Fortunately, she had ordered someone to set up the small Buddhist hall early on. She knelt on the cushion and stayed there for an hour.

This body is dead in the true sense, but it has many benefits.

For example, she won’t get sick, and even if she’s cold, she won’t react at all.

But there is also a downside, which is that she can't "eat" enough.

Only after she had to meditate for an hour every day did Song Shengfu feel that she was radiant.

Like a demon.

Of course she didn't come, and she was fine, she just looked a little lethargic.

When the time came, Song Shengfu left the small Buddhist temple.

Shen Xianli took a leave today, saying that he would take them for a good trip around Jiangping County.

Jiangping is a rich place and can be regarded as a superior county.

Song Shengfu stopped when she passed the main courtyard.

A servant nearby explained, "Madam, this is the master's residence."

Song Shengfu nodded, then walked away.

She had not yet figured out how to meet the child, and this was Shen Xianli's house. If she went to meet a maidservant by his side for no reason, it would cause a lot of controversy.

Now that we are here, there is no need to rush.

She still had to think about how to arrange it for her.