The nth time I met my puppet

"why?"

The moment the soldier heard the answer, his pupils suddenly shrank and he asked in a trembling voice, his eyes full of disbelief. He didn't understand why the answer was like this.

Why would someone refuse someone if they are in love with each other?

Obviously…

The surprise in Wan Nan's eyes was not fake. He could feel that Wan Nan was really happy about this moment.

But now… she refused without mercy.

But... he saw that although Wan Nan refused, there was sadness in her eyes.

Does that mean there is a reason, or an opportunity?

So he asked his question and looked at her with pleading eyes, hoping that Wan Nan could give him an answer, but Wan Nan avoided his gaze.

This time, Wan Nan was silent for a very long time.

She was very happy during this period, but she had already made her decision.

When is it?

When Sanbing heard that she was secretly planning to have a garden, she said, "Forget it, because she was leaving, so all this was unnecessary."

While he was dreaming about the future, she had already made up her mind to leave.

At that time, I said, forget it, it’s more than just a garden.

Sanbing's question also made her fall into deep thought.

why?

Because she didn't choose to stay.

But why didn't she choose Sanbing? Because her heart was biased from the beginning.

She came to this world and met the scattered soldiers in order to go home. Her goal from the beginning was to go home, and this has never changed.

She will go home eventually.

So at this moment, Wan Nan could only refuse, and everything turned into three words.

"Sorry…"

The reply that Sanbing had been waiting for for a long time was only these three words, but this was definitely not what he wanted.

"I don't want an apology! I just want to hear your answer! An explanation! Tell me, why?"

Sanbing's eyes were slightly red. He didn't want to hear any apologies, he just wanted an explanation.

Wan Nan saw his expression and knew that she had to give him an answer to make him give up.

"Ah San, there are some things I have never been able to bring up. There are some things between us that we have always tacitly stopped talking about. I know you are waiting for my explanation. But I have been avoiding this matter."

Wan Nan finally brought up the topic that neither of them had mentioned in recent days.

task.

"You know I'm here on a mission... but you should also know I'll eventually leave."

Wan Nan finally told the cruel truth. Sanbing's expression was dazed for a moment, and then he asked back with a wry smile.

"Since you want to leave? Why do you come to provoke me..."

This time, he had clearly made up his mind to just look at her from afar, but it was Wan Nan who took the initiative to approach him and provoke him again.

Wan Nan looked at Sanbing's expression and felt very uncomfortable, but there was nothing she could do.

"Because only when the mission is completed can I leave this world."

"Mission? Hahahahaha..."

He was clearly smiling, but his expression and voice sounded like he was crying.

"So I'm just a tool of yours? In your eyes I'm just a tool for you to get home, right?"

"No...it's not..."

Wan Nan didn't know how to answer him. Apart from these two words, she couldn't say anything else.

"what is that?"

Sanbing seemed to have guessed what she couldn't say and asked back, and Wannan had no reason to refute.

"…I'm sorry, but I have no choice."

A hot tear rolled down the corner of Sanbing's eye. He choked and asked, but the answers he got were all his worst expectations, which made everything in the past seem so pathetic.

He had long guessed that Wan Nan had other purposes in approaching him, but when she actually wanted to leave, he still found it hard to accept.

"So? So you approached me just to complete the so-called mission?! Every time we were together was just to complete your mission? What am I in your eyes? Wan Nan..."

"You are my love, there is no doubt about that. I love you, but... I can't choose you."

Wan Nan remains rational most of the time. She can choose to say goodbye to someone even though she loves him very much. She can accept missing him every moment for the rest of her life, but still choose to leave.

Rational, even indifferent.

"Love me? Leave me again? Shouldn't you always be with me? Why do you want to leave me again? What? Just because your mission is completed?

So I will be abandoned without hesitation, right? Why?! "

The soldier's eyes were bloodshot, revealing endless anger, despair, and unwillingness. He clenched his fists tightly, his nails digging deep into his palms, but he felt no pain at all.

It would have been better if Wan Nan didn't say that she loved him. Saying this at this moment seemed so ridiculous and pathetic.

This word "love" actually hurt him deeply.

Wan Nan felt a little reluctant, but helpless. She wanted him to give up on her and forget her, but she couldn't say it out loud. However, she knew that such an attitude would make her feel even more torturous.

So, she hid the tears on her face and smiled instead. She wanted to make him give up completely and stop thinking about her. Maybe one day he would let her go.

"So what? I want to leave, so what? I'm not from this world, why shouldn't I leave? Why should I stay? I still have my parents, family, and friends over there.

And...my sister, tell me, what reason do I have to stay here?"

Sentence after sentence, each one pierced his heart.

"But why can't you stay for me?"

"Why should I stay here for you? Just for you? But, that's my home!

The only person she cared about most was Xueer. Just because Xueer was there, that place was home to her.

"It's always like this... They keep saying they love me, but when faced with a choice, I'm the first one to be abandoned! Whether it's for cigarettes or someone else, it's always like this..."

Wan Nan did not refute it, because it was indeed the truth. At that time, she had not fallen in love with San Bing, so she naturally chose Yan Le, but when she thought about it carefully.

When faced with a choice, Sanbing had never been her firm choice.

Sanbing laughed bitterly, but his eyes changed when he looked at Wannan again.

He was unwilling to accept this, he had never been willing to accept this, it was just that he had not been able to keep her time and time again, but this time...

He must keep her, no matter what means he uses.

"Wannan..."

The soldier took a step towards Wan Nan, but Wan Nan subconsciously took half a step back. The soldier stopped and couldn't help but smile bitterly.

"I just want to hug you... Even so, you don't want to?"

Wan Nan looked at San Bing. His eyes were slightly red, and he looked so fragile and so pitiful. In the end, she couldn't bear it. After all, all this was really too cruel for San Bing.

She approached him time and time again with a purpose, walked into his heart and left again and again, and now she was leaving him again, hurting his already fragile heart, but he still couldn't let her go.

The soldier did not approach her actively, as if he was afraid of scaring her away, or afraid that his approach would make her leave on her own.

and so…

This time, Wan Nan took the initiative to throw herself into his arms.

If she had a choice, she would not want to go this far, and she would not want to leave the Sanbing, but she had no choice. She could not have her cake and eat it too. In the end, she would lose something.

"Asan... I'm sorry. But I have to leave. My sister is still waiting for me to come home..."

Wan Nan hugged San Bing, but she couldn't suppress her emotions after all. Hot tears fell on his chest. San Bing also smiled bitterly. Wan Nan's tears burned his heart.

But no matter what she wanted to abandon him for, he would not allow it.

and so…

Sanbing didn't hesitate at all and attacked when Wan Nan threw herself into his arms and cried, completely off guard.

He showed no mercy and knocked him unconscious.

Wan Nan only felt a sudden pain in her neck, and her vision instantly went dark. Before her vision completely blurred, she only saw Sanbing's determined smile. Only then did she realize it.

The show of weakness that Sanbing showed just now was... just an act.

His previous show of weakness was for this moment, and he had already made the plan from the moment he decided not to let her leave.

He knew Wan Nan might resent him, but compared to watching her leave again, what else mattered?

As long as she can stay...