Marry my elder sister? Fine! I'll give you the letter of annulment and marry someone else.

Later, the little princess was almost of marriageable age.

She is so beautiful that no one can be as pretty as her.

I am no longer a student accompanying my child to study.

Under my planning and layout, I have already started to serve as an official in the court.

The little princess no longer called me teacher. She started calling me by my full name: Jiang Li.

The girl said nothing, but her affectionate eyes, her hesitant look, and her shy and evasive posture all showed her girlish feelings.

I could naturally feel her feelings for me.

After all, I am not as stupid as her. I cannot hide my emotions, nor can she feel the love I have for her deep in my heart.

Yes, I fell in love with her.

How ridiculous! Even if I tried to suppress my feelings, I still fell in love with the daughter of my enemy.

I fell into a swamp where I couldn't forgive myself. I wanted to get out of it, but I got deeper and deeper.

This feeling is undoubtedly a betrayal of everyone in my Jiang family, so I am in pain, confused, entangled, and depressed.

But the little princess knew nothing and she was still carefree, like an April day on earth.

Everyone thought we would get married, even Emperor Li.

So he let the little princess act recklessly, let her help me build connections and rise to prominence, and step by step promoted me to the position of prime minister. Then, when he thought it was appropriate, he proposed a marriage.

I could feel how much the little princess expected me to agree. The blush on her cheeks was like the warm sunset in the sky. She pursed her lips slightly, expectant but not daring to look up.

For a moment, a thought screamed madly in my mind: Promise! Promise now! You like Ruoruo too, don't you? As long as you agree, you can be together. The dead are gone, why don't you give up your hatred for the little princess?

but……

but……

Could I really be so selfish as to give up the blood feud of more than 300 lives of my family for a little love of my own?

"Your Majesty, please withdraw your order. I only treat the princess as my sister."

Finally, I refused.

I can not do it.

I can't let go of the hatred.

The hall suddenly became so quiet that you could hear a pin drop. Everyone looked at me in surprise, as if they had never expected me to give such an answer.

The look of shock mixed with loss and sadness made me feel very uncomfortable.

But I straightened my back and told myself that I was here for revenge, not for love.

Just when the scene fell into dead silence, I heard the little princess speak and break the silence, "Father, please don't match us up so carelessly. I also have a brotherly relationship with the Prime Minister."

My whole body froze, both because she called me Prime Minister and because she said she treated me like a brother or sister.

Then, she continued, "Since the emperor wants to grant me a marriage today, I don't want to refuse him. I heard that this year's third place winner is extremely talented. How about letting him become my daughter's consort?"

I felt a dull pain in my heart, as if I had been punched in the heart.

I can't describe how I felt. When she said she wanted the third place winner to be her husband, I just wanted to kill that third place winner.

Emperor Li thought we were having a quarrel and looked at me with embarrassment.

The look on his face probably wanted me to give in.

With a "crack", the wine glass in my hand was crushed into two pieces.

Everyone looked at me again. I suppressed all my emotions and said in a calm and even voice, "I accidentally broke the wine glass. I beg Your Majesty to forgive me."

Emperor Li naturally did not blame me, so I left the hall.

After escaping from there, the Emperor of Li arranged a marriage between the little princess and the third place winner.

She seemed to be holding back her breath and never spoke a word to me again. Sometimes when we met, we just passed each other like a stranger.

I was in great torment. The little princess, who looked like a completely different person, tortured me immensely.

Countless times when she passed by me, I wanted to pull her into my arms, or push her against the palace wall and kiss her.

But I didn't do that. No matter how crazy my thoughts were, I remained calm on the surface.

You all know what happened next.

The little princess was going to marry the third place winner in the imperial examination, but I stole her away in a despicable way.

The night I possessed her, I felt so happy and fulfilled. I pulled her over and over again. It turns out that doing this with someone you love is so pleasurable and addictive.

But the little princess was very broken-hearted, as if I had hurt her.

I am such a bad person. I cursed myself secretly, but I couldn't control myself and went to see her again and again.

The look in her eyes when she looked at me changed from admiration to humiliation and questioning. She no longer called me Jiang Li in a tender way, but called me that with gritted teeth.

She asked me crying, "Jiang Li, why do you treat me like this? It was you who didn't want to marry me. What do you think of me?"

I turned around, lifted her chin, and said word by word, "You owe me this."

If everything stopped here, there might still be room for recovery.

But I have no intention of stopping until I have avenged my great hatred.

I have been lying in wait for so many years just to kill my enemy with one blow.

I did it.

But in the flames rising into the sky, I also saw Ruoruo's desperate face.

At that moment, I knew clearly that she and I would probably never be together from now on.

But I'm not willing to give in.

She stabbed me with a sword, and I told her we were even and then imprisoned her in the Prime Minister's Mansion.

I thought, since we're even, as long as I continue to treat her well, she will forgive me sooner or later.

But she withered away in my captivity, living every day like a walking corpse.

I felt an unprecedented fear in my heart. I was afraid that one day she would completely wither away, so I had a very perverted and ugly idea - I wanted to have a child with her.

With the bond of a child, will she be able to cheer herself up again?

However, before I could create a bond, that villain, Tanhualang, actually dared to take Ruoruo away while I was in the palace!

I chased him like crazy, but only found the third place winner.

My Ruoruo just escaped from right under my nose.

I was so angry that I couldn't help but kill Tanhualang with a sword, but I still couldn't find Ruoruo.

I have never missed her as much as I do now. I shouldn't have entered the palace. I shouldn't have left her alone in the Prime Minister's Mansion.

She is such a delicate person and has never suffered any hardship. Where can she go?

I was so worried about her that I almost became distracted.

I started having nightmares all night long, dreaming that Ruoruo turned into a female ghost with disheveled hair and came back to take my life.

I thought, let her kill me, that would be fine too, life is tiring.

But it was just a dream after all. If Ruoruo didn't come back, I wouldn't be dead.

I finally figured it out, and quickly picked a man of similar age from the royal family to become the emperor, and then began my long journey to find a wife.

Several years passed without any news of her.

Many people even doubt that she is dead, but I firmly believe that she is still alive somewhere in this world.

I will definitely find her.

Finally, when everyone had given up hope, I heard the news about her.

The secret sent to Tianqi said that someone had seen her in the capital.

So I hurriedly dropped everything and rushed to the capital, but I didn't find her.

It was not until a few months later that I finally met the person I had been thinking about day and night in Wei State.

She sat on a high building, still as breathtakingly beautiful as before, no, even more beautiful with the passage of time.

But when she looked at me, there was only hatred in her eyes.

This look is exactly the same as the one I had when I was eight years old.

So I'm sure she really hates me.

This realization made me extremely upset. As expected, she no longer had any feelings for me.

When she killed me, every move was deadly.

Later, due to the interference of the Queen of Phoenix, the group of crazy people from Wei State harassed Li State, and I had to divide my attention to deal with Wei State.

Originally, I planned to go to her in person after I dealt with the State of Wei and ask for her forgiveness, but who knew that Emperor Xin of Tianqi was so useless that the country changed hands in just a few months. It was really ridiculous.

So I experienced the dilemma of being attacked from both sides by Wei and Huang.

I thought carefully about the current situation and figured out a lot of things.

In fact, I killed Emperor Li only for revenge, not for power, status, or the world.

If Ruoruo wants to take back the Kingdom of Li, then I will return it to her.

But I was greedy and put forward a condition: I wanted to see her.

If I had known that I wanted to see her for the last time and see her being affectionate with someone else, I might never have made this offer.

But I saw it.

My little princess has fallen in love with someone else with all her heart and eyes.

I am no longer in her heart. She doesn't want me anymore and has abandoned me.

I am so sad that I want to cry, and I am so heartbroken that I want to die.

My life is so unfortunate. I lived in hatred in the first half of my life, and in regret in the second half of my life because of missing out on love.

I consider myself smart and I have everything under control, except my own emotions.

I lost my little princess.

I suddenly realized that death is not the most terrifying thing. The most terrifying thing is living without hope.

I opened my arms to welcome her into my arms, and smiled as I accepted the fatal blow she gave me.

At this moment, I felt more relaxed than ever before.

I said, "Ruoruo, you said it wasn't fair, but now you've killed me with your own hands, is that fair? If there's an afterlife..."

"If... there is an afterlife..."

Do I really want her to continue to encounter someone as despicable as me?

"never mind."

I looked up at the sky with relief. "It's better not to meet someone like me again. My life has been pretty bitter, but when I kissed you just now, I felt the sweetest feeling I've ever had. It's so nice to die in your hands."

I felt my consciousness gradually becoming chaotic, and I murmured softly, "It's great. I don't have to carry any emotions anymore. I'm just me. I am - Jiang Li."

There are so many beautiful things in this world, the ugly peach blossoms on the table in spring, the playful swaying of willow branches in the breeze, and the warm sunshine.

In my next life, I want to experience it thoroughly and never miss it again.