Demon Lord 3

It's not just what I saw and heard. With these memories layered together, it's like I've lived three lives in my mind. I don't know my name, I don't know where I am, but it's all me. These memories keep asking me a very important question, one I've been avoiding. When I heard this question just now, I kept thinking, "Don't answer such a question at such a young age. What will I do in the future?" What exactly is this question? The details aren't clear yet. Today, as these memories linger in my mind, I'm slowly understanding it. The key question is: If I were told I couldn't achieve my goals in this life, and if my next life offered a better one than this one, would I reincarnate immediately, or would I cling to this life and not reincarnate? When I first heard this question, I thought the person asking it was a bit perverted. Later, I realized it must be me. After all, my previous self must have been a fortune teller with such a high level of understanding, and I knew my own destiny thoroughly. My past life certainly wasn't as exciting as my current one, but why didn't I cling to life in my previous life? Is that realm higher than mine? If so, then haven't I completely surpassed my previous life? Am I far behind in realm besides my ability? Thinking of this question, I sighed. After all, this question is not something I can answer in a short time. Sometimes I feel that I can give up everything, I can give up my family and friends for true love, for the real world, and then save the world and become a savior. But sometimes, I am greedy for power and want to live a miserable life here instead of going to those worlds to save people. Isn't it better to stay here and do good? This is a question I have always wanted to ask myself. If I could live peacefully and peacefully with my parents as an ordinary person in this life, I could do without those powerful people. I could be scolded sometimes, but sometimes, I could live happily, eat what I like, and visit places I like. Maybe I could just live like this in a daze. Isn't this a kind of happy and stable happiness? It is something that cannot be experienced. It is something that those of us who are busy day and night cannot experience. It is the kind of thing we always yearn for but cannot get. I want to get these things, but I have to pay a lot of price. I want to hold these things in my palms, but I find that my palms are hot and I can't hold them at all. It's like a hot potato, turning back and forth in my hands. I ask myself this question in every life, but I have not solved this problem in every life. What did I do wrong? What was I thinking in my last life that I can reincarnate boldly in this life? Doesn't that prove that my state of mind at that time was stronger than this life? As I pondered these questions, time ticked by. My newly calmed state of mind began to unravel again. It felt like I was being dominated by my past life, living under its shadow. Perhaps I was strong in every life, but not always happy. But now, I'm the happiest. I often wonder, if I could remain this happy forever, how much more joyful would I be? But then I think, how could there be so much joy? What if I face failure and sadness in the future? What will we do? My head is spinning with these thoughts. What should I do? I don't know. I want results, but I can't think of anything. I want a good life here, but what will I get in the end? Is it betrayal? Although my family and friends haven't betrayed me yet, I think it's inevitable. No one has been with me since birth, and no one will die with me. So betrayal is very easy to happen. If I were to face that kind of situation, would I kill that person myself? I don't think so. After all, he was my teammate who once fought side by side with me. Even if I let him go and let him live in the world I created, or even if he becomes an enemy on the opposite side, I can't kill this person directly with my own hands. I still can't bear it.