Demon Lord 3

Mo Beixing smiled and said to me, "Do you know what else is in my schoolbag besides books? It is the love letters I wrote to Lin Zhenfei, which are filled with my longing and love. That is a memory that I will never be able to erase. When I was in the most difficult time, he appeared in front of me. Also, my brother has been out of town, and he has helped me a lot. Although he doesn't call often, he always sends me a WeChat message to ask if I am okay. He also sends me some red envelopes during the holidays. My family was not rich before, and I saved all the meager money. I was said to be a good child who was thrifty, but only I know that I am a coward, a coward, and a person who can't even lift my head. It was that kind of family and life that made my life, my misery, my collapse, but I used my breath to support myself and not let myself fall. Isn't this another kind of me? I hope that my future life can be better than others. Everyone is wonderful, but what qualifications do I have, what courage do I have? I didn’t get a good education since I was a child, and I’ve been practicing cultivation halfway, and I’m going further and further on the secular road of life. Going into the mountains is a small practice, and entering the secular world is a big practice. I’ve heard you say this to me many times, but I never understood it. However, on this secular road, it’s so difficult for me. There is no preaching from my parents, and my brother is not by my side to teach me. I have to grope my way forward on my own. Maybe you don’t understand why I like Lin Zhenfei. He is not the handsome and tall image I imagined, but an image of myself who can stand on my own, protect myself, and take care of myself. I don’t need anyone to give me a scholarship now, but I can earn enough money to spend. I hope to get red envelopes from others because I lacked love when I was a child, but now I can give myself a lot of red envelopes, just like I did back then. As Lin Zhenfei said to me, I don’t need anyone to love me, I just need to love myself more. I regard it as myself, and I also regard myself as him. Maybe the person I love and I are actually the same person, just existing in different forms in my life. Every time I think of this, I choke up a little, but I still want to talk about this with you, my best friend. In my impression, I have never done anything without caring about my image. I almost always endure and give in. I don’t want any of my shortcomings and weaknesses to be exposed in front of others, nor do I want people to talk about me behind my back. But now I find that I don’t have enough strength and it is impossible for others to respect me, just like when I was bullied in school, none of the people standing next to me chose to support me. I just helped those people to silently slander me. From then on, I knew that people live for this breath, but this breath cannot be used everywhere. If Lin Zhenfei hadn't appeared in time, I might not be where I am now. But I don't regret what I did then, and I will never regret it, because I had no hope of living at that time. If he hadn't appeared, I wouldn't have lived. After all, without him appearing in my world and the good things he did to me later, my world would have been dark. Every time I talk about anyone, I try to say the best things about them. I don't want to tell you all the bad things they did before. I hope that what I say will be like what I recall. Usually, my life is so smooth, but only I know that my life has more or less, good and bad, joy and sorrow, pain and happiness. Maybe most lives are like this, but most of me are unfortunate. I can't change myself, nor can I change others, until that person in my life came out and changed me, the environment around me, and the whole world I see. "

The first love letter was pretty much like this. It contained quite a bit, but it wasn't all there was. I took a look and saw several more stacks. Reading them all would probably take days, as each notebook was filled with memories. I flipped through them all and found about a dozen. What was this nerd doing every day, not paying attention in class?