Demon Lord 3

After this incident, I didn't want to go out. I was actually reflecting on one thing, what exactly I was trying to achieve. Zhou Chuyuan saw that I was usually on the 2.1 line, and apart from doing some important things, he would often ask me at home if I had anything on my mind. Sometimes I shook my head and told him to mind his own business, and I wouldn't delay his work. But he felt that my mood and my state were much worse, and he had to let me tell him what the problem was, otherwise he would feel bad. I also told this incident when I thought of this. In fact, I always felt that I did something wrong in this matter, and it felt a bit like bullying, but he felt that if we didn't do this, how could we highlight our status? That was the World Lord's wife. The World Lord couldn't take action, so we helped. It's not wrong, actually. Even after some explanation, I still don't understand. If I want to help, I can help anyone. But the person I'm helping isn't someone in need, but the wife of the World Lord, who holds a high position. If I continue to bully others like this, many people will give me negative feedback, and my reputation will definitely be damaged. But besides reputation, people also value character. This will also be considered bad behavior. Even if you don't care about others' opinions and only care about your own, then think carefully. This brings me back to the previous question: what was I doing? Maybe I was just helping a friend, or maybe it was because I felt my mother was good to me, and this person was so much like my mother, so I helped this person. Perhaps in many ways, I have no independent consciousness at all, just a tool controlled by my emotions. Sometimes, when emotions dominate my body, I may have very impulsive thoughts. Is this a demon? After listening to me, Zhou Chuyuan shook his head and said, "That doesn't count. You can still control it. You can develop awareness in many aspects, which is actually very good. True demonic possession is actually much more serious than this. It will force you to make decisions under extreme conditions, and will force you to make drastic choices at the expense of your teammates and relatives. If you want to save everyone's lives, then you must sacrifice yourself or some emotional part. That is true demonic possession." Wu Luanpei also noticed my recent problems and asked me what the problem was. I said I didn't know what I was thinking. My mental state has been very bad recently, and I don't know what I'm thinking specifically. Maybe I've entered a bottleneck period. Every time I think about something, it's very extreme. Wu Luanpei frowned and said, "Are you sick? I feel that patients do have this condition, and normal people may rarely have it. Do you want to go see a doctor?" I shook my head and said that it might be because I was tired recently, but I had to think about who to see a doctor. I don't have a doctor or anyone who can prescribe medicine. The only one I have is constantly doing research. Even if Mu Chen could make some medicine, I didn't trust his skills, so I didn't bother him, thinking I might recover over time. But then the symptoms became more and more pronounced. I'm constantly feeling innocently sad and irritable, often crying. I feel like a completely different person. This is a major change in my personality, and perhaps I need to improve myself again. I never dream of that so-called true god. He's truly faded from my world. I haven't contacted him in a long time. Perhaps it's time to enter a larger dream. How can I contact him? Sometimes he would appear when I was sad, but it's been a long time now. I think he's busy, and maybe busy people don't want to come to me. But now, when I really need him, he doesn't even appear. Sometimes I wonder if he only appears when he needs me! Zhou Chuyuan picked a lot of fruit from outside, brought it back to me, and asked if I liked it. I nodded, embarrassed to say that I had no appetite. Zhou Chuyuan seemed to have seen through my thoughts long ago and directly turned those fruits into canned food, saying that it would stimulate the appetite. I definitely didn't want to eat anything now, and I would definitely feel better if I ate something appetizing. I knew how to make canned food, and it actually took him a long time. He just gave me a few fruits and let me see them. I smiled slightly and expressed my gratitude. He told me not to be so polite. I said I was used to people being nice to me, and I just wanted to say thank you.