Reborn back to college to have a love affair

go home

It's time to go to bed again.

Xia Qing was reluctant to go to the bedroom to sleep.

Jiang Shao understood.

He came out holding the quilt.

"You should go to bed quickly. Don't you have to go home tomorrow? I'm going to play games outside and it will be very late, so I won't go to bed to avoid disturbing you." He smiled stiffly, which was uglier than crying. He gave a lame excuse.

Xia Qing did not expose his cover-up.

She really didn't want to sleep with him yet.

Xia Qing closed the door and turned off the lights.

I lay in bed and slowly fell asleep.

Jiang Shao was outside, lying on the sofa and listening quietly to the noises coming from the bedroom.

In the dark night, the eyes are surprisingly bright

I don't know what he was thinking, but when he suddenly turned around and buried his face in the quilt, the little light coming in from the window still illuminated the tears that slipped from the corners of his eyes and had not yet been wiped away.

The next day, Xia Qing got up on time.

Jiang Shao has already bought breakfast.

He invited Xia Qing to dinner as if nothing had happened.

"It seems that the breakfast shop you like is closed for the holiday. I bought you some fried dough sticks and tofu pudding from another shop. I've tried them and they're pretty good. Would you like to try them?"

"Well, thank you. You eat first and I'll clean myself up."

Then he went into the bathroom.

Jiang Shao didn't eat first. He set the table and sat there waiting for her.

Xia Qing came out and didn't say anything when she saw him like this.

Sit down and eat.

Jiang Shao also started eating.

After eating, Xia Qing put on her clothes and said to him who was also putting on her coat, "No need to send me off, I can just take a taxi myself."

Jiang Shao paused while putting on his clothes.

Then he put on his clothes and picked up her luggage: "I'll take the car with you and send you off. I can help you with your luggage."

Xia Qing wanted to refuse, but he looked like a big kid who had done something wrong, holding his luggage and wanting to show off.

Finally compromised.

Arrived at the entrance of the train station.

Xia Qing wanted to take the luggage, but Jiang Shao lowered his head and held her luggage tightly in his hands.

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"I'm going to the station now, you can go back."

"Hmm?" A huge tear fell on her hand that was holding the luggage, and then two, three drops...

The composure Jiang Shao had maintained finally broke, and he could no longer pretend.

So what if he is a loser? Anyway, he has never had a cool and elegant image in front of her.

He looked up at her, tears in his eyes, wet eyelashes, and red nose. He wanted to hold back the sadness but couldn't, and even his breathing was difficult.

He raised his arm and wiped his face roughly.

I wanted to smile at her but couldn't, so I choked and said, "Baby, will you come back after the holiday?"

"You~, will you still remember our relationship after the New Year?" In fact, what he wanted to ask most was "Baby, will you still want me when you come back?"

There is a kind of powerlessness.

Xia Qing didn't want to forgive him so quickly.

But he was so sad, as if she had done something to him.

In fact, she also had a lot of sadness and grievances in her heart, but she was not allowed to vent, was not cared for, and kept it in her heart and tortured herself.

Rely on yourself to slowly digest it and sort out your mood.

In fact, she also wanted someone to coax her and love her all the time, so that she could vent without restraint.

However, after a long time, she seemed to have no idea how to vent.

Minor grievances can be dealt with by herself, but major grievances may take a long time to fade away.

It takes time and space to quietly repair your mood.

Only after you have repaired yourself can you open your arms and accept the person who made you sad.

But now she doesn't want to.

You can say that she holds on to it, that she is not generous, or simply that she is selfish and vicious.

Her heart was twisted and she was about to collapse.

"Please stop crying, okay?" Xia Qing spoke with a nasal tone.

"Actually, I'm very sad too. There are some things I don't know what to do. I'm very confused now. I want to be happy but I can't be happy." I don't know which words touched my heart again.

"Jiang Shao, I really loved you so much before."

Now I don't know what happened

"Let's give each other some time and space, calm down, and stop pushing me."

Jiang Shao's heart sank as Xia Qing spoke.

Suddenly he realized that he was really forcing her.

Like a child crying for milk, he thought that crying could earn him forgiveness, make her pity him, and then open her arms to accept him again.

But Xia Qing rarely cried or begged for anything.

In her memory, she was sad to the point of crying several times because she was hurt by him.

But she never cried and asked him for this or that.

In the relationship between the two, he has always been asking for things, while she has always been tolerant and giving.

When looking at his and her problems from a third party's perspective.

He found himself ridiculously immature.

However, Xia Qing has been gradually becoming independent and self-reliant.

He is her boyfriend and should have provided her with a roof over her head and protected her from the wind and rain.

However, all her troubles came from him.

Instead, it was she who, with her own frail body, gave him a warm home, took care of his emotions and daily life while living with him, and she herself had to go to work.

Apart from working, he enjoys the warmth and care she brings him.

She never complained, but he thought she had become better and stronger.

Rather than being afraid of losing her, he is more afraid of losing the warmth and love.

After all, although he thinks he is good, Xia Qing can easily find someone better than him in the company.

However, if he loses her, he may not be able to find someone better than her.

After all, not everyone is willing to live in a rental house with their boyfriend, do his laundry, cook for him, clean the house, and take the subway to work every day without complaining.

In the past, people could say that two people had deep feelings for each other, could provide spiritual comfort to each other, and were spiritual pillars.

However, later on, Xia Qing was still his spiritual support, but he became the ruthless sword that destroyed her spirit, hurting her with every sword.

What shocked him was that when he put himself in her shoes, she found that she might live a better life without him.

The truth is so cruel, Jiang Shao felt ashamed for the first time.

How could he, a tall man, be so immature?

He was filled with regret and sorrow.

He raised his hand and wiped away Xia Qing's tears. Although he had said it countless times, he still had to say it.

"I'm sorry, baby. I'm really sorry." "It's my fault. Please stop crying. I won't force you, okay?"

"You can do whatever you want. Let's not cry. I was wrong. I was wrong~."

"Go home happily~" He tidied Xia Qing's hair and handed her the luggage.

He forced a smile but couldn't, so he just lowered his head and hugged her lightly.

"Come in~"

Xia Qing seemed to have adjusted himself, except that his eyes and nose were still red. But he was no longer so sad and desperate. He cheered up and had his willpower up.

"Well, take good care of yourself. I'm leaving." Xia Qing turned around and walked into the ticket gate with her luggage.

Jiang Shao watched her figure disappear, but he never left. He stood there for a long, long time.