After rebirth, I cried and criticized the prince

The better Yuan Xu treated her, the more uncomfortable she felt, and she even felt sad...all kinds of emotions mixed together.

She pinched the corner of the quilt, she must not, must not let Yuan Xu down again, and she must not let him suffer these injuries that had nothing to do with him in the first place.

He could have risen to prominence, fought on the battlefield, found his beloved, and had children.

He is Yuan Xu, he deserves such happiness.

She hated herself a little, hated herself for using her marriage with Yuan Xu to satisfy her own selfish desires many times.

After knowing all this, she had no choice but to stop and could no longer enjoy Yuan Xu's kindness to her so calmly.

She was not sure what would happen in the future, but the battle between her and Gu Shicheng had already begun, and she could not let Yuan Xu be dragged down any further, so she made the decision to break off the engagement with Yuan Xu.

But this time, she would let Yuan Xu take the initiative to break off the engagement with her, and it would no longer be so disgraceful. All the rumors after the breakup could be directed at her.

This was the first time she had such a strong desire to protect someone.

The sound of pushing the door---------was heard.

Yuan Xu carried bags of food and spread them out on the table. After a night of illness, Helan Xuenuo was also hungry when she smelled the fragrant food.

Yuan Xu walked to her bedside, his eyes full of concern, and smiled gently, "I don't know what you can eat or what you can't eat, so I bought them all. Just pick out what you like."

A ray of light refracted in from the window, and Yuan Xu was bathed in the light. Helan Xuunuo shielded her eyes with her hands, but through the gaps between her fingers, Yuan Xu was still as gentle as ever.

He called out softly, "Honeysuckle? Still feeling unwell?"

Helan Xuenuo was distracted for a while and then came to his senses.

He Yuanxu came to the table and looked at the food on it, wondering what to eat.

She picked up a bowl of hot porridge and a few buns and started eating.

At this time, Yuan Xu slapped his forehead and said, "There's one more thing. This... Liancheng's sour jujube cake, I bought it yesterday. You like it."

Yuan Xu picked up a paper bag from the side and spread it out. There were a few red cakes inside.

"Liancheng's sour jujube cake?"

"Hmm...wasn't this your favorite thing to eat when you were a kid?"

I couldn't hold back my tears any longer. It turned out... the sour jujube cake that Xiao Yuanzhao gave me in my previous life wasn't a coincidence...

It was him who had not forgotten her preferences on his way back.

But at that time he kept his promise to her and never saw her again.

Tears mixed with the hot porridge, and she swallowed it.

Yuan Xu became anxious and concerned, "Ren Dong, what's wrong? Are you still not feeling well?"

Helan Xuenuo tried hard to hold back her tears, her nose feeling sticky. After a while, she uttered a few words, "Yuan Xu... Let's cancel the engagement."

The sour jujube cake in his hand fell all over the table. Yuan Xu was a little flustered, "What...what happened?"

Helan Xuenuo felt a little reluctant.

Yuan Xu calmed down, his brows heavy, and asked, "Do you... have someone you like?"

Helan Xuenuo shook her head.

Yuan Xu's brows relaxed, "Then why do you want to cancel the engagement?"

She knew that Yuan Xu was no longer the little kid who followed her around; he had grown up.

I shouldn't break off the engagement with him without explaining anything. If I do so... Yuan Xu will definitely act the same as in the previous life. This time, I have to make things clear no matter what.

Helan Xuenuo tried her best to calm herself down. She forced a smile and said, "Yuan Xu, there are so many good girls in this world, and I'm not worthy of you doing all this. I... really am not worthy. I once had a dream. In the dream, I abused and hurt you, and the person I married was not you. You suffered an undeserved disaster because of me. In the end, I died, and you died too. This ending is really unnecessary. I can't treat you with a heart that is not perfect, or even not perfect at all. I really don't deserve it."

"Why is it not worth it? What gives you the right to make the decision for me?" Yuan Xu raised his left eyebrow, with a hint of anger on his face. He lost control and his teeth trembled.

Helan Xuenuo still maintained that smile, and suddenly someone popped up in her mind: Yaniang, the knife-selling girl at the cattle market that day. "Yuan Xu, there are so many good girls in this world. The Yaniang you mentioned that day was also very good. Didn't she follow you all the way to the capital? Perhaps... she is the one you should cherish."

Yuan Xu's face was blank. "Ya...Ya Niang? So this is the misunderstanding? Ya Niang once saved me. After her father died, she brought her brother, not knowing where to go, so she followed our troops to the capital. Now she works for the Yuan Mansion. The weapons sold in the Niu Market involve a wide range of matters. They are not accounted for openly, but mostly traded in secret. Now it can only operate under the protection of the Prime Minister. In order to prevent any disturbances, I planted Ya Niang in there to investigate some unknown transactions. We are sworn enemies and friends. Now we work together, but it is definitely not what you think."

Watching Yuan Xu's hurried explanation, her heart suddenly ached. She had thought that men in this world always had to juggle between several girls, but Yuan Xu was different. He only had her in his eyes from beginning to end. How could she bear this?

"Yuan Xu, you should look at the people around you. The world is full of flowers, and I am just the most insignificant and unnoticeable honeysuckle among them. There are some things I can't tell you. I'm just worried that one day I will hurt you. I don't know if you will turn to hate me then. I am no longer the same person I was before. I have things to do and some grudges that I must avenge."

Yuan Xu said, "Do you know? In these years at the border, doctors often use honeysuckle as medicine. How many soldiers guarding the border have relied on the humble honeysuckle flower you mentioned to heal their bodies. And now you tell me that it is an insignificant flower? Why...you even say such self-deprecating words just to reject me? I would rather you reject me because you love someone and pursue a goal, rather than because of self-deprecation. How do you know that I can't help you with what you want to do?"

What is the hatred that Helan Xuenuo is talking about?

Yuan Xu thought carefully, and a vague idea came to his mind, not sure, "Is it... Prince Ding'an?"

He looked at Helan Xuenuo, and seeing that Helan Xuenuo remained silent for a long time, he knew that Helan Xuenuo must be talking about King Ding'an.

Yuan Xu's tone softened again. "Ren Dong, let's not cancel the engagement for now, okay? If one day, you really meet that person, even if it's not me, as long as you meet him, I'm willing to let go."

Helan Xuenuo was filled with mixed emotions. She felt ashamed for being so frank with Yuan Xu. If possible, she really wanted to repay him with her life. However, her heart, which had been broken so many times, was now afraid of loving someone. She couldn't treat Yuan Xu with such an insincere heart.

She sighed softly, "Yuan Xu, this is what I want to say to you. I hope that one day you will meet someone who cherishes you."

Yuan Xu was delighted to see that Helan Xuenuo's mood had softened. "So, you're not breaking off the engagement?"

"Yeah." Helan Xuenuo nodded and continued to drink her porridge. She had thought that not breaking off the engagement would make her feel heavy, but she didn't expect that for some reason her mood would be filled with a strange emotion, and this feeling was pleasant.

Yuan Xu looked at the scattered sour jujube cakes on the table and frowned, blaming himself for not holding the cake steady. A piece of the cake had fallen and mixed with the mung bean cake on the plate.

He picked up the plate of mung bean cake, which had a hint of red mixed in. "Want some sour jujube cake?"

Helan Xuenuo smiled knowingly, picked up the sour jujube cake directly with his hands, and swallowed it in a few bites. I don’t know why, but today’s sour jujube cake is particularly delicious.

Huang Jiuyuan had clearly said a few days ago that he would send the sour jujube cake, and he did deliver it the next morning, but the taste of that sour jujube cake was different from the one I was eating now. This one was sweeter.

She remembered that Meng Nan and his group should have entered the capital, and the second autumn hunting would be held tomorrow. The purpose was to choose a husband for Princess Meng Nan, and this autumn hunting would be quite exciting.

My heart couldn't help but feel ripples.

Helan Xuenuo raised the corners of her lips, her eyes charming, and smiled, "We should go back."