I was just playing tricks, how come I became Bai Yueguang

Don’t love yourself enough?

Su Yun raised her head and stared at Jiang Huashan in a daze.

The weight of these words was like a fallen leaf drifting into a well filled with water. The water was originally level with the well surface, maintaining a certain uneasy balance. Although the fallen leaf was light, it sank to the surface, breaking the balance and causing the water in the well to overflow.

Jiang Huashan asked, "If the Su family forgives Su Yun, will you forgive her?"

Su Miao shook her head, "I don't want to forgive her."

"Yeah, don't you already have the answer? Why don't you dare tell your grandfather?"

Su Miao laughed bitterly and muttered to herself, "Yeah, why didn't I dare tell Grandpa? Because I was afraid. I was afraid that Grandpa would think I was ignorant, and I was afraid that my decision would embarrass everyone."

“So the person you really don’t love enough is yourself.”

Jiang Huashan paused, and after a slight hesitation, she spoke her mind. "Actually... you can dislike Su Yun and you can choose not to forgive her. This is your right, and no one can tell you. If you are unable to deal with your current emotions and cannot calmly compromise to make others happy, then let go of others for the time being and make yourself happy first."

"Let go of others?"

Jiang Huashan nodded, "Do you remember what I said to you when you shot me? Su Miao, don't run away anymore."

Su Miao's scattered emotions gradually became cohesive, and she began to think.

Looking back at what happened between her and Su Yun, she was actually wrong from the beginning. If she had the courage to face the gap in their status directly or the confidence to accept any choice made by the Su family, she and Su Yun would not have reached this point today.

She cared too much about whether her grandfather, father, mother, and brother loved her, and love gave rise to fear.

"I seem to understand."

Su Miao turned her head and looked at the vast bay. "Anyone's love for me is affected by time, space, and circumstances. Only my love for myself depends on me. So, if I want to gain true love, true affection, it's enough for me to please myself..."

Su Miao raised the corner of her mouth, turned her head and looked at Jiang Huashan with tears in her eyes, "Isn't that right?"

Jiang Huashan laughed and said, "Yes."

She will always remember that in the old house in Huaicheng, she hugged Shen Zhuang and cried bitterly, accusing her grandmother of not keeping her promise and accusing no one in the world of loving her.

She asked Shen Zhuang with a pleading look on her face, "Grandpa, if I go with you, will you treat me well like grandma? Will you always love me?"

Shen Zhuang's answer was unexpected.

He said, "My child, no one in this world will love you forever, not even Grandpa. But Grandpa will teach you how to love yourself, because the only one who can accompany you forever in this world is yourself."

Although she had been lost before, those who have met the light will always wake up again.

*

After leaving the harbor, Shen Lanxi went directly to the most luxurious Prince Hotel in Nanwan.

Led by the ghat, the elevator goes directly to the top floor.

The presidential suite on the top floor is not open to the public all year round. Now, from the foyer to the corridor, all entrances and exits are occupied by Shen Lanxi's people. From time to time, shrill screams can be heard from the linen room opposite the foyer.

"Master, the person is inside. Grey Eagle is still interrogating him."

Shen Lanxi nodded, walked around the hall without looking around and stopped in front of the floor-to-ceiling window.

South Bay is built along the coast, and almost all landmark high-rise buildings in the city center can see the port.

Shen Lanxi looked at the time. It was ten o'clock in the morning.

About half an hour later, a burly young man walked in from outside.

"Master."

Gao Zhi took a hot towel from the bamboo basket on the coffee table and threw it over. The man finally reacted and turned around to wipe the blood off his face and hands.

Shen Lanxi walked into the living room and sat down with an indifferent expression.

"Recruited?"

Gray Eagle shook his head. "These are mercenaries trained by local warlords. They're so stubborn they wouldn't say a word even if their bones were broken. Judging from his figure and the fight just now, I can conclude that he's the one who fought me three years ago. This is the seal I received from him."

Shen Lanxi took the seal and looked at it. "A token of trust?"

Gray Eagle nodded. "The assassination of Xiangying three years ago was probably a team effort. This kind of seal usually represents the identity of the person who carried out the operation."

"Is he?" Shen Lanxi stared at the seal in her hand and examined it carefully. "Did you find his lair in Nanwan?"

Gray Eagle said, "We're still investigating. These people are very cunning. If South Bay hadn't been bombed suddenly and their entire shipload of cargo hadn't been burned, we'd probably still be searching for a needle in a haystack."

Shen Lanxi paused and threw the seal back to Gao Zhi. "Continue the interrogation. The murderer must be Shen Qian. If he won't talk, then we should find a way to lure out the one who can."

Gray Eagle nodded, "Yes, Master."

Shen Lanxi subconsciously looked at her watch again.

*

"Actually, you don't have to take me in. I can stay in a hotel. I'm much better now."

Su Miao sent Jiang Huashan to the door and prepared to find a hotel by herself.

Jiang Huashan grabbed her and said, "It's already this late. Even if you want to stay in a hotel, you should eat first."

Su Miao felt a little uncomfortable. "I don't want to see anyone else except you now, so forget it."

Having said that, Jiang Huashan couldn't insist. "Okay, wait for me. I'll go in and get you some clothes."

Su Miao looked down at the blanket on her body, but this time she didn't refuse. "I'll wait for you at the door."

"Okay." Jiang Huashan understood her feelings and went straight into her room.

When Mo Ran was preparing her clothes, she bought several coats and she picked the thickest one.

I didn't expect to see Su Miao sitting on the sofa in the living room as soon as I walked out of the room. Her sitting posture was more standard than that of a kindergarten kid waiting for the teacher to hand out candy.

Shen Guiling stood up immediately when she saw her come out, "I just came back and saw Miss Su standing at the door. She said she was waiting for you."

Su Miao nodded, "Yes, and then I came in with Brother A Ling."

"..." Jiang Huashan was silent for a second, and suddenly remembered something. In the previous life, Su Miao loved Shen Guiling so much that she died to prove her loyalty.

Shen Guiling glanced at Jiang Huashan and said, "I have something else to do, so I'll go back to my room first. You guys chat." After that, he turned around and went into his room.

Su Miao was completely unaware of the atmosphere between the two and grabbed Jiang Huashan, "Why didn't you tell me that Brother A Ling was here too?"

Jiang Huashan glanced at her sideways, "Why? Can I see Shen Guiling again now?"

Su Miao secretly glanced at the aisle and shook her head. "He's worthy of being the one I fell in love with at first sight. He's so handsome. What kind of divine taste is that? The color of the sweater is so beautiful too. Brother A Ling is different from others. Unlike some men who can't wear anything but black and white."

Just as he finished speaking, there was a noise outside the door.

Shen Lanxi took off her black coat and walked in wearing a white shirt.

"..." Su Miao's eyes widened and she tugged at Jiang Huashan's arm, "Hello, Brother Lan Xi."

Shen Lanxi nodded, her eyes naturally falling on Jiang Huashan, "Have you eaten?"

Jiang Huashan shook his head.

Shen Lanxi turned around, "Gao Zhi."

Gao Zhi entered the room carrying a pile of fresh vegetables, his face wooden as he recited the lines he had prepared in advance, "I bought some vegetables. Miss Jiang, do you like spicy or non-spicy food?"

……