Fall in love with summer flamingos

When Gu Shiye opened the door and walked into the yard, he glanced at the living room lights. They were not on, just like when he left. Only the lights in the stairwell were on. He looked up and saw that the curtains in the rooms on the fourth floor were drawn and the lights were on. His room was in the same row as Gu Shiye's room, and the lights were on. It was almost eleven o'clock, so it seemed that Gu Shiye had not fallen asleep yet.

After entering the bedroom, he changed his clothes first, then took off his down jacket, took out a clothes hanger from the closet, put the clothes on, and took them to the bathroom. He found a brush, dipped some laundry detergent, and cleaned the place where he had just sat dirty. Then he took it under the shower to rinse off the foam, and then hung the clothes on the spare rod in the bathroom and waited for it to dry naturally.

Then he went to the bedroom to get some clean clothes, prepared to take a quick shower, and then lay on the bed to send a message to Su Yangxia, or send a video to chat with him for a while.

He finished his shower and sat on the bed. Just as he was about to pick up his phone to send a message to Su Yangxia, Gu Shiye knocked lightly on the door and called him in a weak voice.

"Brother...can I come in?"

Gu Shiye pondered for a few seconds, then lowered his head and sent a message to Su Yangxia while saying, "Come in."

After Gu Shiye came in, he closed the door gently. Then he dragged his slow steps and slowly moved in from the door step by step. He walked towards him with his head lowered, then sat next to him and slowly raised his head to look at him.

Gu Shiye's eyes were filled with moisture. After hesitating for a moment, he asked with some difficulty, "Brother... did you go to see mom tonight?"

Gu Shiye opened his lips slightly and looked at him with a frown. "Well...how did you know? Did you enter my room?"

Gu Shiye nodded gently. "Well, I knocked on the door for a long time, but you didn't open it, so I opened the door and took a look. It wasn't intentional."

Gu Shiye nodded blankly without any emotion and looked at him. "Well, what do you want to say when you come in? Go ahead."

"I...I...I want to sleep with my brother tonight, only tonight, just tonight...is that okay?" Gu Shiye said stutteringly.

Gu Shiye looked at his brother with that pitiful and innocent face, and his watery eyes looking at him, as if if he rejected him today, he would be some kind of unforgivable evildoer. He felt a deep sense of powerlessness...

"Okay, but only tonight." Gu Shiye said, then opened his phone and sent a message to Su Yangxia.

"Y: Baby, Gu Shiye is going to sleep in my room today. He's in a bad mood and can't chat with you tonight."

"X: Oh, okay... then you should rest early. Su Nuan and I will chat for a while and then go to bed."

"Y: Goodnight, baby."

"X: Good night,"

Gu Shiye looked at his brother's lowered head and the fingers pressing back and forth, and couldn't help but ask, "Brother? Who are you texting?"

Gu Shiye looked at him and said, "Classmate, if you feel sleepy, you can come up and sleep now." Gu Shiye stood up and turned off the ceiling light in the bedroom, leaving only the table lamp on the bedside.

He took out an eye mask from the drawer and handed it to Gu Shiye, "Take this. If it's too bright, put it on."

Gu Shiye raised his head and looked at Gu Shiye with misty eyes. He was stunned for a few seconds, then hugged Gu Shiye tightly with his arms and buried his head in Gu Shiye's chest. "Brother, hold me for a while... just a while... I really feel very uncomfortable."

Gu Shiye lowered his head to look at his dizzy head, then slowly raised his arm and gently rubbed his head. The person in his arms gradually began to tremble slightly in the shoulders, and bursts of sobs came out of his nose. Then after several minutes, Gu Shiye felt a warmth through his clothes, and the range seemed to be getting wider and wider.

He held Gu Shiye's head with both hands, then looked into his eyes and wiped away the tears from the corners of his eyes with the thumbs of both hands. "Don't cry, it's almost 12 o'clock, it's the new year, it's not good..."

Gu Shiye looked at him and nodded obediently, then forced a smile and said, "Thank you, brother..."

He let go of Gu Shiye's head, patted his shoulder and told him to go to bed. He also got into bed and turned the desk lamp to the lowest setting...

Gu Shiye was facing the lamp with his back to him. He felt that the pair of eyes behind him were staring at his back intently. He slowly closed his eyes...

Just when Gu Shiye was about to fall asleep, Gu Shiye who was sleeping next to him leaned over and rested his head on his shoulder, gently stroking him with his forehead, and then put one hand on his body. He was about to reach out to take the hand away when the person behind him suddenly spoke.

"Brother, don't... let me hug you, I really... miss you, I miss you like crazy... We have been together since we were young, but you left and left me here alone.

I know you hate me and resent me, but I can't help it. I know I'm not a good person, and I can't make up for what happened in the past, but I... really care about you... Can you... please don't ignore me? You're my only brother... Please ignore me, I'll slowly change... and become a less annoying brother...

Gu Shiye felt mixed emotions in his heart. He often wondered what he should do to forgive him, let go of everything he had endured over the past decade, and erase from his memory all the things Gu Shiye had done to him.

He couldn't forget, even if he wanted to forget those things, but for this matter with his mother, he would never be able to forgive Gu Shiye, himself... and Gu Haiyang...

His father's partiality and inaction, his brother's willfulness and selfishness, and his own cowardice and tolerance—it was these three who, together, had created the current situation, causing his mother to lose her life at the prime of her life. He could never reconcile with these two people in his family, never forgive them. If his mother were still alive, he could force himself to let go of the humiliation and hurt he had endured... but unfortunately, there was no if...