Fall in love with summer flamingos

Gu Shiye has been thinking all day long: Gu Haiyang has reasons for Gu Shiye becoming like this, and his mother has reasons too. But does that mean he has no reasons at all? Can he really just sit back and do nothing about it?

If he had been a little more enthusiastic towards Gu Shiye, not so cold to him, and let go of the grudges in his heart a little, would the relationship between him and Gu Shiye not have turned out like this?

"After we finish dealing with the company's affairs, can I accompany you to see a doctor?" Gu Shiye came back to his senses and said to Gu Shiye, patting Gu Shiye's back gently as if to comfort him.

Gu Shiye raised his head from his arms and looked at Gu Shiye: "Really? Brother? Will you really go with me?"

Gu Shiye nodded: "Really."

"Brother, I really love you, please don't ignore me." Gu Shiye hugged Gu Shiye and sobbed.

Gu Shiye frowned and nodded, then said nothing more. He didn't know what else to say to Gu Shiye.

He was extremely tired. After being stuck in such a family relationship for more than ten years, he was exhausted. Gu Shiye could not forgive Gu Shiye for what he had done over the years.

But now, for Su Yangxia, he can try to let go of the resentment in his heart and try to be brothers with Gu Shiye, try to keep peace with him. Only if he and Gu Shiye can maintain this balance, Gu Shiye and Su Yangxia will have the possibility to go to a more distant future.

Gu Shiye always thought that the biggest obstacle on his road to freedom was Gu Haiyang. It was not until now that he realized that his obstacle had always been Gu Shiye.

All along, he was only thinking about how to escape from Gu Haiyang's control, but he never paid attention to Gu Shiye's paranoia and his morbid feelings towards him.

Gu Shiye is like a conscious puppet that needs to be restrained. You can only pull him slowly and bit by bit onto the right path. If you forcibly cut the rope connecting him, he will pounce on you and bite you to death.

Gu Shiye is the one holding the rope. Only if he holds the rope tightly in his hand will this doll with a soul not bite him or others.

Only now did he finally understand the telepathy that twins have. When Gu Shiye was in pain, Gu Shiye would also feel a little pain in his heart.

Since I have been in so much pain these years, would Gu Shiye also be in pain? Could it be that he has been suffering with me all these years?

"Have you been happy these years?" Gu Shiye looked at Gu Shiye in the dim light.

Gu Shiye raised his eyes and looked at Gu Shiye, whispering, "Not happy."

"Why are you unhappy?" Gu Shiye asked, staring at his deep and aggrieved eyes.

There were still wet traces of tears on Gu Shiye's face, and his eyes looked at him like a little deer: "Because brother is unhappy."

Gu Shiye pinched his chin and wiped away his tears: "It must have been very hard these past few years, right?"

"It's not hard, just sad." Gu Shiye sniffed.

Gu Shiye grabbed Gu Shiye's hand and asked with a choked voice: "Brother, I want to ask you a question."

"You ask." Gu Shiye let Gu Shiye rub his fingers.

"Three years ago, when you finally sank into the bathtub, I pulled you out in the middle of the night. I told you that you could go find Su Yangxia when you return home. I told you that maybe Su Yangxia was waiting for you too.

If I hadn't said these words, would you still continue to do that when I'm not paying attention..." Gu Shiye's voice trembled a little.

Gu Shiye's fingers trembled, and he looked at Gu Shiye. He said softly, "Maybe, it was your words that gave me the courage to live. I didn't intend to do that kind of thing, I just couldn't control myself."

"Brother... do you really love him that much?" Gu Shiye's tears fell.

Gu Shiye nodded: "Yes, he is the only lover of my life."

"Lover, love, the only lover of my life." Gu Shiye repeated these words blankly.

"Do you really hate Su Yangxia?" Gu Shiye wiped away Gu Shiye's tears and asked seriously.

Gu Shiye shook his head in realization: "I never thought of hurting him, I was just, I was just jealous that my brother loved him so much..."

"Am I so bad that my brother hates me so much? I'm not as good as Su Yangxia and not as kind as him, so my brother hates me." Gu Shiye said in a sticky voice with his head down and looking at the ground.

Gu Shiye lifted his head and said, "Everyone has two sides, good and evil. We are human because we have the ability to control ourselves. So you have to learn to control yourself and suppress the little devil in your heart, okay?"

"Brother, do you also want to be bad sometimes?" Gu Shiye asked Gu Shiye timidly.

Gu Shiye nodded: "Of course, there are times when I want people to disappear, and there are times when I want to strangle people to death. But good and evil are only a thought away. You can't forget the good in your heart because of that momentary evil thought, understand?"

Gu Shiye raised his hands and rubbed his eyes: "Brother, you have thought about strangling me to death, right?"

Gu Shiye looked at Gu Shiye without saying anything, just looking at him. He had always been clumsy and resistant when it came to their relationship, but now he really wanted to reconcile with Gu Shiye.

Gu Shiye sneered: "I once had a very bad idea. I once wanted to bury my brother in the yard so that I could see him every day. Am I a pervert?"

"But I didn't do that because I still wanted to see my brother smile and I wanted to see him all the time."

"When my brother first went to S City, I hid under the covers and cried every day. If he didn't reply to my messages, I would also hide under the covers and cry. I don't know how many days and nights I cried myself to sleep."

"I know I did a lot of wrong things when I was a kid, but no one told me it was wrong. I thought as long as I apologized, everything would be fine. I didn't know I would cause such harm to my brother."

"Even my brother never told me not to take my toys, not to hide my red scarf, or to drive my friends away. I did all that just because I wanted him to talk to me more. He even scolded me, but he was always so calm. No matter what I did, he remained indifferent."

Six years ago, Gu Shiye seemed to have said something similar to himself, but at that time, Gu Shiye didn't want to listen, nor was he willing to listen, nor did he want to prove whether what Gu Shiye said was true or false. At that time, Gu Shiye just wanted to escape.

Gu Shiye seems to be still that child who has not grown up. If you confront him, he will rebel against you with harsh words and hurt each other. If you are gentle with him, he will apologize to you with grievance.

Gu Shiye used to think that Gu Shiye’s apology or nice words were just a means of getting what he wanted. However, as he grew older, Gu Shiye’s behavior seemed more like a compromise, a signal of courtship. If he didn’t get the corresponding love after the compromise, he would become sarcastic and domineering, and seek attention in another way.

"I'm sorry, I'm wrong too." Gu Shiye frowned and said these three words to Gu Shiye with difficulty.

This was the first time he had said these three words to Gu Shiye in so many years, and he felt unfamiliar and uncomfortable.

Gu Shiye looked at Gu Shiye in disbelief, his face full of astonishment. He frowned and looked at Gu Shiye: "Brother, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry."

"Okay, okay, I was wrong too. I shouldn't have not given you a chance to make amends." Gu Shiye looked at Gu Shiye's panicked face and his voice was full of apology.

"My brother always said he would give me a chance, but he never really gave me one." Gu Shiye looked extremely aggrieved at this moment.

Gu Shiye frowned, not knowing what to say. He had indeed never really given Gu Shiye a chance to change. He always instinctively rejected his approach and refused to stay in the same space with Gu Shiye.

Gu Shiye had never truly opened the door of forgiveness to Gu Shiye. He stubbornly believed that Gu Shiye had an inferior character and would never truly change in his life, so he stubbornly locked Gu Shiye outside his door of forgiveness and did not allow him to get any closer.

In fact, whether it is Gu Haiyang, Gu Shiye, or myself, they are all paranoid and stubborn people, but the things that each of them is paranoid about are different.

Gu Haiyang’s obsession is his mother, Gu Shiye’s obsession is his brother, and Gu Shiye’s obsession is Su Yangxia.

Everyone is paying a huge price for his own paranoia. Gu Haiyang's paranoia led to his wife's untimely death, and Gu Shiye's paranoia caused his brother to be estranged from him for more than ten years.

Gu Shiye's paranoid view of Gu Shiye indirectly caused Su Yangxia to suffer great harm, resulting in the two being separated for six years.

"I'm really sorry, Xiaoye, I won't lie to you this time." Gu Shiye pushed aside Gu Shiye's frown and smiled at him.

Gu Shiye looked up at Gu Shiye's smile. That was what he had longed for most in the past ten years. He finally saw at this moment that his brother no longer had any dislike in his eyes.

Gu Shiye raised his arm and stroked the corner of Gu Shiye's mouth, whispering: "Brother, the sky is finally clear."

Gu Shiye showed a long-lost smile, and Gu Shiye also smiled at him. At this moment, they saw each other's shadows on each other's faces.