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After that, he stayed in the hospital for another two or three days. After being discharged and returning home, Meng Zhao brought food from home to Su Yangxia every day and went downstairs to feed him. He watched him eat it bite by bite. If he refused to eat, Meng Zhao would pry open Su Yangxia's mouth and force the food into his mouth. He would stay with Su Yangxia until he fell asleep before going upstairs.

But Meng Zhao didn't know that after he left, Su Yangxia got up and ran into the bathroom, holding the toilet and vomited all the stuff out.

Su Yangxia didn't vomit on purpose, it was just a natural reaction of her body that made her vomit. She vomited everything she ate. During those two months, Meng Zhao watched Su Yangxia gradually lose weight. Even though he diligently brought her food and fed her every day, Su Yangxia still lost more than ten pounds.

Later, the test results came out, and Gu Shiye fulfilled his promise to the class teacher. Su Yangxia's score was also very high, less than 80 points away from Gu Shiye.

In the end, both of them received admission letters from the school as they wished, but they never met again.

....The memories end....

Meng Zhao took back the painful thoughts from those years. When he finished saying this, his hands couldn't stop shaking and tears kept flowing down.

Gu Shiye sat opposite Meng Zhao, silently shedding tears. He pinched himself until he bled without making a sound. Meng Zhao only saw the tabletop getting wetter and wetter, and the wet spot growing larger and larger.

"So, you know why I hate you." Meng Zhao wiped away his tears and said with a sob.

Gu Shiye nodded silently with tears in his eyes: "You should hate me, you should hate me..."

Meng Zhao burst into tears: "I really hated you, your father and your brother back then. If Yang Er hadn't met you, he wouldn't have become what he became."

"He was lucky to have taken a can of expired sleeping pills at the time. Do you know how scared I was? The doctor said it was a good thing they were expired, otherwise, based on that dosage, he would definitely..."

Meng Zhao couldn't stop crying, and tears kept flowing out of his big eyes.

Meng Zhao cried and took a sip of wine. "You know, Yang'er has always been a role model in my heart, the strongest one. Look at how miserable he was as a child, like a wild child with no one to take care of him, and yet he didn't grow up badly. If it were any other person, he would have had some psychological problems a long time ago."

Gu Shiye suddenly burst into tears: "I'm sorry, he shouldn't have met me, shouldn't have met me."

Meng Zhao tilted his head back, took a deep breath, and exhaled with great effort, then looked down at Gu Shiye:

"I asked Yang'er if he regretted meeting you. Do you know what he said?"

Gu Shiye looked at Meng Zhao with tears in his eyes: "He, what did he say..."

Meng Zhao said in a trembling voice, "He said that even if he did it ten thousand times, he would still like you. He only regretted that he didn't have the ability to protect you and couldn't save you."

Gu Shiye's last psychological defense line collapsed instantly. His crying became louder and his voice kept shaking. He covered his face with his hands and his voice came out intermittently from between his fingers:

"I almost killed him... I almost killed him... I really almost killed him..."

Meng Zhao wiped away his tears and looked out the door: "Later, Yang'er wanted to look for you once."

Gu Shiye's hands, which were covering his face, were shaking constantly. After hearing Meng Zhao's words, he slowly lowered his hands and asked with tears in his eyes, "He looked for me? When?"

Meng Zhao turned his head and looked at Gu Shiye's broken face:

It was around September. I was with him that day when he received a message from Shen Luo saying that Li Mingfan, you and your brother were going abroad.

There is another thing. It was around the end of July or the beginning of August. Yang'er had a quarrel with his family. It seemed that he drank too much at home and kept looking at your photos and your voice messages on his phone. His parents saw it when they came back.

His mother grabbed him with her cell phone and asked him what was going on between him and you. Yang'er was like crazy that day and smashed a lot of things at home. His parents scolded him, and then he fell ill again with stomach problems and fever. He refused to see me when I went to find him. Su Nuan took care of him at home for a few days, and his condition gradually improved.

Then it was September. That day Yang'er and I were in the old house. I pulled him to play games on the sofa. He suddenly received a WeChat message, stood up and said he was going to City A. Then I asked him what was wrong. Yang'er said you were going abroad and he wanted to see you secretly.

We were originally planning to go together, but just as we bought the tickets, Yang'er's mother called him and asked him where he was and told him to go home quickly, saying she had something urgent to tell him. Yang'er said he had to go to City A and had to leave right away and refused to go back, so the two of them started arguing on the phone.

Later, his mother had a car accident. Yang'er heard a crash and brake sounds on the phone and went crazy. We both started running outside.

We finally went straight to the hospital. Halfway through the run, Yang'er received a call asking him to go directly to the hospital. When he arrived at the hospital, his mother was already dead. The doctor handed Yang'er a bloody file bag that was found at the scene. His mother should have been holding it in her hand at the time.

Yang'er's mother was diagnosed with advanced breast cancer. The report said she had at most six months to live. That day, his mother called him to go home, probably to tell him about this.

In the end, he didn't make it to City A, and his family was broken up. After his mother's funeral was handled, his father was heartbroken and transferred all the family businesses, saying that he wanted to take him and Su Nuan abroad.

In the end, he refused to go no matter what, and his father had no choice but to take Su Nuan to Malaysia in a fit of anger.

Later, one time Yang Er didn't want to live again, but I still found him. He went to the seventh-floor rooftop of the building where you lived, and I dragged him down and beat him up.

Yang'er ended up going to S University and I also went to S University. After you broke up, Yang'er seemed like a different person. His mother died and you left, and then he went completely crazy.

In the first few months of school, I felt that something was wrong with Yang'er. He was dazed every day at school, his brain reacted very slowly, and he was often a beat late when you said anything to him. He also always stood on the rooftop in a daze, with no spirit in his eyes, as if he had been possessed by someone.

One day he asked me to buy him a bottle of water. When I came back and passed by the teaching building, I had a bad feeling. I looked up and saw Yang'er at Tiantai Mountain. He took a step forward and smiled at me. I was scared at the time and yelled loudly downstairs, and then he took his foot back.

When I ran up to the rooftop, Yang'er looked at me stupidly. I scolded him, and he told me that he didn't want to jump, he just stood there unconsciously. I felt that something was wrong with him at that time.

After that, I would go to him for meals after class. We lived a little far away from each other. Sometimes I had to participate in some club activities and sometimes I couldn't take care of him. I asked him to join a club of interest, but he refused to join. He just had no interest in anything, like a puppet without a soul.

As a result, before the end of the first half of the semester, he became more and more abnormal, and the rumors about him in the school became outrageous.

I looked up some information online and asked a senior psychology student in the club. She suggested that I take him to have a look. I persuaded him for a long time before he agreed to go with me.

Meng Zhao twisted his face and laughed weakly:

The diagnosis was mental illness, schizophrenia. I had never seen this kind of disease in my life, and I never thought it would happen to Yang'er.

At the time, I often wondered, "Why? Why on earth? Why did he become so mentally ill just because of one relationship? I felt like God was being so unfair to him."

Meng Zhao couldn't help crying as he spoke, his eyes were swollen. He wiped his tears with both hands and continued:

"I accompanied him to see the doctor for two or three months, but his condition kept coming back. Yang Er rented a house at that time, so I lived with him every day and watched over him. I was afraid to sleep at night.

Later, when he went for a follow-up visit, the doctor advised him to have some thoughts and hopes, so that the disease would improve.

During that period, he was really passive and uncooperative. Later, I said to him: Yang'er, if you want to see Gu Shiye, go find him, but you have to get well after you get well before you can go find him, right?

Did you know that Yang'er's eyes lit up? He asked me, "I want to see a doctor. Where can I find him?"

Then I said, "Of course, we should go to places you've been to, places you've had memorable dates on, and do you have any plans or promises? Actually, I just said that casually."

I didn't expect that he really did have it. Later, he really cooperated with the treatment. He returned to school in the second half of the semester and actively moved into the dormitory. I was happy at that time. After all, there were so many people in the dormitory, and it was better than me taking care of him alone.

Then Yang'er started going to City A to see you every weekend, saying that you had agreed to meet at an amusement park.

"At that time... I felt that he had become even crazier. I wanted to go with him, but he refused to go." Meng Zhao sniffed and the sound he made was nasal.

Later, a boy in their class who had a good relationship with him, named Lin Nan, who lived in the same dormitory with him, seemed to have pursued him, but Yang'er rejected her.

Then it seemed that their relationship became quite good in the end. I often accompanied him to relax and took him out for a walk. I met him several times but didn't go to disturb him. I think Yang'er also wanted a friend who didn't know about his ugly deeds.

Although his symptoms have improved a lot, I am certain in my heart that he is really crazy, otherwise why would he have been looking for him for six years.

Sometimes I blame myself for the bad idea I came up with, but sometimes I am very glad that I came up with this bad idea. If it weren’t for this bad idea, it would be a question whether he could survive until now.

Brother Ye, you really haven't seen Yang'er like that with your own eyes. It hurts so much just looking at him.

I can't believe how much pain he can feel... I don't understand it. I can't figure it out no matter how hard I try. Why does he love you so much? He loves you so obsessively and madly.

Meng Zhao complained with tears in his eyes for more than two hours, telling Gu Shiye everything that Su Yangxia had experienced in the past six years in an undignified way.

He just felt that Gu Shiye should know all this, and he didn't want to hide it for Su Yangxia. Meng Zhao was not a saint nor a good person. He selfishly thought that Su Yangxia had suffered so much, why not let Gu Shiye know.

Su Yangxia loves him so much that she almost dies. He doesn't want to keep all these things buried deep in Su Yangxia's heart. Meng Zhao knows that Su Yangxia will never tell Gu Shiye these things in person in her life.

From the moment Gu Shiye contacted him, Meng Zhao knew that the two of them would be entangled again. He wanted Gu Shiye to live in Su Yangxia's heavy love for the rest of his life, cherish him and love him well.

"Thank you for telling me this." Gu Shiye's tears had dried up. He was numb and felt nothing but pain in his body.

Gu Shiye had never imagined that his lover had been enduring such agony for the past six years. His throat was no longer able to make any sound, and the tragic scenes in his mind emerged bit by bit. He felt only numbness despite the extreme pain.

He clenched his fists tightly. Besides self-blame, regret and heartache, he was also filled with anger. Gu Haiyang and Gu Shiye, the two culprits who had caused him and Su Yangxia to be separated for so many years, Gu Shiye could hardly suppress the anger and hatred in his heart.

"Has he been taking medicine for his illness?" Gu Shiye asked.

Meng Zhao nodded weakly. "Yeah, he sometimes forgets to eat, over and over again. He's been working so hard these past two years that he's forgotten to eat or sleep."

"I will accompany him to get cured." Gu Shiye's voice was trembling and hoarse.

Meng Zhao smiled and patted Gu Shiye's shoulder: "Be good to Yang'er. No one in this world will love you more than him."

Gu Shiye looked at Meng Zhao's red eyes and nodded: "Well, I won't let him down."

The two chatted in Meng Zhao's shop for two or three hours. It was basically Meng Zhao talking and Gu Shiye listening. Finally, Gu Shiye called Shen Yu in the car and had some food in Meng Zhao's shop. After the meal, Gu Shiye and Shen Yu got up and left to prepare to return to City A.

Before leaving, Gu Shiye told Meng Zhao not to tell Su Yangxia that he had come to see him. Meng Zhao smiled and nodded in agreement.

Meng Zhao has always been a person who is confused about small things but understands the truth in big things. He looked at Gu Shiye's back and finally smiled faintly, but his heart suddenly felt extremely sad and painful.

Meng Zhao looked at Gu Shiye's back as he left: Yang'er, I hope that from now on you will only be happy and never sad again. Be happy, be very happy. I will wait for you to come back.

Shen Yu drove the car all the way, glancing at Gu Shiye's swollen eyes from time to time. Gu Shiye just stared blankly at the road ahead without saying a word. He confirmed his guess.

What happened in these years was really too heavy a price for Gu Shiye. Suddenly, Shen Yu felt happy for Gu Shiye again.

Shen Yu suddenly felt that there was a sense of waiting for the clouds to clear and the moon to appear. Love is the most fragile but also the most tenacious.

It was already past one in the morning when Gu Shiye got home. He took a shower in the guest room downstairs, then went upstairs and tiptoed into the bedroom.

He gently lifted the quilt and crawled in, turning up the air conditioner a little. Su Yangxia left a night light on for him, and he reached out to flick it off.

Ever since Su Yangxia broke up with him, Gu Shiye has not been afraid of the dark anymore. Gu Shiye buried his face in Su Yangxia's neck, hugged his waist and moved closer to him.

"You're back?" Su Yangxia woke up naturally when she felt the familiar hug and the lights suddenly dimmed.

Gu Shiye rubbed his hair and said, "Are you pretending to sleep again?"

Su Yangxia turned around and faced him in the dark room: "Why is your voice so hoarse? Why are your eyes so swollen?"

"Well, I had a social event and drank some alcohol tonight. Drinking too much alcohol can easily cause edema." Gu Shiye kissed the tip of his nose and said.

Su Yangxia sniffed it and found it had a familiar smell of beer. He raised his hand and touched Gu Shiye's swollen eyes: "Mr. Gu drinks such cheap beer for social events."

"Beer all tastes the same. Can you still smell it after brushing your teeth?" Gu Shiye said softly.

"Don't lie, you liar." Su Yangxia knew that Gu Shiye was lying.

Gu Shiye looked at Su Yangxia and suddenly felt that now was a good time. He said in a muffled and aggrieved voice:

"Actually, I realized your calcium supplement is not calcium supplement, and then I felt sorry for you. I cried for a long time and that's why I became mute."

Su Yangxia was stunned for several seconds before speaking: "You...know."

Gu Shiye nodded, held his face and said, "Don't blame me, baby, I'm just worried about you."

When Su Yangxia heard the words "long-lost treasure", the sour feeling in his heart surged again. He sniffed and said in a low voice with a breath:

"Then...will you dislike me? I have mental problems now." Su Yangxia asked Gu Shiye cautiously.

Gu Shiye felt as if his heart was being cut out when he heard his words. He hugged him tightly in his arms, kissed his cheek and said:

"No, I will always love you, no matter what you are."

"I'm taking my medicine well." Su Yangxia murmured as he smelled the familiar scent of shower gel.

"Okay, I'll accompany you for treatment, okay? I've already taken a vacation and will focus on staying at home with you." Gu Shiye pinched his chin and kissed him.

Su Yangxia hugged Gu Shiye and kissed him: "Aren't you afraid of getting tired of being together every day?"

Gu Shiye shook his head and said in a hoarse voice, "You are my life, baby."

Su Yangxia looked into Gu Shiye's eyes and murmured, "You are my life too."

"Go to sleep, I'm sleepy." Su Yangxia nodded and her arm slowly slid down.

Gu Shiye felt that Su Yangxia was really sleepy and was just waiting for him to go home.

Gu Shiye whispered in Su Yangxia's ear, "Good night, my baby." He couldn't remember how long it had been since he had been so gentle.

Gu Shiye is still the same Gu Shiye, always gentle only to Su Yangxia.

Only Su Yangxia can make Gu Shiye give all his tenderness and love.