Time Travel: The Queen's Coronation

"Did you hear everything?" I looked at Li Zhanwen upstairs.

"I didn't mean to eavesdrop!" Li Zhanwen felt a little guilty.

"You didn't mean to stand there motionless the whole time? Were your feet stuck and you couldn't move?"

"I just want to know why other people of the opposite sex approach you!"

"Have I done anything recently to make you feel insecure?" I was confused.

"I've never felt safe! Even though we're together and have a child, without that marriage certificate and the blessings of our family and friends at the wedding, I always feel like something's missing!"

"But you are the only one in my heart, why don't you understand?"

"I know you have me in your heart, but I want to take our relationship to the next level. Will you marry me?" Li Zhanwen unexpectedly took out a diamond ring and proposed to me, leaving me a little at a loss.

"Why did you mention this again?"

"You know what? I almost wasn't qualified to sign the consent form for your surgery. The doctor said I was just your boyfriend and couldn't sign on behalf of a relative! My heart skipped a beat at the time, but when I finally found out it was true, I felt incredibly lost."

"But didn't you sign it in the end?"

"That's because your parents are not in Hegang and your child is a minor, so I can sign it."

"It's just a small incident, don't worry about it!"

"In this society, the relationship between husband and wife is a kind of kinship, but the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend is not! We need to abide by this rule when we live in this society. I want to be your relative, not just your boyfriend! Will you marry me?" Li Zhanwen knelt on one knee sincerely, holding up the diamond ring and looking at me.

Seeing that I was silent, Li Zhanwen continued, "You used to worry that my mother would become a hidden danger in our marriage, but now she just wants to do what she wants and rarely asks about the affairs of us children. What you worry about will not happen again!"

"But she is your mother after all!"

"Before I made this decision, I asked for her opinion. She said that I had full authority over it. She contributed to the Cheng family when she was single, and to the Li family after she got married. Now that she is old, her days are getting shorter and shorter, so she just wants to use her last time to live the life she wants. She will not and does not want to waste her energy interfering in our affairs!" Li Zhanwen promised solemnly.

“People’s hearts are fickle.”

"She's over sixty years old, she can't do anything anymore! Can you trust me just once? Give me a chance!"

"Let me think about it."

"Before, you were worried that my brothers and sisters would affect us, but after so long, they haven't interfered with our lives. Your worries are unnecessary!"

"But your problem is not small either!"

"Me? Is there anything about me that displeases you?"

"I can't remember it right now."

"That means I'm fine! You're just worrying too much! If you're still undecided, we can make a prenuptial agreement. If I fail to do something or make any mistakes after marriage, you can punish me directly, or even trigger the divorce clause! That's fine!"

"Uh……"

"Now Xu Jing is coming back. She's a lawyer, and you have your license. When the time comes, you can draft one together. I won't have any objections to the terms in it!"

"Get up first! We'll talk about this later."

"No! You have to promise me first, then I'll get up!"

"Look, you've learned to threaten me now."

Li Zhanwen stood up immediately after hearing this, "I'm getting up! Don't be angry."

After a long silence, Li Zhanwen spoke cautiously, "So, are you willing to marry me?"

"Marriage isn't that wonderful! I've been through it twice and know better than you how illusive it is."

"You can't throw the baby out with the bathwater! Just because Rong Zixuan and Shen Junhui take it for granted that all men are like them! Men can also be like me! Give me a chance, okay?"

"This won't work!"

"I can promise I'll treat you well!"

"I don't need your promise! The only one who can promise yourself is yourself! Only your own promise will never hurt you!"

"But are we just going to be together without any name or status?"

"How come we don't have a name? We are recognized..."

Li Zhanwen answered quickly: "Boyfriend or girlfriend?"

"Isn't this relationship okay? I think we're doing fine now!"

"That's just what you think! I think our relationship can go further, but you're holding back."

"You haven't experienced the pain of marriage, so you yearn for it. But you can't use my future to realize your yearning. I hope you understand me."

"I understand you, but who will understand me?"

"How about this for now? Let's both calm down for a while, okay? If you still don't change your mind after a week or a month, I'll think about it carefully!"

After much persuasion, Li Zhanwen finally agreed to calm down. However, over the next few days, he hinted and hinted at his intention to get married, which made me feel a little reluctant.

"You look very troubled. Are you worried about something?" Xu Jing stared at me and said.

"Li Zhanwen proposed to me again!"

"He's proposed to me more than once or twice, aren't you used to it? Is it because he's been proposing to me too many times that you're annoyed?"

"This time I can see that he is very serious and he will not give up until he achieves his goal."

"So do you want to get married or not?"

"To be honest, I don't want to! Because not getting married has so many benefits for me! But if I reject him, I'm afraid he will be hurt or I will lose him because of it."

"If you lose him because of this, it means his feelings for you are nothing more than this!"

"Is it because I don't love him enough that I dare not marry him?"

"Hey! Wake up! Don't be silly! Marriage is no joke. If you choose to compromise yourself just to keep him, you will suffer a lot more injustices in your marriage in the future!"

"What do you think makes a good partner and a good marriage?"

"It depends on the person! But I want to tell you, love yourself first before you can love others! You must love yourself first before you can love others! You can't accommodate others and compromise yourself! If you do that, you will lose yourself! You shouldn't be that kind of person!"

"If you were me, what would you choose?"

"If that's not true! You are you, and I am me. Our backgrounds and upbringings are completely different. I can't answer this question from your perspective."

"Then, from your own perspective, as an outsider, tell me whether I should accept his proposal?"

"Don't ask me such difficult questions!"

"Tell me what you want to say!"

"I can't say, because this problem is too complicated! It's more complicated than any case I've ever been involved in. It's so complicated that I have no idea!"

"What if you encounter something like me? There is a person who has liked you for a long time and gave up everything just to be with you! Will you accept him in the end?"

"Such a person shouldn't exist!"

"Don't worry about whether he exists or not. Tell me what you would do if you were in this situation. Would you accept his love or cruelly reject him?"

"How can rejection be cruel? It's normal for you to reject someone you don't like!"

"Don't run away from my questions!"

"Your questions are too tricky for me to answer. And even if I do, we'll talk about it later!"

Xu Jing and I talked for a long time but I still couldn’t come up with the answer in my mind. Love is really too complicated!