Marrying Gold and Jade

"If I call you the shots, you'll stay here? Hmm?"

The girl's cheek remained in his palm, her delicate eyebrows knitted, and she asked back: "What about you, do you want to stay in the palace?"

This question seemed to stump him. Xu Jinxuan's pair of brilliant eyes slowly lowered, and his eyelashes hid his thoughts.

Lin Yu continued, "I know you feel aggrieved. Now that the queen has passed away, her two children have left the imperial city forever. There is no one left by the emperor's side."

"Is your revenge still unsatisfied?"

The force on his body suddenly loosened, and Lin Yu watched him take a step back, and their bodies, which were tightly fitted together, slightly separated.

"Lin Yu, when did you become his lobbyist?"

Lin Yu said: "This is what I really think."

Xu Jinxuan just shook his head.

"You don't understand. It wasn't just the Queen who killed my mother. It was also my father who forced her to stay. Without him, there wouldn't be anything like today."

His hatred was deep, and he clearly found the culprit.

Lin Yu opened his lips, but his eyes became sore before he could say anything.

She was still sitting on the love table in the main hall, with her legs dangling. She lowered her head and said, "Without you, I wouldn't be here."

"In this life... no, maybe in my last life I was able to find someone to marry smoothly, and I would have no worries about food and clothing for the rest of my life, and I wouldn't have to suffer so much."

Xu Jinxuan didn't respond.

Then I heard her say, "But I don't hate you now."

"Why?"

Lin Yu said: "I didn't say it before, but I always worried about the fact that I was born into a merchant family. I always wanted to find a man from a noble family to be my husband, as if this would make up for what I lacked."

"I've seen it all on this trip from the southeast to the capital, and I don't want to do it again in this lifetime."

"Of course, maybe the only reason I don't hate you is because..."

Lin Yu paused, blinked and said nothing more.

Xu Jinxuan couldn't get the rest of the story, so he asked her, "Why?"

Even Lin Yu herself found it strange, but human emotions are indeed alive and moving, and she can now admit it frankly.

"Because I loved you."

This short sentence was like a huge wave, rising high up and then smashing towards Xu Jinxuan fiercely, causing a hint of surprise to appear between his usually sharp brows.

Lin Yu lowered her head, her skirt spread out on the table, and she nervously grasped it again, "When you were just Xu Jinxuan, I thought you were weird, but you didn't look like a bad person."

"You keep saying how annoying I am, but no matter what I want, you keep accommodating me. I know that you are a person who doesn't forgive others with your words."

"At that time, you must have been looking forward to me going up the mountain to find you." At this point, her two dangling embroidered shoes swayed, unable to hide her pride, "In fact, you liked me even earlier. You only saw me two or three times and you fell in love with me."

This kind of thing was unfamiliar to Xu Jinxuan, who had lived in the mountains for fifteen years, but it was common to Lin Yu. She had never lacked people who liked her since she was a child, and she was sure of his feelings for her.

But I was too scared at that time, fearing that he would kill me if he was unhappy.

Now that I think about it, he would only do these things because he liked the girl. No one taught him how to treat the girl he liked. He only knew how to fight and scheme, which made her feel mixed feelings of love and hate. Today, I feel a little tired again.

However, Xu Jinxuan couldn't get over those words for a long time.

He had heard Lin Yu say that she hated him and wanted to kill him, but he had never heard her say that she loved him.

It's natural to think that everything he has with her is obtained through his own struggle.

Now that I heard her say it herself, I realized that there seemed to be some traces of what happened before.

To be frank, regarding those things that happened on the bed, except for that one time, she was almost always submissive, without me having to force her.

The more Xu Jinxuan thought about it, the more he let out a sigh of relief, "It seems like you've already forgotten about the love poison."

She attributed Lin Yu's confession of feelings to the control of the love Gu over her.

Lin Yu said: "The poison is dead, but the human heart is alive."

"Or do you prefer to believe in the love poison rather than believe that I like you?"

Later that day, Xu Jinxuan didn't say anything else.

He no longer pressed Lin Yu as hard as he did in the beginning. If you asked him what he was thinking about when he was in a trance, it must be Lin Yu's words "Because I liked you".

She added the word "too" after "like", which always sounded less pleasant.

During the years he lived in Yunwu Mountain, he often went to the temple to listen to the monks chanting scriptures and the old abbot explaining the eight sufferings of life as described by the Buddha: birth, old age, sickness, and death, failure to obtain what one desires, meeting with those one hates, separation from those one loves, and the prevalence of the five elements.

Before going to Beijing, he had made up his mind to make the father die in his own hands, but now he has a new idea.

Death is just one of the eight sufferings.

He is in the prime of his life, but he will soon be old, and when he is old, he will be sick.

I heard that he had wanted to mend his relationship with the Queen Mother over the years, but was unable; he had already lost a pair of children, and they wanted him to be recognized as their father.

Then as long as he lives, these pains will accompany him.

Xu Jinxuan thought about it for a long time, and suddenly understood why his mother abandoned him and chose to commit suicide.

Maybe sometimes, living is indeed harder than dying.

"You don't want to stay in the palace, where do you want to go?"

They had been living in peace for two days. Lin Yuzheng was having a hot relationship with Xiaolan, who had completely revived in the spring. When he asked, she blurted out, "Of course I'm going back to Songjiang. My home is in Huating, and I want to go back."

"Your love poison has not yet been resolved. You know how uncomfortable it is when it attacks."

This time his tone was even, not a threat, just a statement of fact.

Lin Yu hugged Xiao Lan's swollen and soft snake body and said softly, "Then I want to go back too."

Xu Jinxuan squatted down in front of her and asked, "Do you want to get rid of the poison?"

At this moment he was somewhat skeptical, thinking that Lin Yu had confused the feeling when the poison took effect with his own feelings, and he even regretted planting the poison in her.

Suddenly I remembered what Yunniang said at the beginning, no matter whether the love poison succeeds or not, nine out of ten people will regret it.

Lin Yu let Xiaolan wrap around his arm, his eyes lit up, "Do you have any other ideas?"

"No." Xu Jinxuan answered simply, his eyes falling down to her belly, "You can only give birth to one child of mine."

Lin Yu was so angry that he hit him again.

Xu Jinxuan didn't hide, and even smiled, "Marry me and have a baby in the future."

She added, "Go back to Songjiang, go back to Huating and marry me."

This time it was Lin Yu's turn to be surprised.

She could tell that Xu Jinxuan had given in. He was willing to let go of his hatred for the imperial city and let her return to Songjiang.

However, he still refused to let go of himself.

As Lin Yu thought about this, he had already made a decision in his mind.

Three days later, they were going to Wangyue Pavilion. He rarely showed a generous attitude and even personally sent Lin Yu there.

But when Mingyuan was about to take over, he deliberately held Lin Yu tightly and leaned over to kiss her on the cheek.

Lin Yu immediately raised his hand and wiped the non-existent saliva from his cheek.