Abstinence Pei, don't be too sweet when chasing your wife

Chapter 232: Sadness of Parting

The night is deep, and the inky darkness wraps the world tightly. Outside the window, the sound of firecrackers and fireworks gradually fades away. The annual New Year's Eve has come to an end, and the first day of the new year has also arrived.

In the living room, the Spring Festival Gala was still playing, but the singing, dancing and laughter seemed to be separated by an invisible veil, and Pei Luonan's mind was not on it at all.

Grandma had gone back to her room to rest because she was old and tired. Her departing figure took away some of the warmth in the house, making Pei Luonan feel even more empty.

His eyes were involuntarily focused on Gu Fanxing.

She sat quietly in the halo, her profile soft and her eyes focused on following the TV screen, as if she was trying to remember every trace of this New Year's Eve.

Pei Luonan's heart seemed to be rubbed repeatedly by a pair of invisible giant hands, with emotions of joy and reluctance intertwined fiercely.

That night, every minute and every second spent with Gu Fanxing and his grandmother, are the most precious treasures in his heart.

From the tacit cooperation between the two in the kitchen during the preparation of the New Year's Eve dinner, to the warmth when they smiled at each other from time to time while watching the Spring Festival Gala, all of them were like shining stars, inlaid in the vast sky of his memory, gleaming brightly and warming his heart.

However, time passed mercilessly, the Spring Festival Gala was coming to an end, and he was about to say goodbye and return to the Pei family.

After this separation, I don’t know when I can spend such intimate and warm time again.

He was afraid that after parting with Gu Fanxing, his longing for her would be like a surging tide, completely drowning him. Such contradictory emotions, like sharp thorns of ice and fire, pierced deeply into the depths of his soul, and the pain spread.

"Mr. Pei, what's wrong with you? Are you tired?" Gu Fanxing seemed to sense the waves in his heart. She turned around and asked softly, her voice as gentle as the night breeze blowing on the strings of a musical instrument.

Pei Luonan was slightly startled, then forced a smile, shook his head, and said softly: "No, time flies, I just feel that this night is so fleeting." As the words came out, the silence of the night seemed to swallow up some of his strength.

Gu Fanxing smiled and said, "Yes, but I am really very happy today. Fortunately, you are here with me. Grandma and I have spent an unforgettable New Year's Eve."

In her eyes, gratitude and tenderness intertwined, just like stars falling into a deep pool, creating ripples.

This look made Pei Luonan's entanglement more tense. He longed to be with her forever and protect this pure beauty, but the reality was like an insurmountable chasm that stood in front of him.

As the countdown of the Spring Festival Gala host sounded, Pei Luonan's heart suddenly shrank, as if an invisible hand was tightly grasping his heart. Every countdown was like a heavy hammer, hitting his heart again and again.

When the countdown reached zero, the brief sound of firecrackers rang out again, but it could no longer dispel the gloom in his heart.

Pei Luonan stood up and slowly put on his coat. His movements were slow and heavy, as if a huge force was exerted on his body.

Gu Fanxing also stood up and stared at him silently, with a hint of loneliness flashing in her eyes.

"I should go." Pei Luonan uttered these words with difficulty, his voice was hoarse and dry, as if it had been polished by sandpaper.

"Okay, be careful on the road." Gu Fanxing responded softly, trying to keep her tone steady, but Pei Luonan still keenly caught the slight tremor that was difficult to conceal.

At this time, Gu Fanxing was also full of contradictions.

She was grateful to Pei Luonan for his company on this day, allowing her to spend a special and unforgettable New Year's Eve.

With him around, the family was filled with laughter and joy, and the past haze caused by life pressure and family difficulties was dispelled. His existence was like a beam of warm and bright light, shining into her life.

Although, deep down in her heart, Pei Luonan's impending departure made her feel an irrepressible sense of loss.

After he leaves, the house will probably return to its former silence and desolation, and her heart will seem to be missing a piece.

But she always remained sober and knew that the relationship between them was just a contractual one.

From the initial agreement, she understood her identity and boundaries. She could not give him more promises, whether it was emotional response or expectations for future life.

She knew that she couldn't ask for too much, nor could she push herself too far because of her momentary greed, and hope for happiness that didn't belong to her. This rationality was like a double-edged sword, which restrained her emotions while also hurting her heart.

Pei Luonan walked towards the door, his footsteps seemed to be attracted by a magnet, and every step was difficult.

When he reached the door, he couldn't help but look back at Gu Fanxing. She stood there quietly, like a lonely flower isolated from the world, exuding a lonely and charming fragrance in the depths of the night.

This glance made him feel an overwhelming urge, and he almost wanted to turn back and hold her in his arms, never to be separated. But he knew very well that he couldn't.

He took a deep breath, as if he wanted to inhale the coldness of the night and the pain in his heart into his lungs, and then opened the door.

The cold wind whistled in like a knife, and he couldn't help but shiver.

He took a step forward, but it was as if he had stepped into a desolate ice field. Every step was accompanied by bone-chilling cold and excruciating pain.

On the way back, Pei Luonan's mind was filled with memories of his time with Gu Fanxing.

In the kitchen, he taught her how to cut vegetables step by step. Her focused yet slightly clumsy expression was just like the sprouts of spring, so adorable that it made his heart ripple.

When the fireworks were set off, she looked up at the night sky, her eyes full of wonder and joy. That look became an eternal and beautiful picture in his heart.

They sat side by side on the sofa, watching the Spring Festival Gala together. Occasionally, they smiled at each other inadvertently, as if electricity was passing through their bodies. Those smiles were like the brightest stars in the night sky, lighting up the brilliance in his life.

He was filled with joy, as he had gained countless precious memories from this night, but the strong feeling of reluctance pierced his heart, and the pain spread throughout his body.

At the time of farewell on New Year's Eve, Pei Luonan was deeply trapped in the quagmire of contradictions and struggles. Joy and reluctance were like demons and angels, fighting fiercely in his heart, making his emotions unable to calm down for a long time.

This night, Pei Luonan was destined to toss and turn and have trouble falling asleep.

Gu Fanxing's voice, appearance and smile kept appearing in the darkness like a ghost, lingering in his mind and could not be shaken off.

Although he has never wavered in this relationship, the road ahead will certainly be full of thorns. However, he will never give up easily, but will move forward bravely and never retreat.

Pei Luonan's figure gradually disappeared into the night, while Gu Fanxing still stood at the door, the cold wind blowing her hair. She slowly raised her hand, as if she wanted to grab something, but then she let it go powerlessly.

At this time, light snow began to fall from the sky, and the snowflakes flickered under the street lights, just like her tangled and broken mood.

She sighed softly and went back to the house.

The warmth in the house hit her face, but it couldn't dispel the coldness in her heart.

She slowly walked to the window, looking in the direction where Pei Luonan left, her thoughts drifting away.

Pei Luonan walked alone on the cold street, and every step seemed to be carried with a thousand pounds of attachment.

He stopped and looked back at Gu Fanxing's residence. The dim light seemed particularly warm in the snowy night.

His heart was filled with melancholy. It was not because his love was not firm enough that made him hesitate, but because he was afraid that his overly strong and urgent emotions would be like a frightened bird, and would scare Gu Fanxing away.

He knew very well that this relationship was hard-earned, like a delicate flower, which needed to be carefully cared for and not rushed.

"Stars, although this farewell is painful, I am willing to use patience as soil, hoping that this fate will grow quietly." After saying this, he walked firmly towards his homeward journey with expectations for the future. His figure gradually went away in the wind and snow, leaving only a string of deep wheel marks, witnessing the vicissitudes and melancholy of the night, as well as his inner determination and affection at this moment.