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I feel like something is not right with me, but I can't figure out what's wrong. I used to only focus on my textbooks, but now, whether I'm in class or after class, I always want to secretly glance at Ruoyun next to me. I always have an urge to see what she is doing and how she feels.

When did this change begin? Sometimes I would seriously think about this question, but I couldn't come up with an answer. There was never any big event between us, nor was there anything like the other two deskmates who stuck together as soon as they met. It was probably just that the communication between her and I became more and more natural as time went by, and we gradually formed a tacit understanding in our relationship.

After thinking about it, maybe something happened that made me view her as more than just a deskmate.

In fact, even though I have many friends around me now, and with their intentional or unintentional protection, it seems that no one has any malicious eyes towards me anymore. But sometimes, I still can't help but fall into a somewhat pessimistic mood. This has been my habitual state for many years. Of course, it will not be possible to really get out of it in a short period of time.

I know very clearly what my problem lies, so when I can't control my emotions, I always go to the corridor, find a corner with fewer people, and look up at the sky silently. Of course, high school life is very busy, and I don't have so much time to adjust myself, so when I hear the bell to go back, sometimes I may still be in a low mood.

That was what happened that day. When I sat down quietly, the teacher on the podium had already begun urging everyone to take out the papers they had done in the previous class. I took them out without saying a word, and as usual, I silently took out a red pen to take notes. However, at this moment, a very small piece of paper was quietly handed to me along with a red pen.

I was stunned for a moment. She never lost her focus during class, and she was so well-behaved that she never seemed to do anything that would make the teacher angry. This was...

I raised my eyes to look in the direction of the teacher, but he didn't seem to be looking at us. I reached under the table and opened the small note. The words on it were very simple.

"What's wrong with you? Are you unhappy?"

At that moment, I couldn’t describe how I felt. It was like a child whose disguise was instantly taken off, and I almost had tears in my eyes because of the hands that penetrated the disguise and comforted me.

I really am a bit fragile.

Fortunately, the teacher's voice helped me control my emotions. I took a pen and quickly wrote a few words on the small piece of paper, "I'm fine, don't worry."

It is equally simple, but only I at that time knew that the words are simple, but the state of mind is not simple.

After class that day, I could sense from the corner of my eye that she glanced at me, but seemed to hesitate for a moment and didn't ask anything. I saw her hesitation, but was also a little scared, so I told her about my inner demons.

Maybe something was wrong with me, and it started from that time...

Since I was little, I have been following the rules and afraid of breaking the status quo, so I dare not explore the reasons for my emotions. So I have been hiding it secretly. Even unconsciously, I have become a little afraid to look into her eyes...

I was afraid that my thoughts would be seen by her and then she would hate me.

However, the brain always takes one step ahead of thinking and implements instructions to take care of her, such as when she needs help and when she doesn't need help that much.

I just awkwardly let my eyes stay on her, hoping at the same time that she wouldn't notice.

Until, after a long time, our dormitory and their dormitory decided to get together again.

Speaking of which, our dormitory hasn't been together for a long time, so let alone the girls in the dormitory. After all, Brother Min has been very busy since his debut. We three even said in the dormitory that he might not even have time to date Qingnian. We always see him on various TV programs, and every day on social platforms, we hear that he has flown here and there. As a newcomer, his popularity is also rising rapidly. Sometimes it feels magical that the person who was talking to us in the dormitory group in the last second is being interviewed in front of the camera in the next second.

However, he said in the group that his work schedule would be a little easier these two days, so he would come back to study for a few days, and we had the opportunity to get together again. As always, Zhou Ruoxing was in charge of the gathering location, Feng Qingyao and Li Chenyi were in charge of the event arrangements, and Qin Kexin, since Min Ge debuted, has taken on the job of setting up the scenery. After all, she really went to Min Ge's support many times...

And I, and she, as always...helped...

"Hey, hey, hey! Ruoyun, and Xiaochen, you two, go out and bring in the cake and drinks. This is what Brother Min ordered. It seems like there are quite a lot, and one person can't carry it all." Qin Keyin said in the direction of us while busy inflating the ball.

We looked at each other, put down the pumps in our hands, and said, "Okay."

The weather now is already a bit cold. When I walked out of the box and came outside, I couldn't help shivering. Looking at her next to me, who was not wearing much, I hesitated for a moment and took off my coat.

"Well...it looks like it hasn't arrived yet. We may have to wait for a while. Do you...want to put on a cloak?"

She was a little stunned, as if she didn't expect me to do this. I was also a little annoyed. When will I be able to change this problem of my mouth not keeping up with my brain? Just when I was embarrassed and wanted to take back the clothes, she unexpectedly took it silently and whispered, "Thank you."

I was a little slow to react at the time. When she had put on my clothes and was standing there, I felt her ears turn red, maybe because the weather was a little cold. I felt as if I was in another world, and then, the corners of my lips curled up unconsciously.

It seems that today is not that cold.

Brother Min and classmate Qingnian arrived with cake and drinks. When I took the cake from the takeaway, they just got off the car. When they saw that I took most of the things in my hands and only left a small part for her, and she was still wearing my clothes, I seemed to see the two of them smiled at each other, and then walked in without saying anything.

I felt a little embarrassed, and I felt that...the two of them seemed to know something...