Traveling through the Lotus Tower: Li Lianhua, you must live well

Su Ci said unhappily, "What? Didn't I tell you that I could cure you? Didn't you turn a deaf ear to my words? Or do you have no desire to survive in your subconscious mind?"

Li Lianhua immediately shook her head frantically: "I'm not, I didn't, don't talk nonsense."

Su Ci sneered: "Oh, you better not. If I knew that the person I saved was looking for death, I would make you die in a rhythmic way!"

Li Lianhua quickly clarified: "Miss Su, please don't wrongly accuse me. Who wants to die when they can live? What's more, I still have things to complete, so I can't die now."

Mentioning this, Su Ci's anger, which had been fading a little, flared up again: "You want to live? You can lie to yourself, but you want to lie to me? I'm not a fool!

There are some things I don't want to say, because they hurt feelings and are boring. But since we have come to this point today, I'd better make it clear to avoid you causing trouble again.

During this period of time together, I have come to understand that you are not attached to life, you do not force it, you just go with the flow, if you can live then live, if you can't live then it doesn't matter if you die, you are not obsessed with living at all.

If this kind of mentality were placed on people in their seventies or eighties, I would still praise them for being open-minded.

But how old are you? You've only just come of age, but you look like you have lost all hope in life. Who are you showing this dead look to? Yun Biqiu or Xiao Zijin? Or your lover Qiao Wanwan?

You say you want to live, but what about the reality? Do you really have the desire to live?

Have you ever asked me about your condition? Have you ever asked me how I should treat you? No!

I told you I could cure you, did you really listen? No, you just thought I was comforting you.

You seem to be actively cooperating with the treatment, but what is the actual situation? Don't you have any idea?

Humans are social animals, but what about you? You stay away from the crowd, hide in this corner, and avoid dealing with others if you can.

Master Wu Liao has written you several letters. Have you ever responded? No, not even once.

You are closing your heart and slowly cutting off your connection with the world.

You seem gentle now, but in fact you are cold and perfunctory.

You had smooth sailing in the first twenty years of your life and were a child of destiny. But suddenly you fell from the altar and were unable to recover. This is normal and understandable.

However, this does not mean that you can just give up on yourself. Are you worthy of those who care about you? Are you worthy of your master and his wife?

And there's the matter of the Lotus Tower. Do you think I'm angry because there's no room for me in the Lotus Tower?

This is the new home you prepare for yourself, so of course you have to build it according to your own preferences. If there is a room for me, I will be happy, but if there is not, that is also normal. I don’t really need to have a room in someone else’s house.

What makes me angry is that there are only enough daily necessities for one person in the Lotus Building, and you didn’t even prepare spare bowls and chopsticks. This shows that you don’t intend to have too much interaction with others, you don’t want any ties, and you never thought that any friends would come to you.

You only want one person from beginning to end.

Living alone, wandering the world alone, and one day dying alone in a corner where no one knows you, without even anyone to collect your body. "

Li Lianhua listened to Su Ci's scolding and turned away in embarrassment, not daring to look into her angry eyes.

He didn't want to see his ugly self in Su Ci's clear and bright eyes.

At the beginning, he was indeed full of resentment, especially when the poison took effect. He blamed everyone and everything, hated Yun Biqiu's betrayal, hated Xiao Zijin for disbanding the Sigumen, and hated Qiao Wanwan for leaving him.

But more than that, I hate myself. I hate myself for being ambitious, stubborn, and incapable of judging people. I deserve the fate I have now.

What's more, he was carrying so many lives on his shoulders, which made him feel suffocated.

Every time he woke up in the middle of the night, the brothers who died because of him appeared in his dreams, questioning why he was still alive and why he didn't die with them.

And there is also senior brother.

Every time he would dream of the scene when he had an argument with his senior brother. He said so many hurtful words that made his senior brother leave in anger and even caused his senior brother to die tragically.

He told himself to learn to let go, but these were his sins and he could not let go from beginning to end.

Maybe, in the future, he will come to terms with himself, but not now.