After rebirth, I don’t want to be a Mary Sue heroine anymore!

I am the envy of the entire Dayun Dynasty. My father has been the prime minister since I was born, and he was given important positions as I grew up. My mother is the daughter of a founding general.

Although the entire dynasty had only been established for a few years when I was born, the emperor attached great importance to me, the daughter of the prime minister. When I was born, he betrothed me to the prince and said: "My children, the one who is outstanding in the future will become the prince, and then marry our Luo Qingqing."

Luo Qingqing is my name. When I was born, I announced to the entire Dayun Dynasty that I was the future queen. Later, I did become the queen, but on the eighteenth day after becoming the queen, I suddenly died.

After I died, somehow my soul had no way to be reincarnated. I could only wander between my husband, father, and mother.

After I died, the emperor immediately took a woman back to the palace. I thought that woman looked very similar to me. The emperor would hold her hand and gently call out: "Qingqing, let's go to dinner, okay?"

I think Wen Yiheng must love me, otherwise why would he find a woman who looks like me to enter the palace after I died and call my name.

Wen Yiheng came to the palace to accompany her as soon as he got off court, and even gave that woman all his tenderness.

When I was alive, Wen Yiheng treated me the same way. He would get me whatever I wanted and never lost his temper with me.

I was a little angry at first. He couldn't wait to let a new woman enter the palace before my body was cold. But when I saw that woman's face, I thought: Forget it. I'm dead. People are dead. But the living always need a thought to continue living. Otherwise, what's the difference between having no thoughts and being dead?

Every day I watched Wen Yiheng and Qingqing being affectionate, and I was actually very jealous. But then I thought that since I was already dead, there was no need to fight with a living person, and it was useless. I had enjoyed so much glory when I was alive, so it didn't matter now.

That day, Wen Yiheng took Qingqing to court, and the court called Qingqing the queen. Her face was really not much different from mine, and she was dressed like a queen like me before, so the officials didn't notice it.

The rule that I go to court with Wen Yiheng was set when he was still the crown prince. This rule was also set by the late emperor. The late emperor knew that I had the talent to govern the country, and he always wanted me to go to court with Wen Yiheng. In this way, I would come up with many methods for Wen Yiheng, and those methods would be very good for dealing with natural disasters and man-made disasters.

So when Wen Yiheng succeeded to the throne, this rule was not abolished and he continued to follow it during court sessions. I thought Wen Yiheng did this because he didn't want the country to be in turmoil.

Until today, when my father came back from disaster relief, the emperor rewarded my father again. Then he asked my father to wait for him in the Yangxin Palace after the court session, as he had something important to discuss with him.

I was still curious about how my father would react if he knew I was dead, so I followed him.

Wen Yiheng was sitting in the Yangxin Palace, and Qingqing was there too. Wen Yiheng said to my father, "Prime Minister, Luo Qingqing is dead. But few people know about this at the moment. The one sitting in the back seat now is Qingqing."

When my father found out, he laughed out loud and said, "Hahahaha, that's good. Luo Qingqing is dead, so my Qingqing can be the queen openly. I won't have to see Qingqing in secret anymore. But don't let my wife find out, otherwise it will be difficult to handle."

Qingqing hugged my father and said, "Father, our efforts over the years have not been in vain. We can finally meet again openly. But we have to be careful with Luo Qingqing's body, otherwise it will be easy to be exposed."

My father snorted coldly, "Then just put the body in the Pepper Room and burn it. If the fire is big enough, it will all be burned to ashes or bones. Just throw it in a mass grave. When there is no evidence, I don't think anyone will say that you are not Luo Qingqing. From now on, you will be Luo Qingqing. The one who died is Luo Qingqing."

I was listening on the side, feeling extremely disappointed. I wanted to cry but couldn't. After all, I had become a ghost. I had never imagined that all these years I had lived were a scam. I had thought that they all loved me, but I had no idea that they were all calculating.

They acted quickly and carried me into a room that night, which looked like the cold palace. I was wearing the same washed-out palace maid uniform that the palace maids wore. Then Luo Qingqing personally lit a fire for me.

Soon my body was engulfed by the fire and soon it was reduced to ashes. Being in the cold palace, few people noticed it. By the time they found out, the fire was already burning fiercely. Everyone thought that the cold palace was a place where unimportant people stayed, so naturally no one was willing to put out the fire.

I was watching my body gradually turn into ash. At this time, Luo Qingqing said beside the cold palace: "You are respected by the people and envied by thousands of girls. What's the matter? Now I am the one who is enjoying the fruits of their labor? Luo Qingqing, I won. Your death was caused by the poison of your beloved Wen Yiheng. You didn't expect it, this was a plot that had been set up for twenty years."

I felt very regretful watching this. I couldn't accept that all my efforts over the years would end up being wasted on someone else.

Suddenly I thought of my mother again. If my mother knew that I was dead, would she be sad? Maybe she wouldn't. My mother and I had a bad relationship when I was alive. Now that I'm dead, no one should cry for me.

I stayed in the palace, watching them show their affection every day, and hatred surged in my heart, but I just couldn't reincarnate. I could float back and forth between the palace and my home. But I couldn't find the legendary Yellow Spring Road and Mengpo Soup, and I couldn't even see the Black and White Impermanence.

It’s just that my daily routine has changed. I basically sleep during the day and walk around the palace more vigorously at night.

It was Mid-Autumn Festival that day, and the emperor held a dinner in the palace and invited all the royal relatives to attend. After dinner, they watched the moon, and naturally my mother went along.

After my mother came and bowed to Luo Qingqing, she sat down. After sitting down, my mother kept staring at Luo Qingqing's face, almost never moving her eyes away.

Even though my father advised her, "This is a dinner party, so many people are watching, why are you staring at the queen?"

The mother said: "I always feel that our daughter is not a daughter. She is different from what I usually see. I want to see her clearly."

My father scolded me, "Are you getting old and confused? Or is it because it's dark and your eyesight is not good? This is our daughter. There are so many people watching here, please don't embarrass me."

The mother still did not give up. Her sixth sense told her that the queen in front of her was not her daughter. So she tentatively said, "Queen, when you were at home, this osmanthus cake was your favorite. This year, I made some, and I hope you can try it."

Luo Qingqing picked up the osmanthus cake and tasted it, and said: "My mother's cooking skills are really good. I also thank my mother for her concern and for giving me the osmanthus cake."

The mother yelled, "Who are you? You are not my daughter? Who is pretending to be me? My daughter hates sweet-scented osmanthus cake the most. She won't eat it no matter how much I coax her."

Luo Qingqing was startled at first, then she walked up to my mother and said to her: "Mom, look at me, I am your daughter."

But she whispered in my mother's ear: "Your daughter died a long time ago and turned into ashes, but no one would believe you even if you told her."

The mother sat on the ground and cried, asking Luo Qingqing to return her daughter to her, but Luo Qingqing pretended to be innocent.

Seeing this, my father took my mother home and told others that she was crazy. Every day my mother would yell in the yard looking for her daughter. My father was fed up with it and kicked my mother and said, "She's already dead, why don't you just recognize the current queen as your daughter? Why do you have to be so persistent?"

My mother was still shouting for her daughter back, but my father slapped her in the face, divorced her, and threw her into a dilapidated yard.

Not only that, after a day or two, my father brought Luo Qingqing's mother into the house and made her the principal wife.

Seeing my mother living a life worse than pigs and dogs every day, I felt mixed emotions. I thought my mother would be very happy when she knew I was there, but I didn't expect that she would keep looking for me.

I wanted to comfort my mother, but as soon as I got close to her, my hands went straight over her body.

Luo Qingqing's mother came to see my mother and said condescendingly: "Li Jiahui, you have come to this day too? It would have been great if you had agreed to the master taking a concubine. You had to rely on the fact that you were the daughter of a founding general to bully others. Your proud daughter is dead! Now it is my daughter who sits on the throne of the queen. You didn't expect it. This situation was set up by the master and the emperor. Now your family's power is not as strong as before, and the position of the prime minister's wife should be mine. Do you know why your daughter is in poor health? It's because the master has put medicine in the things she carries with her since she was a child. How can she be healthy if she wears them all the time?"

After saying that, Luo Qingqing's mother left. My mother was in despair. She knew that I was afraid of the cold, so she murmured, "Qingqing, don't be afraid. If you die, I won't live either. I know you are afraid. Wait for me on the road to the underworld. I am coming to find you." After saying that, she pulled out the hairpin on her head and committed suicide.

I witnessed all this, but I had no way to stop it. I could only feel sad. After my mother died, my father blocked the news and didn't want my brother to know.

The emperor had just ascended the throne when he believed Luo Qingqing's slander and wanted to attack the cities in the barbarian lands in the north and give them to Luo Qingqing as a betrothal gift.

The civil and military officials were unable to stop him. As a general stationed at the border, my brother could only obey the military order and go to attack. At the beginning, he did win and also won back a city.

However, the leaders of the barbarian land were also very dissatisfied. It was clear that the two sides were not interfering with each other and everyone was living in peace. But since Dayun Dynasty took action first, they also began to deploy.

A year later, the leader of the Mongolian tribe led his troops to attack Dayun Dynasty. Dayun Dynasty was in turmoil and the border soldiers could not withstand the killing force and died in battle. When they died, they were still holding the jade pendant I gave them.

During this year, Wen Yiheng and Luo Qingqing were only concerned with pleasure. They didn't care about corruption or famine at all. They just lived like idle emperors.

The lower-class people were suffering terribly. When a locust plague came, the relief grain was embezzled by others, and many people starved to death on the streets. There was no other way, and in the end everyone had to eat their own children.

The current emperor was immersed in the gentleness of life and had no idea of ​​understanding the people's feelings. Soon after, the Dayun Dynasty fell. The Mongols occupied the territory of the Dayun Dynasty and used barbaric methods to rule the land. If someone disobeyed, they would be killed. No matter whether it was a child or an old man, they were inhumane.

I was deeply saddened when I saw this. If I had chosen someone else to be my husband again, would things have been different? If I were to be the emperor, I would definitely be a better emperor than Wen Yiheng.

When I was feeling sad, a boy in black and another boy in white came over. They both had sharp eyebrows and sharp eyes. They took out a handkerchief and handed it to me, saying, "Wipe your tears."

I stood up and asked, "Why can you see me? Are you the legendary Black and White Impermanence? Are you finally going to take me away?"

The man in black spoke: "We are indeed the Black and White Impermanence, but we are not here to take you away, we are here to send you away."

I stood there in a daze for a long time and said, "The script says that the Black and White Impermanence are very scary, but I didn't expect you guys to be pretty. But why did you send me back?"

The man in white said, "You said it was a play. Those who really saw us have drunk Meng Po soup and reincarnated. Naturally, they don't know what we look like. Don't you want to go back? Don't you want to be the emperor? Then go back."

I just felt my head buzzing and thought: "Is it really possible? But from ancient times to now, there has never been a female emperor. How can I, a woman, be an emperor?"

The man in white glanced at me calmly, then took out a book of life records from his sleeve, which recorded in detail the magnificent life of each person from birth to death. He then turned to a page, pointed to it and said to me: "Who said there is no such thing? In the other side of the parallel universe, there was a woman named Wu Zetian who became an emperor. Now, take it and have a look for yourself."

I was really shocked after watching it. Most women would just think of becoming a queen or queen mother and managing the harem, and they never thought that they could also become an emperor.

I asked doubtfully, "Can I really do this? Why me?"

The man in black jumped out and said, "You are a phoenix that soared in the sky, and you came to the mortal world to experience tribulations. However, you are indeed capable of becoming an emperor. Your body was burned by fire, and the phoenix needs fire to be reborn. Now is the time for you to be reborn. You should go back. Look at what the country ruled by the emperor is like now. If you have the talent, you should go."

My confidence increased instantly, and I asked, "Will my memories of this life disappear after I go back?"

The man in white smiled and said, "You haven't even drunk Meng Po soup, how could you possibly forget? Go back, and take with you the painful memories of this life. We will meet again, when you become the empress and finally die of old age. You can see it all in my record of life and death."

I nodded and said, "Okay, then you have so many records of life and death, and you have to take care of those in parallel universes, you must be exhausted."

The man in white and the man in black looked at each other and said, "We only care about this world, not the parallel world. The parallel world also has its own Black and White Impermanence. We have this just to prevent people from another world from mistakenly entering this world, so we can send them back. You should reincarnate quickly, and your new life will begin."

As they said that, they both kicked me and I felt dizzy.