Female-to-male: I live on farming

It was already nightfall, and the entire earth was covered in a blanket of white, making the night seem much cooler.

Jinyang stood in the corridor and suddenly realized that she had taken it for granted. Seeing that Gu Lanxi could handle her father's funeral calmly and rationally, she felt that she had accepted the matter calmly.

Jinyang had lost a loved one before and had experienced this feeling before. She should have expected it, or she should have cared more about her.

Recalling the place where she would go when she missed her mother when she was young, Jinyang had a vague guess in his heart and walked towards Gu Lanxi's boudoir.

There was no light in the room, it was pitch black. Jinyang slowly opened the door, and the bright moonlight sprinkled on the snow, creating a silver halo. The cold moonlight shone into the room as she opened the door.

Jinyang's excellent eyesight allowed him to spot the thin woman huddled in the corner.

She hugged her knees with her hands and buried her head in them, looking so helpless and so pitiful.

Seeing this scene, Jinyang's heart seemed to be pierced by a sharp needle, and she felt a dense pain. She didn't even have time to think about anything, and he ran towards her, squatted down and held her in his arms.

"Lanxi..."

It was not until he hugged her that Jin Yang realized her body was so cold. The charcoal fire in the room was not burning, and Gu Lanxi was walking barefoot on the cold floor.

He hurriedly picked her up and placed her on the bed, then ordered the servants to light the charcoal fire. The maid also brought a few warm women and placed them at Gu Lanxi's feet.

Jinyang waved his hand and asked them to withdraw again.

During the whole process, Gu Lanxi stayed obediently in her arms and never raised her head.

"Lanxi, are you okay?"

Gu Lanxi allowed herself to lean on Jinyang. This was the most intimate gesture they had made since they met.

She was silent for a while before revealing her tearful eyes. Her voice was trembling and uneasy: "I have no family left... I am alone..."

Everyone thought that Gu Lanxi was strong enough and calm enough to accept the departure of her loved ones.

But the departure of loved ones is not a rainstorm, but a long dampness in this life.

The living will be trapped in this dampness forever, and a violent storm may come out on any calm and ordinary day.

In that instant, a huge sadness overwhelmed her and swallowed up all her rationality. Looking at the familiar house, she began to feel that the yard had become so empty, so empty that the lonely wind blew through her chest.

At that moment, she realized deeply that she was alone in this world and had no relatives.

"Don't be afraid, Lanxi," Jinyang stroked her back and comforted her softly, "I'm here, no matter what happens, I'm here."

"If you want to cry, go ahead. I have sent all the maids away, so no one will know."

She didn't shed a tear when her father died.

However, if one keeps emotions suppressed in the heart for a long time, it will cause great harm to the body. Jinyang hopes that she can vent them.

Gu Lanxi rested her forehead on Jinyang's collarbone and sobbed softly. Jinyang kept stroking her back to comfort her.

Until, Gu Lanxi suddenly raised her head, and her sparkling eyes, as if washed by rain, stared straight at the person who was hugging her tightly. Her embrace was warm and solid, which made Gu Lanxi feel an attachment that could not be rejected.

So she suddenly reached out her hands, hooked Jinyang's neck, tilted her head back and kissed him.

Jinyang had not anticipated her action at all. His soft lips pressed tightly against hers. His movements were awkward, but with an indomitable courage.

Jinyang was stunned for a long time before he regained his senses with difficulty and turned his head to avoid her slightly cold kiss.

The voice was a little tight and hoarse: "Lanxi... do you know what you are doing?"

"I know. I am very clear-headed now. You are the one who has been pretending to be confused. You have obviously guessed it a long time ago..."

As she spoke, a few cold and crystal tears fell, landing directly on Jinyang's face.

Yes, she had already seen the affection that Gu Lanxi had unintentionally revealed. If they were just partners, if they were just the master she chose to serve, why would she care so much about her body?

How could the pair of eyes staring at her contain such tenderness that could drown someone?

But Jinyang didn't dare to respond and could only try to avoid him and slept in a separate room before Gu's father passed away.

Her tone was full of obvious questioning, leaving Jinyang no way to avoid it.

"This road is too difficult, you shouldn't do this."

"But you clearly have feelings."

A hint of surprise flashed across Jinyang's dark eyes. Gu Lanxi, who looked gentle as water, actually had courage far beyond that of ordinary people.

Just as Jinyang guessed Gu Lanxi's feelings, how could Gu Lanxi not realize Jinyang's uniqueness and indulgence towards her.

"I never asked for any promises, just the happiness of this moment. Now I only have you..." Gu Lanxi hooked his arms around her neck again.

Jinyang's body was tense, his expression was gloomy, and there were flashes of struggle and entanglement, which finally turned into a quiet sigh.

Finally, she grabbed Gu Lanxi's thin white wrist, pressed it on the soft bed, and leaned over it.

Compared to Gu Lanxi's awkwardness and reserve, Jinyang grew up in the palace and had at least witnessed the affairs between women, so he took control of the initiative in an instant.

The bony fingers deftly untied the belt of the person beneath her. As the movements progressed, Gu Lanxi's clothes came apart, revealing her fair and smooth skin and a peach-colored bellyband embroidered with mandarin ducks.

Their lips and teeth were intertwined, and they demanded each other to the utmost. Gu Lanxi was trapped in her hot yet gentle entanglement and almost drowned.

Gu Lanxi's voice soon turned into fragmented moans. Their bodies were entangled, and all she could do was hug the person tightly and sink into the boundless sea of ​​desire together.

The dim yellow candlelight and the cool moonlight outside the window complement each other, reflecting Jinyang's noble and delicate face.

First there was great grief, then extreme joy. After enduring all of this, Gu Lanxi fell asleep soon after the love affair ended.

When Gu Lanxi fell asleep, her brows relaxed and softened, and the corners of her mouth curved slightly.

Jinyang leaned on his elbow, looking at her gentle sleeping face, and his heart softened little by little.

She broke too many rules for Gu Lanxi, and even Shishu could see that she treated Gu Lanxi differently.

She liked her, there was no doubt about that.

But now every step she takes is like walking on the edge of a cliff, and the slightest mistake will cause her to fall off the cliff.

She didn't want to drag Gu Lanxi into this, but she just barged in, leaving her with no way out.

Never mind, Jinyang chuckled and sighed, then leaned over and gave her a very gentle kiss on her smooth forehead.