After swallowing my anger and taking the blame, I became the lucky little queen

Nian Susu looked back and saw that the twenty people were trying to climb up the slope, using ropes and grappling hooks, and she only had to wait to be pulled up.

Since he asked, she said, "I was wondering how Your Highness had the courage to jump down."

"If I knew the situation below and knew how to deal with it, I would be more confident, but I can't see anything except fog."

"Your Highness, aren't you afraid that there's a raging river that could swallow you up, or a thorn bush that could poke hundreds of holes in you?" Her fox eyes sparkled as she asked him half-jokingly and half-seriously.

Qin Junyu knew she was joking, but he didn't want to give her a perfunctory answer, and he didn't want to laugh it off and give her an ambiguous answer. He told her firmly: "You are my courage."

Nian Susu stared at him blankly, her eyes brighter, she curled her lips into a smile, her eyebrows curved into crescents, "Your Highness is also the courage for me to live in this world."

Qin Junyu actually didn’t quite understand the meaning of this sentence, but he understood her intentions.

He held her in his arms, and the two of them leaned against each other, their hearts closer.

……

It was two days later when they went down the mountain. In order to return to Shengjing before the New Year, they had to set off the next day.

I didn't bring much with me when I came, and I don't have much luggage to pack when I leave.

Nian Susu didn't bring any maids with her and had to fend for herself, but she didn't expect Li Yaoyuan to come.

"Miss Yu?"

Nian Susu was surprised when he saw the person standing at the door.

In order to avoid letting the cat out of the bag or having others eavesdrop, they would call each other "Miss Yu" and "Miss Nian" even when they met in private.

Li Yaoyuan naturally helped her fold her clothes.

"Shengjing is different from Yuhang. The temperature is much colder. Leave a cloak for use when you return halfway."

"And don't forget the clothes I bought for you a few days ago. Although that style isn't popular in Shengjing...if you don't have an occasion to wear it, just keep it as a souvenir."

"Also, the sachet I gave you is filled with pollen. It won't wither or change its smell, and it still has the effect of repelling mosquitoes. You can use it next summer."

……

She talked on and on, and Nian Susu listened quietly, with endless sadness flowing in his heart.

Originally, they were not so reluctant to leave, but when Li Yaoyuan came and said so many words, it was as if they were saying goodbye forever.

The journey is long and the transportation is slow, and this separation may last a lifetime.

Nian Susu shed a few tears quietly.

Li Yaoyuan choked up a bit, "I don't know when we'll meet again."

She had tears in her eyes but a smile on her face, "When you come to Jiangnan next time, if it's on your way, please come to Wujun to see me. Then I will make you flower tea and flower cakes."

After she finished speaking, she was already in tears.

The two of them cried their hearts out.

Nian Susu nodded, nodded...

"I won't take you to the car. What if they see you..."

The two have only known each other for less than half a month, but they are so inseparable. This is somewhat suspicious.

Nian Susu understood her difficulties.

When Li Yaoyuan was about to leave, Nian Susu gave her a gift.

"This is..." Li Yaoyuan held the handkerchief, her hands trembling.

When she opened it, she saw her mother's bracelet and... the hairpin that Xiao Jianting gave her.

These two things were left on the dummy's body when she fled Shengjing, and now they are back in her hands.

Nian Susu held her hand tightly and said, "This thing originally belonged to you. I have kept it for you for so long. Now it is time to return it to its rightful owner."

"Whether you want to throw it away, bury it or pawn it, it all depends on your heart."

Li Yaoyuan accepted this heavy gift.

The two said goodbye reluctantly.

Before leaving, Nian Susu went to the Xiao Mansion.

Xiao Jianting was about to go to Yian Garden to see them off when the two met at the door.

"Miss Nian?" Xiao Jianting didn't expect to see her at his doorstep at this time.

Nian Susu looked serious, "Master Xiao, I have something to tell you."

Seeing that her eyes were determined, Xiao Jianting seemed to indicate that he did not agree with her leaving, so he had no choice but to take her back to the mansion, and the two of them sat down in a small pavilion near the gate.

"Ms. Nian, you are going back to Shengjing soon. If you have anything to say, please say it as soon as possible. Don't keep A Yu waiting anxiously." He avoided her eyes and didn't dare to look at her.

Nian Susu stared at him intently, as if to see through his thoughts, "Master Xiao, please come back to Shengjing with us."

Xiao Jianting's expression changed immediately, "I'm not going back."

"I still have some unfinished business, I..."

Nian Susu said nothing and just listened to him making excuses for himself.

He hesitated for a long time but couldn't make out what he meant.

"whats the matter?"

"Do you want to verify that Yu Yue is Li Yaoyuan?"

"Or do you want to let Yu Yue fall in love with you so that you can keep her by your side as a substitute and deceive yourself for the rest of your life?"

Nian Susu's words were harsh, and Xiao Jianting's face turned red, partly because he was angry, and partly because he felt ashamed that he was hit on the spot.

"I..." Xiao Jianting clenched and unclenched his fists.

Nian Susu tried to persuade him earnestly, "Let's take a step back. Even if Yu Yue is Li Yaoyuan, so what? Didn't you hurt her enough back then? Now you're pestering her again, hoping to gain her forgiveness?"

"I don't want her to forgive me." Xiao Jianting lowered his voice, "I will never forgive myself in this life, and I don't expect her forgiveness."

"Then why are you pestering her? Do you want to repeat the same mistake?"

"I do not have……"

"Since you don't ask for anything, why don't you let her go, and let yourself go?"

Nian Susu was angry at him for not fighting back, but she could understand his contradiction. However... as a friend, she had to use these cold principles to pull him out of the quagmire.

"I don't know..." Xiao Jianting covered his face, his voice choked, "I just want to be closer to her, even if I can't meet her, can't talk to her, can't participate in her life... I am willing."

"Only if she's still alive do I have the meaning to live and the courage to live."

He actually cried. He cried like a child in front of Nian Susu.

Nian Susu felt sorry for him, but she felt even more sorry for Li Yaoyuan.

"Then have you ever thought that your proximity and your presence are a burden and a nuisance to her?"

"What she wants is not your apology, your guilt, or your regret."

"She worked so hard to escape from the cage that trapped her for the first half of her life. Your appearance will only remind her of those unbearable past and painful memories."

Nian Susu was surprisingly calm and said these words calmly.

She thought she would scold Xiao Jianting and slap him twice on behalf of Li Yaoyuan, but when she saw Xiao Jianting's appearance, she couldn't bear it and couldn't do it.

Xiao Jianting realized that he was wrong, but it was too late.

Not all mistakes can be corrected.