Cloud Thinking

"I know. I know everything."

"I will also...try my best to do it..."

Helia nodded and drank the bowl of chicken soup.

"Yeah." Watersiser patted her head again, neither lightly nor heavily.

“He” seemed to like playing with Helia’s round head, touching, kneading, and patting it, making it seem as if there was water in her head, and he wanted to knock it to make a noise, right?

"This is my first attempt." He continued to explain, "I don't know much about you humans, and I only know the surface of those people."

"So I just copied their appearance, and as for their personality and behavior, I referenced people I knew."

Helia smiled bitterly, "No wonder I felt familiar with Turhei's gardening. Did you refer to some of your own behavior?"

Watersisse seemed not to have expected this and was a little stunned.

"Well - I didn't make this setting."

"But maybe when I created him, I had some selfish thoughts that I didn't even notice?"

Helia raised her hand and took the flower out of her pocket, examining it carefully for a moment, but she only knew that the flower was very beautiful and delicate.

"Thank you, anyway."

……

"Why don't you want to hire a teacher, sister?"

After finishing dinner with Starley, chatting and laughing, Helia took her hand and walked in the garden to help digest the food.

She was still concerned about Starley's abnormal request. Could it be that some teacher in the past had left her with a psychological trauma?

Otherwise, why would you rather study on your own than hire a teacher?

Learning magic is no joke. Even Helia only performed an introductory magic ceremony on her own.

After that, there was the study of magic, either by Britney, Mobicius, Levita, Brahili and others.

It can be said that it is because of so many good teachers that we have the Helia we have today.

Stellar's brows subconsciously frowned, and her eyes dodged, as if she was recalling something bad, which made Helia's heart hang high.

No way, no way, she has taken such good care of him, how could something go wrong right under her nose?

Seeing Helia's gloomy face and slowed down her pace, as if she was thinking about how to teach her a lesson, Stella realized that her protective sister might have misunderstood again.

She quickly explained: "No one bullied me, it was just my own fault."

"Sister." Helia stopped, held Stella's hands, and looked into her eyes seriously, "I want to know the reason, okay?"

She looked into Helia's eyes, which were unquestionably sincere, and the worry in them was never fake.

But the more she did this, the more uncomfortable Starley felt.

She lowered her eyes and didn't look at Helia. She was silent for a moment, then she let out a long breath with a sense of compromise and said in a dull voice:

"I just don't want to be compared to others..."

"Those teachers who taught me seemed to particularly like to compare Aya with me."

"Of course I know that Aya is very good, much better than me. Not only do they admire you, but I do too."

"But maybe I'm just a petty and selfish person. I'm always compared to others, and I feel... a little uncomfortable."

"I know better than anyone how well you treat me, but it is precisely because of this that I feel sad."

"I never dared, nor did I want to be jealous and hate you, but there was always a voice in my heart clamoring to turn me into a jealous and ugly person."

"Your excellence should never be the reason for jealousy and resentment from those who are not as good as you. A truly kind, sincere and generous person will sincerely send blessings when he sees others doing well."

"But I'm not that kind of person. I never thought I would be that kind of person. I'm sorry, Aya, I failed to live up to your expectations."

"I can only use this childish and inferior method to escape these voices and ignore those words of jealousy and resentment."

"sorry."

Helia said nothing, but held Stella in her arms and gently stroked her back until the person in her arms stopped crying out of shame, then she spoke:

"Sister, I'm glad to hear you speak your mind to me."

"Although I don't know how my sister sees me, I want to say that I'm not as good as you think."

"I am only willing to show you my infinite goodness."

"Jealousy is human nature. When I see powerful people, I get jealous, and even feel irrational resentment and hatred."

"But so what?"

"We are human beings, and there is no perfect person in this world. It is normal to have negative emotions such as jealousy, resentment, and hatred."

"I would rather you be a selfish villain than a dedicated person who is willing to sacrifice."

"You feel jealous and resentful of me, and you feel ungrateful and resentful, so you feel guilty, uneasy, and ashamed."

"But even if I were in your shoes, I would feel the same way. It's nothing."

"Besides, we are two different people. It's just that we two flowers happen to grow on the same vine. People will inevitably compare us."

"But we should all have our own beauty, instead of imitating each other, competing with each other, and fighting to the death."

"You are you, and I am me. Although we are both princesses of the royal family, is the path I want to take really the same as the path you want to take?"

"Is it the same thing that we seek?"

"Since we are different, why should we compare and compete with each other?"

"You admire my goodness, but I also envy your goodness. Don't think that you are the only one who envies me. I also envy you."

"I envy your beauty, your innocence, your kindness, and your character that is not tainted by the world."

"I'm jealous of your peaceful past, and I'm jealous that you had a happy childhood that I never had."

"Stally, you don't have to be me, and you don't have to be that perfect person that people say you are."

“You have to be who you are, and you have to be who you want to be.”

Starley raised her head from Helia's arms, looked at her with her tearful eyes, and choked:

"But I can't control myself. I'm a timid person. I can't bear such heavy expectations."

Helia clamped the other's shoulders tightly and shouted, "Then do it for me!"

"If you feel that you can't bear it, then just think that I'm forcing you to do it! Then be jealous of me and hate me openly!"

"Even so, you still can't do it?"

Starley said nothing, but let her tears soak her face. She kept shaking her head, and it was unclear whether she was saying "I can't do it" or "This won't work."

If reasoning doesn't work and force doesn't work, then the only option is to use that killer move -

Acting pitiful and acting like a spoiled child!!!

"Sister, I need you. I need you more than anyone else."

Helia's eyebrows drooped, and the light in her eyes dimmed a little, revealing the fatigue that had been hidden for a long time.

In the morning, she accompanied Stella and discussed things with Alfie, then discussed the public selection of the Knights with Ronnie, then acted with Watersise, and discussed things with Tang Yaoxing, and in the evening she had to coax Stella...

She was really exhausted that day.

"I can't live without you," she said again.

If one day you suddenly find out that someone you have always envied is deeply dependent on you, completely unable to live without you, and even likes you, how would you feel?

Cool. This is the first feeling.

You people who keep saying that you are inferior to me are actually unable to live without me and treat me as if I were your life. If those who claim that I am inferior to you knew this, how would they react?

Vanity was greatly satisfied.

Seeing Helia's expression, the dark thoughts in Stellar's heart were still clamoring, shouting "You're nothing but this", "No matter how powerful you are, you still can't live without me", and other similar thoughts.

On the other hand, as a sister, she, the innocent and kind-hearted girl, felt extremely distressed and uncomfortable when she saw Helia so tired and fragile.

Two completely different emotions were in conflict, but they led to the same result at the same time - she needed to be needed.

She had always been the one who needed Helia, and being needed was also a disguised proof that this person was valuable to her.

Therefore, she longs to be needed and to be a valuable person in the eyes of others.

She needs to be recognized and seen.

Starley considered and hesitated, trying to suppress the shameful joy in her heart, and asked carefully: "But...what can I do to help you, Aya..."

"Right now, I need you very much, sister." Helia said seriously.

She finally figured it out. Instead of telling Starly so many chicken soups and life philosophies, it would be better to let her do something herself so that she can gain a sense of self-identity from it.

"What?" Starley raised her hand to wipe away her tears, and asked curiously with her eyes wide open.

What was needed from her now? How could she not know?

Helia briefly explained to her the complex relationship between the Magic Association, the royal family, and the Magic Academy.

"Magic talents are what the empire needs, and the association is not allowed to achieve a monopoly in this field. You should know how powerful magic is, sister."

"That's why Abraham College exists. The royal family has a group of magicians under their control. They no longer have to be controlled by the Magic Association and have to obey their orders."

"But the problem is that the Magic Association has a monopoly on the magician level assessment. This means that perhaps the truly powerful magicians who are loyal to the Empire may not necessarily be loyal to us."

"Besides, there are also associations infiltrating the academy itself. Those with extraordinary talents have probably been poached by them long ago."

"The royal family has invested a lot of resources and effort in training magicians, but in the end they are unable to make ends meet, and there is even a possibility that they will turn their knives against themselves."

“This is something no one in power wants to see.”

"Although my father was once a magician, he cannot use magic because he inherited the throne and possesses divine power."

"But this doesn't mean that he doesn't understand magic. In fact, he knows it too well and is well aware of its drawbacks. That's why someone needs to be able to check and balance it."

"But the Magic Association is the authoritative representative of the magic world. It has always tried its best to maintain superficial peace with the royal family. We cannot take the initiative to expose the filth between them."

"But we need evidence. We need to understand what the current situation is so that we can be in a strong position in the future."

"So, sister, I need you to enter Abraham College and find out how deeply the Magic Association has taken root there and how far its influence is."

"And this is something only you can do now."

After listening to this, Starley carefully re-organized the information in her mind and finally repeated:

"What I mean is, Aya, you need to go to Abraham College and see how the Magic Association steals people and which of our people they have stolen, right?"

Helia: ...

No, is this right???

Is it because I have a dirty mind or something? Cheating? Is that what it means?

Helia met Starley's pure and clean eyes, took a deep breath, exhaled slowly, and wiped her face with her hand before she suppressed the dirty thoughts in her heart.

How could Starley possibly understand those things? Haha, I must be wrong.

"Um... almost...?" Helia gave an uncertain answer.

"Well! I see!"

Starley swung her fist vigorously, and her face, which still had traces of tears, was now filled with a determined smile. As she said this, she even straightened her back unconsciously.

"Let me be in charge of this 'catching an adulterer' operation!"

Helia felt her eyes go dark and she almost fainted on the spot.

No, is this right? ? ? ! ! !

I didn't misunderstand you, sister!

Your metaphor...this metaphor...is really...really...very vivid!

You definitely didn’t learn it from me, right?

"What's wrong?" Starley supported Helia, who almost fainted, and looked at her with some confusion.

Helia raised her hand to block the innocent look in the other person's eyes, "No...it's okay..."

Starley's eyes rolled around, as if she had thought of something, and suddenly she chuckled, her eyes curved into crescents.

"Aya, you don't think I don't know anything, do you?" she asked with a smile.

"W…what…" Helia was at a loss.

Starley cleared her throat. "I mean, I know everything about cheating and catching an adulterer. I'm not as simple as you think."

For some reason, Helia could actually taste some pride in the tone of her voice when she said this.

Hey! What's there to be proud of? Wake up, my sister!

"Heh...heh...is...is that so..." Helia could only smile awkwardly and perfunctorily.

I don't know what she was thinking of, but she suddenly said something serious:

"But sister, next time you should not talk about this in front of others, especially my friends."

"Why?" Starley was puzzled.

"No reason, just don't tell me." Helia didn't want to explain too much.

"Okay..." Starley agreed with some lack of interest.

At this moment, Helia thought to herself: I won't let anyone say that people get stigmatized by the company they keep, absolutely not!

Besides! Who is Zhu and who is Mo! It still needs to be discussed!

Anyway, she doesn't want to be Zhu (pig) nor Mo!