Cloud Thinking

After Ronnie left, Helia sat alone for a while, sorting out her thoughts and planning her next move.

She lowered her eyes and stared at the invitation letter that she was unconsciously flipping through in her hand. She called out softly, "Father God, are you there? I want to see you."

As soon as she finished speaking, Watersise's figure floated out of her body, gradually solidifying, and stood in front of her in less than a second.

"What's wrong?" He placed his hand on Helia's head very skillfully and rubbed it randomly.

"There's something I want to ask you to do, but I'm afraid you'll think I'm wasting your time..." Helia said with some entanglement.

"What's the matter? Tell me first."

Watersiser conjured up a chair woven from rose vines, sat back and crossed his legs.

"I'd like to ask you to run an errand for me and go to Teacher Levita in the North to get some scales of the fire dragon for me." Helia said.

"What do you want that for?" Wattsiser asked puzzled.

"It's like this, Father God, please take a look." Helia handed the invitation letter in her hand to Watersise and explained:

"Next week I will represent the royal family and serve as the chief referee in this year's public selection meeting for the Knights."

"The referee has a veto power and plays an important role in deciding the selection. There are only four candidates for this selection, and I am one of them."

"Father chose me this time because, firstly, I am in charge of the affairs of the Knights, and secondly, he wanted me to gain more experience and enrich my resume."

“My father knows my abilities and recognizes them, but that doesn’t mean that others will recognize me.”

"After this incident got out, several groups of people came to my father to talk about it. They felt that I was not suitable and unworthy to be the referee."

"Even though my father rejected their objections, I think they were not the only ones who thought I was unworthy. Many people thought I was not qualified to sit in that position."

"I am here on behalf of the royal family, but they will definitely feel that this position should have been given to my brother Eric."

"Maybe people will even speculate whether it was because I insisted on coming here that I begged my father and brother to give me this position."

"Anyway, I just replaced someone else's position. If that someone is not my brother, then it will be Carlisle. They just think that I am not qualified to rate others or make decisions."

"But I am a hero of the empire after all. I once made great contributions in the war. It was me who risked my life to kill the fire dragon and turned the tide of the war."

"I ask myself honestly, I am definitely qualified to sit in that position. I can even say that I am more qualified to sit there than any of them."

"But no one remembers and no one acknowledges my achievements, which makes me very unhappy."

"So, I want to use the scales of a fire dragon to make a suit of armor. When the selection meeting begins, I will wear it so that they can see clearly whether I am qualified to sit there."

She paused for a moment, lowered her eyes and exhaled, then continued:

"I know that my request is very self-willed. Even if I wear that outfit, those who don't approve of me will still not approve of me. It won't change anything."

"The prejudices in people's minds are like a mountain, and I alone cannot overturn them."

"But I just want to fight for this."

"Why do they look down on me? A bunch of useless people who would pee their pants if they saw a monster. Why do they point fingers at me?"

"Why do they forget my achievements? Why do they ignore my abilities because of my gender? Why do they treat me so unfairly?"

"I'm not convinced."

Helia complained to Watersiser for a long time, but the more she talked, the angrier she became. In the end, her mouth was pouted and she snorted like a pig.

"Is that it?" asked Wattsiser.

Helia glared at Him aggrievedly, as if she didn't want to admit that she was a willful and unreasonable person. She said unhappily, "Do you also think I'm being unreasonable?"

"No, I completely understand how you feel right now." Watersiser smiled and waved to Helia, "Come."

Helia walked over with a pouty mouth and a frown on her face, squatting beside Watersies legs, with her hands on his knees, looking up at him.

Watersiser placed his hand on her head, smoothing her hair, and said softly, "You not only want to stand up for yourself, but also for the women you represent."

"You want to tell them that even a woman is qualified to sit in a high position to judge them and to hold power over them."

"You want to take this opportunity to prove to those who disobey you that you are not as fragile as they think. You are very strong, even much stronger than them."

"But have you ever thought about this: why do you have to prove yourself to those losers who only know how to gossip?"

“If you’re always trying to prove yourself to those who don’t approve of you, trying to change their minds and make them approve of you, then you’re doing it wrong.”

"Just like there is hatred without reason in this world, even if you are so good that there is nothing wrong with you, people who don't like you just don't like you."

"Are you going to keep falling into a cycle of self-justification for this kind of person?"

"You never need others to prove your strength. As long as your heart is strong enough, other people's voices will not affect you. Do you understand?"

Watersiser understood her thoughts, but Helia also understood what Watersiser said.

But even so, she still wanted to do it.

"But am I just going to endure it like this, listening to them belittle and slander me?"

The corners of her mouth were about to fall to the ground.

"I didn't say that." Watersiser gently stroked the corner of Helia's mouth with his thumb, as if to comfort her.

"What I mean is that you shouldn't care too much about what others think and make yourself unhappy."

"If you really think those people's words are rude, why waste time proving yourself? Wouldn't it be better to just tell them to shut up forever?"

The corners of Helia's mouth drooped even more. "There are so many people in the world, so many people think I'm not good enough, I can't just kill them all!"

"Why not?" Watersiser asked.

Helia just stared at Him, pouting and saying nothing.

"Okay, okay, I get it." Seeing Helia's expression, the smile on His face deepened, and it was obvious that He found pleasure in teasing her.

"It's just a dragon scale. If you want it, I can give it to you. Why bother running so far to get it?" He said.

"Father God, you are a black dragon, one-of-a-kind. How could those idiots recognize your worth?" While Helia complained, she did not forget to praise Watersise.

"If it wasn't for the short time, I definitely wouldn't want to bother you."

Then, she pulled up her sleeves, revealing the mark left by Ian Hill. "I actually wanted to ask Ian Hill for help at first."

"However, I am not sure whether He can enter and leave the palace. After all, this is the political center. As a messenger of God, He should not approach it casually."

"Besides, I don't want to always owe him a favor. What if he asks me to repay him with my body?"

"I think about it, and the only thing I can think of is you..."

Helia hung her head and drooped her eyes. If she had ears, they would probably be drooping at this moment, like a helpless stray puppy.

"If you don't want to, forget it. It doesn't really matter."

Watersise stared at the swirl of hair on her head, feeling the emotions coming from her, and smelling the greedy breath wrapped beneath the layers.

His hand was now on the back of Helia's neck, his thumb stroking her raised neck bone again and again, and it was unknown what he was thinking.

After a moment of silence, His voice rang out again: "Only dragon scales?"

Helia raised her head suddenly, her eyes, which had been dim, suddenly sparkled, and even the corners of her mouth couldn't help but rise.

"Really? Really? Are you really willing to get it for me?"

If she had a tail, it would probably be wagging it happily at this moment.

Wattsise felt that Helia was just like a puppy, so pitiful and cute.

"You've begged me like this, what else can I say?" Watersise turned and patted her head, trying to pat back the dog ears that he had imagined.

"Father God, you are so kind!" Helia rushed forward, hugged His waist, and rubbed her head against His abdomen.

More like a puppy.

"So, besides dragon scales, do you need anything else?" Watersise was in a good mood and asked again.

Helia then raised her head again and smiled at Watersiser, showing her neat teeth.

"I want more dragon teeth, can I?"

"It's dirty, what's so good about it..." He complained but still agreed.

"After a little grinding, they can be made into earrings, necklaces or pendants. When someone asks about them, I will introduce them to them one by one and let them know how powerful I am." Helia said with a smile.

"Okay, get up and go write the letter." Watersiser patted Helia on the back, motioning her to let go.

He keeps hugging me and is as clingy as a puppy.

Only then did Helia withdraw her hand embarrassedly and stand up reluctantly.

"How long would it take for you to go there?" she asked.

"It depends on the method." Watersiser replied, "If I go in my current physical state, it will probably take three or two days."

"But if we use something else, it will probably be faster. You might be able to see it tomorrow morning."

"Under the guise of something else?" Helia stopped writing and looked at him in confusion.

"I am a god after all, so it is possible for me to mobilize some of my followers who believe in me to do something." Watersise only explained vaguely, as if he didn't want her to know too much.

"I see." Helia nodded and continued writing.

Finally, she stamped the envelope with her own stamp and handed the letter to Watersiser after confirming that it was correct.

"Father God, thank you for your trouble~" Helia said in a sweet voice.

He took the envelope and tapped Helia on the head. "This is just the first time. I won't do it again next time."

After saying this, his figure gradually faded away, moving away from her, probably to deliver a letter.

Helia sat and waited for a while, then tried to shout, "Father God, are you still there?"

He did not respond.

It’s not clear whether he couldn’t hear it, or if he heard it but didn’t have time to reply or didn’t want to reply.

"Father God, I missed something. Are you really gone?" Helia shouted again anxiously.

Still no response.

Only then did Helia put away her acting expression, picked up the pen again, lowered her eyes to stare at the blank paper, and slowly wrote the three words "Tang Yaoxing" on it.

She didn't dare shout out loud, but just wrote the word on the paper and recited it silently in her heart.

After reciting it silently about ten times, she suddenly felt weightless and fell down from the chair she was sitting on.

With a 180-degree turn, she appeared in a pure white world with her chair and the pen in her hand, and not far away stood her fellow villager whom she had been thinking about.

"What are you doing?" Tang Yaoxing asked puzzled.

Helia came back to her senses, looked over, then frowned and began to complain: "I'm really impressed. What's wrong with your method?"

"Last time you said that if I wanted to find you, I could just shout your name, but have you ever thought that Zhan and I share a body, and he can see everything I do!"

"If I really shouted, could I hide it from Him?"

"I was so distracted at the time that I didn't notice it and just let you go. Can you be more reliable?"

"Oh——" Tang Yaoxing understood, "So that disgusting gesture of yours just now was just acting, to coax Zhan Zhan to leave so that you can contact me?"

"No, what else?" Helia wanted to bite Tang Yaoxing to death.

"I thought you were addicted to playing the father-daughter game with Him, and your feelings were real." Tang Yaoxing said with a smile.

Helia rolled her eyes in response.

In order to prevent Helia from performing such a weird play next time, and to prevent Helia from taking it out on him in anger, Tang Yaoxing explained it seriously:

"Actually it's okay for you to shout my name. War can't hear it, and neither can anyone else."

"This name is quite special and comes with its own restrictions. In this world, only you and I can hear and see it."

"So next time you want to find me, just call me boldly. I will come as soon as you call me, and I will make sure you won't find me."

Helia didn't feel relieved after hearing the explanation. On the contrary, she stiffened her fists.

"Then, why didn't you tell your mother earlier?" she said through gritted teeth.

She even came up with such an excuse to send Watersisse away, pretending to be pitiful, aggrieved and coquettish. She even felt disgusted by herself.

"Hahahahahahahahaha how did I know you would do this? Hahaha! I'm dying of laughter, hahaha!"

Tang Yaoxing couldn't hold it back in the end and burst out laughing. He slapped his thigh and laughed so hard that the whole space shook several times.

You know what, this is the happiest time He has laughed since He came here.

Ever since he became this crappy messenger of God, he seldom smiled, and it seemed as if all emotions of joy, anger, sorrow, and happiness had said goodbye to him.

Laughing heartily from the heart like he was doing now was a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. He had no memory of the last time he laughed like this.

He smiled happily, but Helia was not happy at all.

Because she was the one being laughed at.

The friendship between them as fellow villagers was completely shattered at this moment.