Searching for Treasures in the Clouds

Proposal……

What a scary and fascinating word.

Yu Ru's legs suddenly felt weak and her mind became a little unclear. She wanted to escape and hide in the closet in her room. In fact, she was looking forward to it, but she was afraid and anxious about what might happen.

She stood there with her eyes downcast, two fingers tightly pinching a small spot on her pants. She was silent for a while like a statue. She did not reject the proposal, nor did she allow it to happen. Instead, she led Yun Jixing into the house and sat down.

It was cold, so she made Yun Jixing a cup of hot soy milk. After giving him the soy milk, she sat down beside him and started to daydream. Yun Jixing looked at her, not daring to disturb her rashly, so he just sat beside her and accompanied her quietly.

After a long time, Yu Ru still didn't respond, so he took the initiative to ask, "Aru, what's wrong? Tell me, okay?"

Yu Ru slowly turned her head to look at him, carefully studying his eyes, and finally responded. She stretched out one hand, gently touched Yun Jixing's cheek with her fingertips, and then moved upwards to touch the black hair above his forehead. Her brows were wrinkled imperceptibly, and she looked at him with half sad and half smiling eyes.

Yun Jixing was afraid to see her eyes like this, which were too fragmented, as if she would disintegrate like a dandelion in the next moment and drift away with the wind, which would break his heart. He stared at Yu Ru without blinking, and approached her tentatively.

Yu Ru was still stroking his hair, and had already touched the part close to the back of his head. He became bolder, and he slowly lowered his head, moving closer to Yu Ru.

Time was long, as if a day had passed, and what was happening at this moment seemed to have started yesterday. Time passed quickly, and soon their foreheads were touching. They were so close that they could hear each other swallowing saliva, and their breathing could easily wrap around and entangle into one.

Yun Jixing put his hands on Yu Ru's back and hugged her. He gently rubbed her forehead with his forehead, and then gently rubbed her head and moved down. He leaned his head against her, and his neck was close to hers. Yu Ru blinked, put down her hand that was touching Yun Jixing's hair, and raised it again. She hesitated for a moment with both hands hanging, and finally hugged him back.

She hugged him very reservedly, and it could almost be said that she was just supporting Yun Jixing's body. But this little bit of contact meant thousands of times the return to Yun Jixing. He was extremely happy in his heart, and his heart was settled firmly. His head next to Yu Ru leaned against her more and more lazily and comfortably.

They are like a pair of loving swans. They don't have to fear the worldly gaze or care about more complicated factors. They just snuggle up to each other and dance gracefully on the lake.

Yu Ru was very energetic when she got up in the morning. She had many plans for today. She planned to paint a picture after finishing the bag. After lunch and a good rest, she would go to the nearby forest park to find a place to sit and daydream, gazing at the green in the distance to relax her eyes. She would continue to work when she came back in the evening, study a little at night, and finally go to bed to end the day.

Yun Jixing's proposal disrupted her plans. She fell into a vortex of reality and ideal. The storm of emotions left her bruised and battered. She was tired.

After a while, she leaned on Yun Jixing and fell asleep.

The soy milk on the table appeared from nothing, and the cup turned back into a clean cup. Yu Ru woke up again, and more than an hour had passed.

She was still on the sofa, not leaning on Yun Jixing, but lying on the sofa, covered with two blankets, Yun Jixing was no longer beside her. She turned her head and looked to the side, and found that a laptop had appeared on the table beside her, and the computer screen was on, showing a document.

This computer is not hers, so Yun Jixing should not have left. She turned her head to look further away, and sure enough, she saw Yun Jixing, who was on the phone. Yu Ru breathed a sigh of relief and closed her eyes again.

After Yun Jixing finished the call, he went back to sit on a small stool next to the sofa. He put his phone aside and went to see Yu Ru.

Yu Ru was pretending to be asleep, and he discovered it.

"Aru, are you awake?"

Yu Ru closed her eyes and shook her head.

Yun Jixing smiled and said, "Aru, you are awake."

Yu Ru opened her eyes.

Yun Jixing stared at her, picked up a strand of her hair and put it to his mouth and kissed her, "Aru, I'm so happy to hug you today. I've been thinking about this for a long time. But I feel sorry for you. In fact, many of my actions have made you entangled and worried, right?"

Yu Ru didn't respond, just looked at him.

He continued, "Many times I feel that I am quite irresponsible and mean. I understand your concerns, but I always test your bottom line to get closer to you. I have achieved my goal, but you have suffered. I am really sorry. However, I love you and there is no turning back."

At this point, he gently lifted one of Yu Ru's hands and rubbed it against his face, "Aru, there are some deep-seated reasons that I can't guess. Can you tell me? I will solve any factors that prevent us from being together. If this factor is you, then I want to tell you that I think loving someone means loving all of her, including the dark side. No matter what you have experienced or how you are now, I completely accept it."

Accept everything completely?

Yu Ru thought of her body, which was like a piece of rice paper with scribbled on it but the ink had not yet dried, and she still didn't dare to take that step.

Yun Jixing also knew that she still had a hurdle in her heart, so he stopped talking. He reached out to the computer bag on the table next to him and took out a brocade box from it.

"Aru, I have a gift for you."

He opened the box, and inside was a string of red beads. The beads were quite long, and when he took them out and put them in his palm, they filled up half of his hand.

Yun Jixing lifted Yu Ru's hand and wrapped the beads around her wrist. In this way, the shape of the beads became clear. It turned out to be a three-loop garnet bracelet, one of which was hung with a small gold peace lock engraved with the word "Fu", and the other two loops were each embedded with a small carved gold diamond-shaped plate.

"Aru, this is garnet. You have a cold body and insufficient blood. Wearing this will be better for your health. If you want to wear jewelry, try not to wear jade. Jade is cold and not good to wear. But you can wear it after you get better."

Yu Ru hesitated for a moment and nodded.

……

Today's proposal ended in failure.

Yun Jixing had work in the afternoon and could not stay long. After cooking for Yu Ru, he left her house to go to work.

After he left, Yu Ru returned to her room. She sat on the bed for a while, then walked to a floor-length mirror in the room and began to take off her clothes. After a while, she was standing naked in front of the mirror.

Through the mirror, she saw that her body was covered with scars, and the scars on her back were particularly dense, making her scalp tingle. The longest scar ran through her entire back, which was scary just to look at. The scars made her look like a human-shaped sedimentary rock.

Since she was nine years old, she has not worn short-sleeved clothes. She wears long sleeves and long pants 365 days a year. She doesn't go out often, so her skin is very white. White skin is a good thing, but it is not necessarily good for her. After years of washing, her scars have faded a lot, but under the effect of white skin, they are not expected to be emphasized.

After staring at her scar for about a minute, Yu Ru began to feel dizzy and retching. She had never used any scar removal medicine before, which was partly because she couldn't stand her own body. She would feel physically uncomfortable if she looked at it for too long, and she would feel dizzy and retching.

A person who cannot accept himself inside and out and does not face himself and value himself cannot achieve true happiness.

Yu Ru was well aware of this. She had accepted the fact that she was covered in scars, but there was nothing she could do. She couldn't get over the physiological reaction. Whenever she saw those scars, bloody and violent scenes would replay in her mind like a kaleidoscope. No one would want to see that kind of horrible memory.