Searching for Treasures in the Clouds

After thinking for a while, he put his hands on Yu Ru's arms, one on the left and one on the right, knelt forward half a step closer to her, put his face close to hers and said: "Aru... turn around and look at me." Without waiting for her to turn around, he gently pushed Yu Ru with his hands and turned her back.

Yu Ru lowered her eyes and never looked at him.

Yun Jixing's lips trembled as he approached Yu Ru again. Yu Ru didn't retreat, nor did she resist, so he gently bit her lips and sucked slowly. Yu Ru closed her eyes and kissed him for a moment, then wrapped her arms around his neck in response.

The two of them hugged each other and kissed for most of the day, until Yun Jixing felt that he could no longer kneel and stopped. He rested his forehead against Yu Ru's forehead, closed his eyes and rubbed against her face, "Aru, dear...will you give yourself to me?"

Yu Ru closed her eyes, panting and nodded.

"Then I'll carry you to the bed... It's not clean here. Wait for me for a while, I'll take a shower." Yun Jixing said while kissing Yu Ru's face.

Yu Ru nodded.

Yun Jixing smiled brightly, knelt on one knee beside the bathtub again, and opened his arms towards Yu Ru, "Aru, come out. I'll close my eyes and not look at you. Later, sit on my right leg and I'll pick you up."

Yu Ru nodded, reaching for the bathtub and pulling out a towel. She'd prepared this in advance; Yun Jixing didn't really need to come over to deliver the clothes; it was just a pretense. She stepped out of the tub, towel in hand, and wiped herself dry before wrapping it around her.

She turned and saw Yun Jixing still had his eyes closed, his arms still open, waiting for her. She bent down, put her arms around his neck, and helped him slowly sit down on his raised leg. When Yun Jixing felt that she was sitting well, he opened his eyes, "Aru, hold me tight, I'm going to stand up."

Yu Ru nodded.

Yun Jixing immediately stood up with her in his arms and took her out of the bathroom. Her fragrance made him dizzy. After a few steps, he couldn't help but lower his head and whisper in her ear, "Aru, you are so beautiful, so cute, so cute... I really can't stand it."

Yu Ru looked at him intently and smiled, her face flushed. Yun Jixing smiled too, then lowered his head and bit her lips. They kissed all the way to the bed.

Finally, Yun Jixing was willing to let her go.

While waiting, Yu Ru calmed down a bit. She lay on the bed, naked, covered with the quilt. The room was quiet, and she was alone. Her heart was beating fast, and she could hear it clearly, vibrating and echoing in her chest.

She stared at the top of the bed curtain for a while, then lifted the quilt a little and looked inside. When her eyes fell on her body, she felt inexplicably nauseous. When she thought about what she and Yun Jixing were going to do next, she felt extremely ashamed.

"Ugh--"

She sighed softly, closed her eyes and waited silently.

Not long after, footsteps were heard and Yu Ru opened her eyes instantly: How come you are washing so fast?

She thought to herself.

Yun Jixing arrived, naked, his muscular upper body exposed, his lower body wrapped in a bath towel. Yu Ru watched him quietly as he walked towards her.

"Aru." Yun Jixing came and sat down beside the bed, took Yu Ru's hand and gently stroked it. "Are you ready?"

Yu Ru nodded slightly.

"Don't be nervous, let's take it slow." Yun Jixing smiled and picked up Yu Ru, letting her lie in his arms, and then kissed her on the lips. He kissed her in a way that Yu Ru was familiar with, while one hand gently stroked her back, arms, waist and other parts to ease her nervousness.

Although Yu Ru was a little scared inside, she still tried her best to respond. She crossed her arms around Yun Jixing's head and touched his neck and head from time to time.

After an unknown amount of time, the two of them gradually became more and more comfortable. Yun Jixing felt that the time was almost right, so he gently laid Yu Ru on the bed and leaned over to approach her. Yu Ru stared at him intently, her heart beating faster and faster.

The moment his body fell against hers, her mind suddenly flashed back to other men pressing down on her, as well as scenes of human traffickers in the black factory assaulting women. These fragmented memories made her feel nauseous, and she subconsciously pushed Yun Jixing away with both hands and slapped him in the face.

"Snapped!"

Yu Ru swallowed hard, quickly pulled the quilt over herself, climbed out of bed, and huddled in the corner of the bed. She looked up at Yun Jixing, who was covering his face and looking at her in confusion. She didn't dare to meet his gaze and immediately looked away.

Her grip was quite strong, and half of Yunjixing's face turned red. The burning pain continued to stimulate him. He rubbed his slapped face and sobered up a little. Xiaoxiaoxing was no longer as high-spirited as before. "Aru, what's wrong?"

Yu Ru didn't know how to answer. Somehow, her throat tightened and tears flowed uncontrollably. "I'm sorry," she awkwardly signed.

Yun Jixing was also very uncomfortable with her sudden behavior. After taking a few deep breaths, he slowly approached Yu Ru and tried to hug her. Seeing that she didn't object, he held Yu Ru and sat her on his lap. "Still not ready, huh? It's okay, it's okay. Let's stop here for today. When you're ready, we can do these things again."

Yu Ru didn't react, just watched him crying silently.

Yun Jixing comforted her silently for a long time. When she stopped crying, he put her on the bed, covered her with a quilt and let her rest. He went to the bathroom to calm himself down.

Watching him retreat, Yu Ru felt breathless, her heart aching. She tucked herself deeper into the quilt, leaving only her eyes exposed. She couldn't understand why, despite the good atmosphere up until then, she still felt so frightened at the last moment and did something like that.

It shouldn't be like this; she'd been looking forward to it for a long time. She was indeed afraid of sex, but the instinct of human desire made her occasionally have strange sexual fantasies, longing to be touched. Especially when faced with Yun Jixing's tenderness, she also wanted to merge with him. This contradiction often caused her great pain.

Thinking about it, Yu Ru couldn't help crying again. She stared blankly at the direction where Yun Jixing left, and when the tears flowed to her neck, she grabbed the quilt and wiped them away.

Couldn't she just be a normal person? Making love with the man she loved, touching each other tenderly—she wanted to, but couldn't she? If she couldn't, then she couldn't. Why had she hit Yun Jixing? If Yun Jixing had hit her like that, how angry, how humiliated would she have been? Thinking of Yun Jixing's disappointed and bewildered expression, her heart felt as if a piece had been ripped out of it, leaving her feeling empty.

……

Yun Jixing took a cold shower in the bathroom, then ran to the small living room and took a bottle of ice milk from the refrigerator to drink before he completely calmed down. Afterwards, he immediately returned to the room to check on Yu Ru.

Yu Ru curled up on the edge of the bed, eyes closed, the quilt wrapped tightly around her, her body rising and falling evenly, appearing to be asleep. Yun Jixing stood in front of the bunk bed, staring at her for a moment before climbing into bed as well. He chose a spot farthest from Yu Ru and lay down, adjusting his position so that he could lie on his side and look at her.

Thinking of Yu Ru's frightened expression just now, he felt extremely regretful. He stretched out one hand towards Yu Ru, wanting to hug her, but was afraid that she would resist. He went back and forth several times, but in the end he didn't do it, and put his hands and feet down honestly.

"Aru, I'm sorry, I was impulsive." Yun Jixing silently apologized to Yu Ru in his heart.

He should have known from Yu Ru's diary that she had been sexually assaulted by a total of twelve people since she was a child. He didn't know if any of them succeeded, but he knew she must have suffered immense damage, both physically and psychologically. This was probably why Yu Ru had initially told him she was afraid of sex.

He knew it all, and he'd accepted Yu Ru's invitation today. Yu Ru was overjoyed at getting the marriage certificate, and a bit impulsive, but she was still a young girl, and he was already an old man. If the young girl didn't understand, didn't he? How could he have accepted so hastily? He should have gone through a proper ceremony, should have prepared everything he needed before accepting.

How could he?

The more Yun Jixing thought about it, the more annoyed he became. Then, Yu Ru stirred. Fearing she might turn around, Yun Jixing quickly turned sideways, facing away from her, to avoid her getting scared.

Yu Ru didn't sleep, her ears carefully listening for Yun Jixing's movements. She knew he had gone to bed, and she also felt his distance. This distance made her heart feel like it was choking. Yun Jixing never stayed this far away from her, and besides, he hadn't kissed her before going to bed tonight.

Is this going to create a rift between them? No, she doesn't want that. She finally accepted Yun Jixing and got used to him being by her side. She... doesn't want to lose him, and she doesn't want their relationship to falter because of something like this.

After pondering it over, she slowly turned her head to look at Yun Jixing. This sight was filled with a heart-wrenching pain. Yun Jixing was actually sleeping with his back to her. How could this be? If he was deep asleep, it would be perfectly fine for him to have his back to her, but now that they had just started sleeping, what did he mean by having his back to her?

Are you angry? Don't want to talk to her anymore?

Looking at Yun Jixing's back, Yu Ru didn't know what to do, so she just watched.