Searching for Treasures in the Clouds

The food made by Yunjixing was very good, with good color, aroma and taste, but Yu Ru felt inexplicably nauseous and couldn't eat.

She was very tired today, both physically and mentally. After discussing matters of marriage and love with Lian Shikan, her own concepts were somewhat impacted, and she began to think about the relationship between her and Yun Jixing.

Her ideas are completely opposite to Lian Shikan's. She is totally incapable of being as free and easy as Lian Shikan in daring to love and hate. Such thoughts make her a little troubled.

She suddenly realized that she still had a lot of resistance to Yun Jixing. So, did she really like him? Did she really fall in love with him? How could she get married without love? What was she doing now?

She understands how a person can get rid of emptiness and anxiety. It is nothing more than taking action. No matter how big or small the goal is, as long as you focus on improving yourself, you don't need to think too much and just work hard in a down-to-earth manner.

But knowing is one thing, and being able to do it is another.

What she hated most was this about herself. Why did she always think so much? Why couldn't she relax? Her mentality always returned to the idleness, anxiety and fear she had as a child.

From an objective point of view, she has earned a good life for herself and her family is well off. Compared with most people who try their best and even risk half their lives but can only make ends meet, she is living a life of luxury. Only when you know how to be content and see what you have can you be happy. She has seen it, so why does she still love to fantasize and go crazy?

Life doesn't have so many ups and downs. The changes in the mountains and valleys and the changing weather are just a moment. Cherish the present and live well in the present. Allowing yourself to waste time a little, accepting that you have nothing to do, and living a plain life is actually the power of life.

She couldn't do it, she still couldn't do it.

She always imagined herself being abandoned because of a trivial matter, and how she would deal with it. Every time this happened, she would hate everyone indiscriminately, and the person she hated the most was herself.

It's been more than ten years and it's still like this.

"Aru, eat more. I believe you can do it." Yun Jixing picked up several pieces of black chicken for Yu Ru, thinking that today's dishes were so delicious that it should make her a little happier.

He raised his eyes to see her reaction, but saw tears in her eyes, with two drops of water slowly moving down her face.

"Aru, what's wrong?" He quickly stood up and sat down next to Yu Ru.

Yu Ru looked at him calmly without reacting.

She wanted to tell him about her troubles, but she realized that she had shed too many tears in front of Yun Jixing. She didn't want to be vulnerable all the time. She would rather face him with a strong but not sharp image.

Yu Ru wiped the tears from her face with her hands and shook her head to show that she was fine. [I'm fine, let's eat.]

"How can you be okay? What happened? Did you encounter something bad today?" Yun Jixing asked with concern, and reached out to take the tissue on the table to wipe her face.

Yu Ru still shook her head.

She wanted to face it all alone. Actually, it was nothing. It was just that she felt fragile today and felt uncomfortable thinking too much.

"Zhuangzi's Equality of Things" says: "Life and death are simultaneous, and death and life are simultaneous." Things are constantly changing, and life is endless and immortal. A resounding life may be defeated temporarily, but how can it be sluggish forever? She needs to be stronger and prove to herself that she will not be defeated so quickly, that she can do more, and that she will make good use of everything she has and live a good life, including solving today's difficulties and love.

Yu Ru got up, went to the bathroom to wash her face before returning to the dining table.

She sat down in her seat, Yun Jixing put his arm around her shoulders and asked softly, "Aru, what happened? Can you tell me? I'm worried about you."

A smile appeared on Yu Ru's face. She stretched out a hand, placed it on the back of Yun Jixing's neck and touched his head. She shook her head and made sign language.

[It's not a big deal, just a small matter that consumed my mental energy. I've digested it now. Let's eat.]

Yun Jixing stroked her arm, stared at her in silence for a moment, and said seriously: "Aru, no matter what difficulties you encounter, as long as you are alive, there is hope. Many times our pain comes from the impact on our own values. Don't worry, keep yourself busy for a while, make yourself full, and everything will be fine."

Yu Ru nodded.

……

After they finished their meal, they sat on the sofa in the living room and chatted, imagining the future. Yu Ru was held in Yun Jixing's arms, sitting on his shoulder.

"Aru, was the food delicious? How about the black chicken?"

Yu Ru nodded, [They are all delicious. Have you learned how to make them from the master chef?]

After the gesture, she raised two thumbs. Yun Jixing smiled and grabbed her hand, "Some of them I learned, and some of them I figured out on my own. As long as you like to eat them, it's fine. I don't have any particulars about food, as long as you like it."

[I don’t have any particulars about food. As long as it is food for Chinese people, I will eat it. You don’t have to worry too much about cooking. Just make what you like.]

"I like whatever you like to eat. I'm your little follower."

Yu Ru looked at him and just smiled, without much reaction.

The two of them hugged each other quietly. After a while, Yun Jixing said, "Aru, we have been together for quite a while, and I haven't been with you much. Next month, I can spare some time. Can we go traveling together? Travel outside for half a month and then come back. I want to take you around the world."

Yu Ru looked up at him, then lowered her head and thought for a moment. She gestured, "You are so busy at work, how do you spare so much time? It doesn't take that long. I understand. If your body can't handle it, you don't have to ask yourself to do so many things."

Yun Jixing smiled and stroked Yu Ru's arm. "You have to work, but you can't work forever. What's the point of working all your life? In fact, most of the time I don't want to work. I want to go out and play with you first."

Yu Ru stared at him in deep thought for a while, then gestured, "Then you should play more first, I think you are tired."

"Yeah." Yun Jixing put his head against Yu Ru's head, and then his face against her face.

"Yes, I am tired. Many times I want to stop and do nothing, just like being with you now, or having dinner with mom and dad. But if I stop and don't make progress, I won't be able to protect my family. I need a lot of money and a lot of power."

Yu Ru turned her head to observe Yun Jixing's expression and gestured with her hands, "Is it because of Yun Liuyi and Yun Quan?"

"Half, yeah."

[Why can't so many people in the family defeat him? Doesn't anyone know that he has been bad for so many years?]

Yunjixing let out a very light sigh.

"We had suspicions but didn't investigate further. Yun Liuyi was raised in our home when he was three or four years old. Our grandparents never mistreat him, and our brothers and sisters never bullied him because he was an outsider. They raised him like their own child. Children that young usually don't have much memory, so we didn't think he would do those things. Who knew he had been holding a grudge against our family ever since he came to the Yun family?"

[Why do you hold a grudge? What happened?]

"Nothing happened. Everyone in our family has reviewed their own behavior and found no problems. From our perspective, we can't find any reason for his hatred. In fact, before he came to the Yun family, he had nothing to do with us. We didn't know him or his family at all. Due to some twists and turns, he was entrusted by many parties and finally settled in our family."

[Is he a refugee? You were so kind as to take him in?] Yu Ru looked a little confused.

Hearing her words, Yun Jixing smiled. He reached out a hand and gently stroked her hair, saying, "You can say that she is a refugee."

[But I heard that children from wealthy families are monitored no matter what they do. Doesn’t your family have that?]

"Yes, but grandpa and grandma are just watching us in the general direction to prevent us from going astray. They don't monitor our every move. There are too many people in the family, and it's impossible to take care of everyone so carefully. Yun Liuyi and Yun Quan..."

After a pause, Yun Jixing said with some emotion: "He is indeed very powerful, very patient, extremely cautious, and has good acting skills. By the time we found out, the situation was already a bit serious. At that time, he did not do bad things against our family, but to outsiders. Grandpa and grandma took into account the feelings they had raised him for so many years, so they only considered removing them from the family and giving him some other punishments that would not lead to death. Later, things developed into what I told you before. The main base of the father and son is in Licheng, and our family is mainly in Huacheng, Hecheng and Nancheng. No matter how powerful they are, they can always move around more in the places where their main business is, and it is difficult to control things in other places. Therefore, this is also the difficulty of punishing the father and son, which is to manage the relationships in other places."

After hearing this, Yu Ru leaned on Yun Jixing's chest and did not move.