Please stay away from me, protagonist

Therefore, Tang Feng sneered, and looked at him not as if he was looking at a crazy madman but as if he was looking at a fool.

His eyes were full of pity for him.

"I feel so sorry for you, you think you have it all, you have a lot by the worldly definition, but it's just a mirage that disappears like bubbles at the touch of a finger.

Do you have something that is truly worth your attention? Without saying anything else, I would like to ask you: Do you have friends? Probably not? Do you have a lover? No, right?

Have you really acquired knowledge? No, do you really love nature? No, you think you have everything when you have nothing.

It's ridiculous, you're just a coward. You can't even go out, otherwise you wouldn't be hiding behind the scenes."

"Do you dare to openly declare your ideals? You don't dare, because you know that it is not allowed in public.

If you are discovered, you will be hunted down by everyone. I don’t believe you don’t know this. You are very smart.

That's why you don't go out and disguise yourself, because you know that the real you will not be accepted by others.

Because you wanted to destroy humanity, you betrayed your own race.

Because you are also a human being. Everyone hates betrayers. No one likes betrayers.

Even those who have been brainwashed by you, they know that what they are doing is wrong and don’t want to stop, but have they really hurt anyone?

No, they only hurt themselves.”

"If there is, there is no way there is no news about it in this world. It has already reached the end of the world.

It can be said that all ethical, moral, legal and regulatory provisions have become a piece of waste paper, and there is nothing to be embarrassed about.

You can say they are just playing house with you, do you understand? You are just a giant baby who has not grown up.

You are playing a game of house, but you want to bury the whole world with you. What right do you have? Did they do something wrong?

No, they just met a lunatic like you, who shouldn’t have been born in this world.”

"Your entire soul is black. Are you worthy of your family? They are so good to you.

Are you worthy of those who truly admire you? Are you worthy of those who have a crush on you? Are you worthy of the nature you really want to protect?

Look at nature now. Is there a growing tree? Is there a new blade of grass? Is there a flower budding and about to bloom?

No, nothing. Maybe people in the future won’t recognize the so-called flowers, plants and trees, and will think they are just legends.

Your intention is good and you want to protect nature, but your actions have truly brought nature to a dead end.

Maybe the world will calm down after many, many years. But how long will that be?

No one knows. No one even knows whether the situation will be completely destroyed without any easing.

If the world is destroyed, you are the biggest murderer and the main culprit."

The man couldn't listen anymore and interrupted her.

"That's enough, stop talking, I don't want to hear it.

Do you think I'll give up like this? I can't let something I've worked so hard on go to waste.

If the world is destroyed, then I will accept it. It's also good to have the world buried with me. I won't be alone.

Since I can't be the savior of the world, then I'll be the culprit who destroys the world. Anyway, I must do this to the extreme, I can't give up. "

"You're crazy."

“Thank you for the compliment. I think it’s good to be crazy. I don’t have to endure the constraints of the secular world. I don’t have to live like a fake person just to make them happy. Do you think I’m really living a good life?

I do my best to do everything and try to make everyone happy, but I don’t seem happy, I seem to have lost myself.

People seem to love me and remember me, but they only love my persona. No one will love the real me, and I won’t let anyone get into my dark side. ”

"Don't think I'm miserable. I enjoy being alone. I don't want anyone to interfere, but I don't even have 10 minutes to enjoy myself.

There is always someone trying to bother me.

I tried to say I just wanted to be alone, but no one thought I was telling the truth, they just thought it was an excuse.

They force me to go to some party, but I just want to go to the library and read a book I like."

“But I can’t just say no, because that wouldn’t be the perfect child in my parents’ eyes, the best friend in my friends’ eyes, the perfect student in my teacher’s eyes, and the perfect man in my secret admirer’s eyes.

Do you think I am happy like this? I am just a fake person. It seems that I have all the good things in the world, but correspondingly I also have the worst negative emotions in the world. "

"It slowly built up and piled up until it was big enough to overwhelm me.

I couldn't stand it anymore, I knew I might be sick, but I couldn't go to the doctor. I didn't have the time, money or even the right to travel.

Until I couldn't stand it anymore, I wanted to cure myself, and I thought that with my IQ I could do better than those psychiatrists, so I raised money behind their backs and set up a laboratory to do experiments. "

I kept telling myself: "I am a great scientist with a mission to save the world. My mind is always full of endless inspiration, I have an inextinguishable passion for creation, and I have a slight obsession with cleanliness."

I imagine myself as a transcendent being, caring for everyone like a saint.

However, all of this is just the character I set for myself, a fictional image.

No, the real me."

“I know very well that only with a strong sense of contrast can people remember me deeply.

So, I began to deliberately create this contrast, sometimes being cold and ruthless, sometimes being enthusiastic and passionate.

Sometimes I am serious, sometimes I am humorous. This makes me mysterious and makes people want to find out more.

I'm not sure if this is really self-hypnosis, or if I'm schizophrenic, or if I'm just acting.

Maybe, but I was really addicted to it.

This world really favors me, I can get whatever I want.

For example, I just wanted a lab and I didn’t even have a penny.”

"But the next second someone called and said I won the lottery and won the first prize. A large laboratory with all kinds of equipment.

Just like that, I had the best lab in the world.

I clearly didn’t buy a single lottery ticket, and I didn’t even go to claim the prize.

But no one thought there was anything wrong, and they all congratulated me, which made me feel that something was wrong, as if this world was fake. Or maybe I was dreaming, and there was no logic in the dream at all."

"However, reality slapped me hard in the face and made me realize that this was not a nightmare or an illusory fantasy, but an extremely real world that was completely illogical.

Here, everything seems to have lost common sense and order. People living here don't think there is a problem at all, they just think that the world is just like this. But I don't think so. I think the world shouldn't be like this.

The world should be logical and orderly, not chaotic and disorderly."

“Sometimes I really hate why God favors me so much and keeps me sober.

Isn't it good to let me indulge in it? Isn't it good to let me be like those people who don't notice it?

Why do you have to make me aware of this? Make me sober.

Why should I be so smart?

Isn't it good to be an ordinary person, instead of living like a madman? "

“At first I was just pretending to be crazy, then I felt like I was really crazy, but at the same time I wasn’t, I couldn’t tell the difference at all.

I even feel like I have two of me, no, it should be more than two.

How should I put it? I don’t know how many there are. Maybe one more appears every second, or maybe one dies every second.

They were pulling me, making me want to die but unable to die. I always wanted to be free until that day someone broke into my laboratory and stole my reagents.

This was a surprise to me.”

“Someone actually broke in. Even though I didn’t take any precautions, no one could get in.

No one could get in except me, until that day someone was able to break in. I was ecstatic and I thought I was finally free.

The man met me on the road and died unexpectedly. My last hope was gone and I went completely crazy.

I don’t know what I did, he just looked at me and he died. I didn’t do anything, but it seemed like I did everything.”

"I think it would be nice if this stinking world just disappeared. Just perish with me.

Of course, I still cared about nature at that time. I just wanted to destroy mankind and didn’t really want to harm nature.

The result now is not what I want, but it is probably irreversible now, so let it be, it is good to die together. "