If love can be booked

It was Tuesday, the sky was clear and cloudless. I did not stay in the company cafeteria to eat as usual. Instead, I chose to stroll along the path alone during lunch time, drinking a cup of coffee and thinking about my worries.

The breath of summer is unusually strong, and everywhere you look is green, but spring does not seem to be far away. Perhaps people have long been accustomed to this vague change of seasons.

He was on a business trip, and at that moment, there seemed to be an empty place deep in my heart.

There are always some people who, when they are with us, we don’t notice anything special about them. However, once they leave, an inexplicable sense of loss arises. Does this mean missing them?

Missing him? Shen Wanning, do you know what you are thinking about? Are you really thinking about him? Lu Jinchuan.

Your world should belong to Chu Haoyang, not him.

Not him, even though he's perfect.

It was all my own wishful thinking. You gave me an illusion that I was a happy princess protected by you. But I was the only one who knew that I was just her substitute.

It’s just a substitute, so how can there be love?

Turning the corner, his figure, Chu Haoyang? Bridal shop?

He went into a bridal shop? What surprise did he prepare?

I have imagined countless times the moment when I become a bride, wearing a beautiful wedding dress and walking towards the other side of happiness. At this moment, watching Chu Haoyang walk into the bridal shop, it seems that I see the dream scene gradually becoming a reality. But why am I not as happy as I imagined? Is it because of him?

However, when his eyes fell on the woman holding hands with him, his mood became complicated. Is that person her? The woman in the photo, the shadow that has always been hidden in his heart.

"Isn't the white one good? I really like it." Her gentle voice was like a sharp sword piercing my heart. Who says a woman's most beautiful moment is when she puts on a wedding dress for her beloved? At this moment, looking at her happy appearance in the wedding dress, I didn't feel the slightest joy in my heart.

"All up to you." Chu Haoyang gently tapped her nose, his eyes full of doting. She was indeed very beautiful in her wedding dress, so beautiful that it was breathtaking.

Their intimate gesture of holding hands, and the flawless smile on Chu Haoyang's face, these are what he once longed for but never got. The coffee cup in his hand slipped unconsciously and splashed all over the floor. Suddenly he wanted to escape from this place, but his feet seemed to be nailed down and couldn't move.

"Wan, Wan Ning?" He heard a voice in the distance, and he turned around. He subconsciously wanted to loosen his grip on her hand, but hesitated for a moment, as if he was being held back by an invisible force.

"She, is it her? Is she the reason why you come home late?" The tone was so calm that it made people's heart palpitate. There was no hysterical crying, only a deep despair and sadness.

"Wan Ning, please listen to my explanation." If possible, he sincerely hoped to avoid hurting her in such a cruel way, because she had once promised him that she would never let her come to any harm.

"I don't want to listen. I don't want to listen." She suddenly became excited and covered her ears with her hands, as if she wanted to block out all the sounds from the outside world. Tears slid down her cheeks, and she closed her eyes, trying to suppress the pain in her heart. If she didn't hear his explanation, would she no longer feel heartache? But the truth was so cruel. She understood that his busyness was not the real reason, but because his heart was no longer with her.

"You are Shen Wanning, right? I think Haoyang hasn't told you yet..." We are getting married, can you quit the game that doesn't belong to you?

"Miao..." His voice was a little low, and his eyes revealed a hint of embarrassment. He really didn't want to break up with her at this time, because he was afraid to see her sad.

"Ms. Shen, Haoyang and I are getting married next month." She didn't understand why she had been giving in all the time. Didn't he love her? Why was she so obsessed with this relationship?

Family love and love, these two seemingly simple words, are difficult to give a clear definition.

"Since Haoyang has always treated you as his sister, then you are naturally my sister too. When the time comes, please be sure to come to our wedding." Sister? She had never treated him as a brother! What she expected was to become his lover and walk through life with him hand in hand.

As for how she left later, he could no longer remember clearly. He only remembered her last words: "Are you getting married?" Yes, he was getting married, and he would walk into the palace of marriage with another woman's hand. But the bride was not her.

He's getting married? Married? And the bride isn't her? These words were like sharp swords, piercing her heart mercilessly. Every time she thought about it, her heart ached. She couldn't accept this fact, but she was powerless to change anything.

I don't know how many desires there are in life, and I don't know how much melancholy there is in life

I really want to have you in my life

Give me hope, lend me wings, let me fly

I really want to have you in my life

Give me an ideal, point me in the right direction, let me fly

I really want to fly to a place without you

No matter how far the road is, no matter how difficult it is

I really want to go to and leave you who is so ethereal

After tasting tea, I wonder if you will have unforgettable memories

I really want to ask you

In the middle of the night, will you remember the past of us?

Our dreams, the places we once wanted to go

I don't know if I forgot our agreement or if it's just the madness of youth

I really want to see the scenery with you

I really want to watch the sunset with you

I don't know who left it in a cold corner.

I really want to pursue our dreams

I don't know who has forgotten it, forgotten it on the edge of a shallow dream

Will you still remember the laughter we once had?

Now, it has melted into the communication of tears

I really want to make a promise to you

I really want to give you a vow

I really want to

……

There are too many good ideas in life

I don't know if my thoughts can bear so much

I really want to

He is getting married. She said he is getting married? The bride is not her...

Finally, he said that he was going to get married.

Getting married? Chu Haoyang, you are getting married? What about me? What should I do?

I didn’t cry. Did I forget how to cry? The afternoon sun was so bright that I wanted to block it with my hands, but I found that I had lost even the last bit of strength.

The company in front of me is Lushi Comprehensive Chemical Group. Such a magnificent building suddenly makes me feel timid. Maybe I don't belong here? Why do I always feel out of place?

You said we should break up, but I didn’t cry because I was sad. I didn’t cry because I was sad.

I looked up and saw that the sunlight was too glaring. It must be because of the sunlight.

"Shen Wanning?" Just because of her words of missing her, he couldn't wait to fly back to China from Japan in advance.

"What's wrong? What happened?" His hollow eyes were unfocused. She didn't notice him passing by. He took her hand, which was cold. In July, her hand was cold.

"It's okay, I'm okay." It's okay, I'm okay, I'm not sad, I can do it alone. Who is this sentence for? Is it him or her?

He? Didn't the man standing in front of him say he would be back from a business trip tomorrow? That extremely familiar face, that extremely familiar voice, and that familiar body temperature all made people feel sad.

"You don't look well." Lu Jinchuan said truthfully, because her face looked very pale.

Maybe I can only remain silent, looking up at him, with a little attachment. I don't think I will cry, I am not sad, I just broke up, just broke up...

However, at this moment, he appeared in front of me at the right time, and I suddenly had an urge to hug him tightly, to feel his body temperature, and to enjoy the warmth he gave me. Just stay here quietly for a while... No, no, no! I shook my head vigorously, then took a step and turned away. Let him go and let myself go.

"Wan Ning?" She broke free from his tightly grasped hand. Her steps as she left seemed somewhat lonely, as if something was bothering her.

"Tell me, what happened?" Shen Wanning, do you know? How can I rest assured that you are like this at this moment?

"I..." I opened my mouth and wanted to tell him that I was fine, but I swallowed the words back. Because I suddenly realized that I could no longer deceive myself and say that I was fine. I was fine, but I really didn't want to say that I was fine now!

I turned away and said nothing, afraid that my voice would reveal my true feelings, afraid that I would cry out loud if I wasn't careful, and even more afraid that I would lose the courage to move forward. I blamed myself for not living up to my expectations, but tears kept falling. One drop, two drops, three drops...

"You..." Her tears fell on the back of his hand, burning his heart like flames.

She must be in a mess right now, right? She just wanted to leave, walk away silently. But she didn't know where she could go, or where she should go.

Her tears kept falling like pearls from a broken string, and his heart sank along with her tears. She was absent-minded, and looked a little helpless. She didn't pay attention to the passing cars on the other side of the street.

"Hey, are you crazy?" Looking at the cars passing through the middle of the street, his heartbeat suddenly accelerated, and an inexplicable panic surged into his heart. It felt like something important was about to disappear, and he hated this feeling.

"It's none of your business what I do." She felt like she was going crazy. If she really went crazy, would she be able to forget everything? Maybe that would be better...

"Who do you think you are? Why do you care about me? Go away, go away." She didn't want his sympathy, and she suddenly became unreasonable, extremely emotional, and lost her temper for no reason.

He just stood there silently, letting her beat and scold him. He didn't know whether he was angry with her or with himself. Looking at her at this moment, his heart was stabbed with pain.

He whispered before pulling her into a tight hug.

"You never need to pretend to be strong in front of me." He continued. He didn't need her to deliberately pretend to be strong, he just wanted to see the most real her who could cry and laugh.

In the bustling crowd, he held her quietly, as if he had forgotten the existence of the whole world. The noise around him gradually faded away, leaving only the two of them immersed in this peaceful atmosphere. You said that there is no need to pretend, but I have forgotten what is the most real self? Tears and snot flowed down, pitiful for his exquisite handmade suit.

"Okay, okay, silly, I always thought you were so strong, but you're not like me at all." He felt her fragility and understood that her strength was just a disguise. Even so, he had never seen her in such pain, as if she had lost the whole world.

"I don't even know what I should be like. I can't find my original self anymore. When did it start and who caused me to change?" she murmured to herself.