My whole family is the protagonist, and I am the only cannon fodder!

The book in her hand was one she had read before, and it was also the one Lu had decided to revisit.

There were only a few dozen pages left to read, and Lu Zao Zao turned the pages patiently and attentively. When turning the pages, he saw a very delicate and small bookmark inserted tightly into the page. He had not noticed it before, so Lu Zao Zao pulled it out.

I saw it written in very small words - This is the world I have to face, but in fact I have no place to start.

Lu Zaozao frowned in confusion. This should have been something she wrote before she was fifteen. Why did she write this sentence at that time?

She put on her shoes, stood up, and took out all the books on the bookshelf that had some signs of being read. She placed them on the table, pinched the cover, and shook the book down vigorously to see if there were any other bookmarks. As a result, she really found three among so many books.

——How many times do I need to reset my memory?

——I can never become myself. I am a person who is reshaped by fate again and again.

——It turns out that I have seen you so long ago. You should have stopped and said hello to me. Maybe... Never mind, there is no maybe.

Lu Zaozao opened her diary in the desk drawer again and turned to the things Zhao Jiamin had said to her last time and the things she had recorded in the past.

——Death will definitely come, maybe sooner or later. Everything has to happen, but it repeats itself over and over again.

——I have been deceiving myself.

Lu Zaozao looked at these words in confusion. They were clearly written by her in the past, but now she knew nothing about them.

She intuitively felt that the less than fifteen-year-old self before her "rebirth" in this life must have known many, many more things than what she knew now, more important, and more painful.

But what is it?

Who did she meet a long time ago? Was it Li Jianan? Or was it Xie Huinian?

Lu Zaozao felt that these books might contain other things written by her in the past, so she sat upright in the chair and patiently turned the pages of these books one by one, trying to find some evidence and traces.

But Lu knew early on that she didn't have the habit of writing down her thoughts on books. She would only write one or two sentences at most in a book, or use a marker to mark down good words and sentences that she thought were meaningful.

Finally, after Lu Zaozao had flipped through more than a dozen books in succession, she finally saw a long paragraph written by Lu Zaozao in the postscript of one of the books. However, before she could look closely at what the words recorded, they seemed to disappear out of thin air in an instant.

The words seemed to float up from the paper, turning into a puff of black smoke before disappearing completely.

Lu Zaozao even suspected that she was dazzled. She rubbed her eyes hard and turned on all the lights in the room. The whole room instantly became as bright as day. Lu Zaozao looked at the words on the book again, but they were gone, nothing at all. There was only the printed postscript belonging to the author of the book.

Everything seemed very strange.

For a moment, Lu Zaozao felt like she had seen a ghost, or that it was an illusion caused by her sleepless nights.

Lu Zao Zao sighed heavily, thinking that he was a person who kept dying and being reborn, and was able to see the life experiences of a small number of people as the protagonists. Is there anything more bizarre in the world than this?

Even if a ghost appeared in front of her now, it would not be surprising.

Lu Zaozao originally planned to flip through the other books piled on the table page by page, but after thinking it over, she decided not to. She knew clearly that no matter how carefully she read them, even if there were some things recorded in them, she would not be able to see them now.

The books were piled up in a mess on the desk and on the floor. Lu Zaozao was already feeling a little tired, so he decided to sort out the books and put them back on the bookshelf tomorrow morning.

She turned off the bright lights, leaving only the small lamp on the bedside, and slowly calmed her mind in the quiet night. Although it was very late, Lu Zao Zao still finished reading the book that she had just finished.

After reading it, Lu Zaozao curled up in bed, looking at the ceiling in the bright yellow light on the bedside table. Perhaps it was because he went to the temple to worship the Buddha today, even though so many things happened one after another today, Lu Zaozao did not feel any intense turmoil in his heart.

Her eyes slowly shifted horizontally, looking at the lamp on the ceiling. The patterns on it made her feel dizzy. Lu Zaozao became more and more sleepy, and finally fell into a deep sleep in the dim light of the turned-on lamp.

I slept quite well. Although the sleeping time was not long, I did not wake up in the middle of the night, and my body did not feel sore and weak after sleeping.

Lu Zao Zao yawned lazily in bed, took out his cell phone and saw that it was still early, only eight o'clock. Aunt Li had a high-speed rail ticket for nine o'clock in the morning and had not left yet. She quickly brushed her teeth and washed her face, wrapped herself in a coat and went downstairs.

Aunt Li had just finished making breakfast and saw Lu Zao Zao coming down. She quickly called her, "Hey, Zao Zao, you woke up so early? You don't have to go to school today, go back and take a nap later. Come over now and eat. I originally said that I would put it in the pot to heat it up after I finished making it, and you can come down and eat when you wake up."

"Well, I slept well last night, so I woke up now." Lu sat on the chair early, eating warm millet porridge with fried dumplings. While chewing the food, he said to Aunt Li, "Aunt Li, I'll take you there later."

"No, no, why would you need a little kid like you to come and take me there? Just go back and lie down to sleep after breakfast. If you can't sleep, play for a while."

Aunt Li was afraid that Lu Zao Zao would be stubborn and insist on sending her away, so she said, "It would be better for Auntie to go back alone. If you send me back, I will be worried that you will be alone at home, and I will force you to go back to my house later."

"Okay, okay. Then let the driver take you to the high-speed rail station later. Have a safe trip."

"Yeah, that's fine." Even when she was about to leave, Aunt Li still reminded Lu Zao Zao to eat well, "Eat more, eat more, and grow some weight to be healthy."