My whole family is the protagonist, and I am the only cannon fodder!

Xie Huinian just looked at her red eyes, neither shaking his head nor nodding, nor saying anything, just remaining silent.

"That's an easy guess, isn't it?" Jiang Mengran smiled somewhat sadly, "It turns out that he wanted to propose to me that day."

I said sorry at the beginning of the letter, sorry for arguing with Jiang Mengran for so long, sorry for the suffering I had experienced when I was with him, and sorry for saying things in a moment of impulse that might have hurt her.

In fact, there was nothing to feel sorry about. She had not suffered any hardship in life. The other party was very good to her and would usually do his best to give her the best things. At that time, Jiang Mengran inadvertently mentioned that a certain brand of necklace was very beautiful, so Duan Qi worked several jobs to buy it for him. It was not even a special day, but just an ordinary day.

All the apologies and compromises she wanted were hidden at the beginning of this letter.

Then he wrote, and he was very busy during this period, writing code day and night, and sold a program that he had prepared for a long time, earning a fairly substantial amount of money. At that time, he asked Jiang Mengran to wait a little longer, waiting for the next sum of money to be transferred to his card account, and then he would buy a very good ring to propose to Jiang Mengran. Everything will eventually come to an end, so just wait a little longer.

I don't know how much I wrote in the middle, they were all small little things.

Then he wrote in the last few paragraphs and the end of the letter: Please forgive me for my ignorance and stubbornness some time ago. I really know I was wrong. I spent all my savings to buy this ring, but I always feel it is not good enough and not worthy of you. But I will change it when I earn enough money in the future. I will change it for you. I will give you the best one, the only one in the world.

By then, the house will be decorated and designed as you wish, with lots of windows and large transparent floor-to-ceiling windows. When the weather is good, you can see the bright sunshine, and when the weather is bad, you can curl up on the sofa and watch a movie.

I haven’t cooked for you for a long time. I don’t know if my cooking skills have deteriorated. Even if they have, it doesn’t matter. I will practice and study hard and strive to improve. Whatever you want to eat, I will learn it immediately and make it for you.

There are some things I should have said to you in person, especially something as important as proposing to you. However, I practiced in front of the mirror for a long time and kept stuttering because I was too nervous. I went through several drafts and it still wasn't fluent. I spoke incoherently. I was afraid that I would mess it up at such an important moment, so I'd better say some things in the letter.

I love you. This is the sentence I want to say most.

After today it will be New Year's Day, the new year will be New Year's Day, all the bad things will be left in the past, everything will start all over again. Please agree when I propose to you before midnight, it doesn't matter if you don't agree, I will think of a way.

But could you please be soft-hearted and agree? Please, please.

I love you. Even though I have said it many times in letters, I decided to say it again in front of you today.

After opening the letter that day, Jiang Mengran sat on the lawn and cried for a long time. She was wondering at that time, why could fate be so cruel?

There is no buffer zone for people, both happiness and pain are so extreme that she has the idea and desire to destroy everything.

"That night after I read the letter, I walked along the river for a long time. I don't know why, but seeing that lake always reminded me of the rain that day. It rained so hard and so hard. I thought divergently that it all fell from the same sky. As I walked, I even thought about whether I should just jump in. But then I remembered that I promised your grandfather that I would return safely and healthily before I came here."

"I was so tired after thinking for so long that I leaned most of my body against the fence."

In fact, Jiang Mengran did not want to commit suicide for love. She was not that fragile or cowardly. The most sincere and deepest feelings in her early years had already been worn away by life, leaving only the painful and deep half.

Perhaps when this happened at the age of sixteen, Jiang Mengran would have had the idea of ​​doing this, but now she is in her twenties, and the beautiful dreams of her girlhood are long gone, completely wasted.

She just felt too tired. Life had turned her into a completely different person from when she was sixteen or seventeen years old. She was exhausted both physically and mentally, and even lost the ability to dream well.

I always think back to that rainy night unconsciously. In my dreams, I am standing in the dark rainy night. The car accident keeps happening in front of her. A bloody face smiles at her gently and helplessly. I say sorry to her and tell her that if I had known we should not have met.

At the end of the dream, the other person was in a shadow, getting farther and farther away from her, and then he whispered something to her, a few very short words, but because of the distance, even in the dream Jiang Mengran still couldn't hear clearly. She tried desperately to ask the other person what he wanted to say, but the figure had already disappeared.

After reading the letter, she realized that perhaps those few short words meant - I love you.

Jiang Mengran was silent for a long time after telling the first half of the story, her voice choked up a little, but perhaps after so many years, she has gradually learned to understand and let go with the passage of time. The person is gone, and perhaps everyone should look forward.

Always keep looking forward without looking back.

Maybe everyone should learn this.

But Xie Huinian thought that he would probably never be able to do it. He could only stand in the long river of time, soaked to the skin, looking back at the sorrow and regret of the past, and eagerly looking forward to and fearing the future, trembling with fear, never knowing where to stay.

The things you want to grasp always slip away from your hands like quicksand.

But at this point Jiang Mengran's story should finally have a bright future, and there will most likely not be any more tragic developments, because Jiang Mengran's life is now happy and free. Most of the time, the worries he shows are because of Xie Huinian and Jiang Ming. He is worried about their physical condition and their lives at the moment.

So he continued to ask about the next development of the story diligently and gently, just like a bystander, "What happened next?"

"Then..." Jiang Mengran thought for a while and smiled helplessly, "Then I met your dad."