After the breakup, my identity as a singing god was exposed

The two depressed men drank one glass of wine after another.

By the time the waiter brought the dishes, half a box of wine had been consumed.

"Brother Liu, I see you're not in a very good mood either?"

Shi Yu picked up a piece of food with chopsticks.

Liu Xuan nodded, not knowing what to say.

After a moment of silence, he said, "Someone is forcing me to do something I don't want to do. If I don't do it, I might lose everything I have now!"

Shi Yu smiled and said, "I read a novel before, and there is a sentence in it that says, if you are undecided, you can ask the spring breeze. The spring breeze is silent, so just follow your heart."

Liu Xuan smiled and said, "Aren't you a novelist? Why are you reading other novels?"

“I love to write because I love to read.”

Shi Yu picked up the wine glass and took a sip.

Liu Xuan was a little confused. If he followed his heart, what would his own wish be?

He certainly doesn't want to deceive his fans, but it's also hard to give up everything he has now.

This, like his personality, is a complex issue in itself.

"Do you know why I can't make any money writing novels?"

Shi Yu chewed the food in his mouth and asked Liu Xuan vaguely.

"why?"

Liu Xuan actually had no interest in this, but since he said it, he just continued the conversation.

"Because of the so-called literary character!"

Liu Xuan was a little confused.

Shi Yu smiled self-deprecatingly: "No matter what you do, you have to cater to the market. The times are different now. People like to read fast-paced and exciting novels. But I always like to read some traditional novels and look down on those who write fast-paced novels. So I deserve to be eliminated by the times, don't I?"

Liu Xuan nodded in agreement. This also applies to musicians.

"Some people say that if you can't change the environment, you should change yourself. Sometimes I wonder if I should make some changes as well."

Shi Yu felt a little melancholy when he said this.

"If I can make money by writing novels, will the girl I like not leave me?"

Liu Xuan shook his head: "Love should not be based on material things!"

"But isn't love without material things just an empty shell? I can't give anything to the other person, but I still want him to follow me wholeheartedly. Isn't that irresponsible?"

Liu Xuan didn't say anything because he didn't know how to refute.

"I am like a person living in a dream, insisting on the worthless so-called integrity every day, just like Kong Yiji in Lu Xun's works who could not take off his long gown."

"But once a person loses his integrity, what's the difference between him and a zombie?"

“You must always have your own persistence. Even if this persistence is not understood by everyone, at least you will not let yourself down!”

Liu Xuan's hand holding the chopsticks froze in mid-air. He looked at Shi Yu for a long time, unable to speak.

He is right, people always have to persist.

He also seemed to be a person living in a dream, even more paranoid than Shi Yu.

Otherwise, I wouldn't worry about something that seems so simple.

He is also Kong Yiji who cannot take off his long gown. He has an isolated island in his heart that he longs for, far away from the worldly intrigues.

After that, the two fell into a long silence.

We only clink glasses occasionally after meals.

For Shi Yu, what he yearns for is the kind of pure and flawless love that is detached from the world, so he and Li Ruoxi cannot be together.

Li Ruoxi is destined to be someone who will find it difficult to leave her circle.

So she and Liu Xuan are not suitable for each other.

In a sense, he and Shi Yu are the same kind of people.

Liu Xuan didn't know how much he had drunk.

Under the influence of alcohol, he took out his mobile phone and sent a message to Cao Weiwang.

Perhaps it was the alcohol that made the coward brave, or perhaps he also had his own persistence.

He rejected Cao Weiwang's request and left no way out for himself.

After sending the message, he turned off his phone and collapsed on the sofa.

This impulsive decision will completely ruin his future.

The songs he sang dominated the charts on multiple music platforms, and he was about to ascend the throne of music, but his fate was ruined just like that.

Liu Xuan felt an unprecedented emptiness, as if this decision had drained all his strength.

He drank one glass of wine after another, and Shi Yu also drank with him one glass after another.

Just like that, a person who was frustrated in love and a person who was frustrated in career drank until midnight.

Liu Xuan's consciousness gradually became blurred.

Before he completely lost consciousness, he seemed to see the isolated island that carried peace and tranquility again. The island seemed to be closer to him. There was a woman in a white dress on the island who turned her head and looked at him, but he still couldn't see the woman's face clearly.

In his last moment of consciousness, he thought, how nice it would be if he could just leave this world peacefully.

If all this was just a dream, when I woke up I was still in that shabby rental house.

The only thing that kept him company was the guitar in the corner.

......

It’s a pity that Liu Xuan couldn’t return to his previous world.

When he opened his eyes blearily, he was in a place that looked very familiar.

Very luxurious villa.

Shi Yu has disappeared.

A woman in a black cheongsam brought a bowl of porridge and placed it on the coffee table in front of Liu Xuan.

She looked at Liu Xuan with cold eyes: "If you are not dead, drink the porridge and go back to your home!"

Liu Xuan stared at her blankly without rebutting and quietly finished his bowl of porridge.

"Do you remember what you promised me before?"

Chang Qian's tone was not very good.

Of course Liu Xuan remembered that this woman had an almost paranoid aversion to men who got her drunk.

What he didn't understand was why he was always picked up by this woman every time he was drunk.

Liu Xuan was surprisingly calm: "I remember what I said. Don't worry, I will find a new practice room tomorrow and move out of your house."

Hearing this, Chang Qian was a little surprised. She thought Liu Xuan would at least try for it, but he didn't.

Chang Qian realized the seriousness of the matter, and her tone softened: "What happened?"

Liu Xuan smiled, and his eyes turned red as he smiled.

"I lost everything..."

Chang Qian frowned and looked at this weak man, feeling inexplicably disgusted.

But she still resisted the urge to kick him out.

"Tell me what's going on!"

It took Liu Xuan a long time to calm down.

He lowered his head.

Chang Qian is essentially a businessman, so perhaps she can give a fair evaluation of his actions.

So Liu Xuan took a deep breath and told him about his experiences over the past few days.

After hearing this, Chang Qian was extremely angry.

"Persistence, what is the value of your so-called persistence as a man? Why do you have to use this unrealistic bullshit theory to restrain yourselves? Is it easy for you to get to this point today? You are willing to give up everything for that bullshit theory in your heart!"

As she spoke, Chang Qian's eyes actually turned red, which caught Liu Xuan off guard.

He knew that Chang Qian must be a woman with a story, which was why she hated those who allowed themselves to degenerate so much.

Liu Xuan was at a loss.

Chang Qian picked up a pillow and threw it at Liu Xuan.

At this moment, she seemed to no longer be the upper-class person who was high and mighty all day long, but a woman who could also lose her temper.

Liu Xuan knew that his words had touched her soft spot.