Wait for me, and watch me fight my way back to the reincarnation path

No, she didn't dare, she was afraid!

She suppressed her pounding heart. She shouldn't think like this, but she knew she didn't dare.

What should I do? What should I do?

She was a member of the Wei family, but she didn't even have the courage to look at the bodies of her uncles.

She just wanted to go home now, back to that warm little house where her father, her brother, Aunt Mei, and the people she knew were there...

Yes, they would never allow themselves to take risks, would never allow themselves to see these things...

She tried to walk back trembling, but something tripped her feet and she fell again. Then, she saw...

That’s… that’s Brother Ming.

He was lying there, and it seemed as if he was only half of his body. She only saw one of his hands, and he just stared at her with his eyes open...

She fainted, she had no choice but to faint because she couldn't bear it anymore.

In her dream, she saw her uncle and brothers again, but they ignored her and walked past her one by one. She wanted to call them.

But she didn't dare, she didn't have the courage, and she didn't know what she could do for them.

Until later, her mother's gentle voice woke her up.

She didn't dare tell her mother that she saw Brother Ming, but she ran away. She didn't go to recognize him because she didn't dare.

From that day on, her mother no longer whispered to her, and she didn't dare to ask her mother again.

Not long after that, my mother passed away.

Until her death, my mother just smiled faintly.

Some time later, a relative in Qin's hometown was getting married, so her father took her back to his hometown. It was very different from Bande City, and she saw another kind of life.

It turns out that there is another kind of life in this world.

The new sister she had just met dragged her to listen to the bride's "Flower Tent". It was her first time listening to it and it was so strange!

However, the other girls looked so shy yet happy.

She remembered that her mother had said that when she grew up, she would get married.

Yes, mother said that she only needs to take care of herself.

So, she can still get married...

Qin Qiong sat by the campfire, looking at the flames that seemed to be constantly competing with each other but could only reach the same point and fall. She sighed softly.

People, at such a young age, actually have a sense of responsibility, and want to contribute to the adults and the country. However, steel is easy to break, and the girl's previous life environment was too good and too smooth, so she was a little too self-confident.

Finally, reality hit her all at once.

Qin Qiong is a lazy person, but he has never neglected the struggle for survival.

The profession of psychological counseling was very popular in society for a while, and it was heard that the money was very good, so he also read some books on psychology.

If a person with a weak heart encounters a big setback, because he knows his own weakness, he can accept it calmly and quickly adjust his mentality.

On the contrary, some people who have had it too easy and think they are strong often find it difficult to bear the setbacks they cannot accept. They are either crushed by reality or turn around and completely change themselves to become a person that is completely opposite to their usual selves, thereby escaping their past selves.

Qin Meiniang was obviously the latter. This little girl couldn't understand some things, nor could she help her mother or her grandparents. She knew she couldn't do anything, but she couldn't forgive her own incompetence and cowardice, so she came up with such a method...

She transformed herself into the kind of person she used to look down upon, so that she could live a good life without sadness.

"No, she is not living for happiness," Qin Qiong murmured to herself, "She is punishing herself..."

Yes, the little girl used this method to punish herself, punishing her incompetence, her cowardice, the problems she was unable to solve, and her avoidance of this world.

The little girl closed her eyes, not listening, not looking, not thinking, not imagining, just living.

Qin Qiong raised her head and looked at the stars in the sky. "Do you really want to die?" she said softly.

Yes, the little girl knew what her father had done for the Wei family, but that was not the fundamental issue, so she did not agree. 'That is meaningless,' she told her father.

But her father didn't listen, and then everything happened. What did her husband's family, the Xie family, do to her?

In fact, she didn't care at all, because she had many ways to deal with them if she wanted to.

But she didn't want to do it anymore, she was so tired...

She wanted to go back, to that day, to the day that changed her...

She asked herself, why are you so stupid?

Why didn’t you stay with your mother properly?

Why make yourself into a fool?

Why do you squander your youth like this and live like an idiot!

There was a reason why she married the general named Xie. Not only was Xie the only general who came to propose marriage at that time, but more importantly, the year she came of age was also the year when the new emperor recruited new people into the palace.

Even if she fell further, she would never reach that point, so she got married.

This might have been the only resistance the little girl could make at the time. She would rather marry a warrior whom she didn't know, who was much older than her and was called a bastard.

She would never go to the palace to serve the emperor who killed her relatives!

Qin Qiong did not return to the tent that night. She just sat there, recalling the past over and over again, savoring it, and crying, letting out all of Qin Meiniang's distress, helplessness, regret and unwillingness.

In order to free Qin Meiniang's pitiful soul, she comforted her and promised that as long as she had the chance, she would correct people's misunderstanding of her and avenge her and her relatives in her name, hoping that Qin Meiniang could rest in peace.

The next day, when the others got up and walked to the campfire, they found that Sect Master Qin had fainted again.

Only this time, her face was covered with tears...

The team was delayed for a long time because of this. Mao Li said to those people that they could go first and they would just take care of the sect leader. However, Hu Zi said that since everyone had agreed to travel together, they certainly could not be left behind.

After Qin Qiong woke up, he didn't say anything. And Hu Zi didn't ask any questions. They all went on their way as if nothing had happened. However, everyone felt a strange barrier slowly forming between the two teams.

After passing Pingyang Pass ahead, they will enter the territory of Bande City.

At noon, the two teams took a break in a small teahouse. The awkward atmosphere of the past two days finally reached its peak. As they ate and drank, everyone gradually stopped talking.

Everyone couldn't help but look at Qin Qiong.

Qin Qiong had been preoccupied these past two days, so she hadn't noticed the awkward atmosphere between the two teams.

At this time, she was still looking at the tall city vaguely visible in the distance with some sadness, sitting there, not knowing what she was thinking about.

"Qin, Sect Master?"

At this time, Hu Zi, who was sitting at the same table with her, called her softly.