She is so pitiful? I choose to pity myself first

With the sound of the door opening upstairs, the pain in his head became even worse. Lin Tingyu rubbed his temples, trying to make himself feel less uncomfortable.

After closing the door, Lin Tingyu looked at her mother busy in the kitchen, and her mood suddenly became very complicated.

Her mother had always been very good to her, but after her mother died, Lin Tingyu realized how wrong her mother's education of her was from childhood to adulthood.

Her mother was probably too kind, to the point of being a saint. As long as someone around her needed help, she would definitely help, regardless of whether she could do so or not.

If someone around her is about to do something wrong, for example, if the parents today don't want their child to continue studying and want their child to go to school, she will definitely intervene.

If the family decides not to treat the old man and let him die of natural causes, she will definitely take care of it.

But with this way of management, it was her mother who ended up suffering.

For example, the parents of that family said they had no money to send their child to school, so her mother spent most of her salary on tuition. Over time, the family even asked her mother for the child's living expenses.

Another family said they had no money to treat their elderly, so her mother organized everyone to donate money. In the end, the elderly was still not cured, and they ended up spending a lot of money.

Many people who didn't want to donate money but had to follow the crowd thought that her mother was meddling in their affairs and cursed her mother behind her back.

Even the old woman’s children felt that it was their mother who was meddling in their affairs, causing the old woman to continue suffering in the hospital before she died.

Even so, her mother will still intervene next time this happens.

This is also the reason why her father married her mother. The righteous policeman and the kind-hearted teacher are a perfect match.

The relationship between the two is indeed good, but because of her mother's saintly heart, they have never lived as well as others.

When she was a child, as long as her cousins ​​cried and acted pitiful, Lin Tingyu's new and beautiful clothes would be given to them, and her mother would give her delicious food to her cousins.

Her mother always told her:

"Xiao Yu, your cousins ​​don't live as well as we do. Look, their mothers set up stalls on the street every day, and they wear old clothes that neighbors don't want... You don't need clothes anyway, so just give them some."

So, every time her cousins ​​saw that she had new clothes, they would do the same thing.

As long as they were "envious", her mother would definitely feel sorry for them and ask her to take off her clothes and give them to them.

Over time, Lin Tingyu herself has been wearing old clothes, but her cousins, as long as they are not in front of her mother, always wear her clothes when they are outside, looking bright and beautiful.

Her mother always taught her to be kind and generous, and to sympathize with the weak.

However, her mother absolutely did not know that it was precisely because of her upbringing that her life became worse and worse over the next ten years, turning herself into a weak person, and others thought that she deserved the punishment.

It would be fine if she just gave her things, but her mother would step forward to intervene whenever she saw anything unfair.

If she sees an elderly person fall, she will definitely help him up, even if she has read news reports about extortion.

But fortunately, in the past, because her father was a policeman, he could always help her mother to verify things, so although her mother's helping the elderly was controversial, she did not suffer any loss.

When her mother saw beggars, she would be overwhelmed with sympathy. She obviously didn’t even have enough money for the bus fare, but she still had to give money to the beggars and walk back home.

Just like today, her seventeenth birthday.

Her mother was obviously going to take her to buy a cake, but when she was withdrawing money, she met a poor woman who was shivering with cold on the way and claimed that all her things were stolen and she was just asking for money for the trip. Her mother immediately felt sympathy for her and not only took off her coat to give to the woman, but also gave her all the money she had...

Then, the mother and daughter had to go home empty-handed.

She remembered that after returning home in her previous life, she went back to her room and wrote her diary with some sadness.

She even wrote in her diary:

[Although I can’t eat birthday cake, but like my mother said, being able to help a poor aunt go home is definitely more valuable than eating cake! Longevity noodles are also delicious. ]

But Lin Tingyu had already lost count of how many times similar things had happened.

So, in his seventeen years of life, Lin Tingyu has only eaten his own birthday cake a few times.

Because every time she saw someone else's misfortune, her mother would always choose to let her down and give the money that should have been spent on her to others in vain.

Later, Lin Tingyu also developed this habit, always putting others first and sacrificing himself.

It was not until Lin Tingyu died in a cheap rental house with a monthly rent of three hundred yuan, and died of illness in loneliness and despair, that Lin Tingyu realized how stupid he was.

Those who were helped by her may not be grateful to her. Those whose lives were changed because of her just thought she was meddling in other people's business. Obviously, she saved them from many detours, but when they saw her in dire straits, no one was willing to help her...

Why did she continue to live that life?

If she could live again, she would definitely not be as stupid as she was in her previous life...

This was the only sentence in my mind before I died.

I don’t know if it touched God, but God really gave her this opportunity.

Lin Tingyu looked at the simple longevity noodles in front of her, then looked at her mother's apologetic and expectant eyes, sighed, and ate the noodles.

"Is it delicious?"

Shen Zhinian said, "Xiaoyu, you shouldn't have said that to your Aunt Jiang just now. What if she really thinks she can make money and really borrows a lot of money..."

"mom."

Lin Tingyu interrupted her:

"Does their family's borrowing money or being defrauded of money have anything to do with our family?"

Shen Zhinian frowned immediately:

"Xiao Yu, what are you talking about? Aunt Jiang is the aunt who has watched you grow up. Our two families have lived together as neighbors for more than ten years. How can I just ignore what happened to her..."

Lin Tingyu looked at Shen Zhinian and immediately realized that she could not change the worldview that her mother had deeply rooted in her for most of her life.

"Mom, give me the remaining thirty thousand."

Shen Zhinian was stunned. "What's wrong? Don't you still have half a year before you go to college?"

I couldn't help but disagree:

"You are still young, it's not safe to carry so much money on you... Let mom keep it for you until you go to college and need to pay tuition."

Put it on her? Then it will probably be given to someone else in less than a month, right?

This was the case in her previous life. Her parents' salary should have been enough for her family to live a comfortable life.

After all, in a small county town like this, her parents are both formal employees, with a combined monthly income of more than 10,000 yuan, which is enough for them to buy a car and a house, and they don't have to worry about food and drink expenses.

As a result, every time her mother received her salary, she would spend it all within a week because she was meddling in other people's affairs.

Sometimes she even needs to ask her dad for it.

Her father understood her mother, so he kept every month's salary for himself, fearing that her mother would spend it all because of her willingness to help others.

If her family hadn't been supported by her father's meager salary, they would have gone bankrupt long ago. How could she have lived peacefully until she was seventeen?

Sure enough, once her father died in the line of duty, only her mother's salary was left, and life suddenly became tight every month.

Even her father's pension was only 30,000 yuan left in less than a year.

However, her mother has one weakness that is both her strength.

That is: be obedient.

She can listen to others and also listen to her daughter.