She is so pitiful? I choose to pity myself first

"Because I don't have the courage..."

"At that time, I didn't have the ability to fall in love with a special girl like you..."

“At that time, I just wanted to fight hard to realize my ideals, to create my own career, to let my biological parents live a better life, and to let those who look down on me and despise me because I am not the real young master of the Gu family see that without the Gu family, I, Gu Shiye, can also live a good life with my own abilities!”

Gu Shiye gritted his teeth and said, "I did it."

Yeah, he did it...

"That me, without your help, would have had a much harder time than I do now."

"Gu Shichen also caused me a lot of trouble, more than in this life."

"Tingyu, you probably don't know... that me, after I became successful and got everything I wanted, and stood at the top, I felt very lonely..."

"I don't have anyone I care about. Although I'm nice to my biological parents in my dreams, I'm not as close to them as I am in this life."

"They even still have feelings for Gu Shichen, and because of Gu Shichen, they misunderstand me."

"They didn't want to live with me in the capital, and stayed in the countryside all their lives. I would go to see them occasionally, but I could always feel that there was an invisible wall between them and me."

It is precisely because of the comparison in this life that Gu Shiye realized that he was actually lonely in his dreams.

Now he has Lin Tingyu, and his biological parents who are willing to accompany him and put him first compared to Gu Shichen...

Every day of his life is fulfilling and happy.

But in the dream, he had nothing...

In the dream, Ren Qingxue also thought that he had not married because of her, and even went to him secretly, saying that if he was willing to marry her, she would divorce Gu Shichen...

But in the dream, he refused without hesitation. He knew very well that he had no feelings for this so-called childhood sweetheart.

The only thing I had was probably the shame I felt when I found out that I was a fake young master and wanted to borrow money from her but she asked me not to contact her anymore.

In the dream, he lost faith in friendship after being cut off from friends he grew up with, such as Ren Qingxue.

He didn't even dare to make a new friend.

He transferred to Lin Tingyu's school, sat next to her, and was cold to everyone.

In fact, he didn't have the courage to endure the feeling of being betrayed by his friends again.

So in the dream, when Gu Shichen came to slander him, he didn't even refute.

But the Lin Tingyu in the dream, the one who was completely denied by the current Lin Tingyu, would stand up and speak for him when his classmates deliberately said bad things about him.

They were just ordinary classmates and she didn't know him.

She just said, "I don't think Gu Shiye is that kind of person."

It was a simple sentence, but he kept it in mind.

He could see clearly that he was throbbing in his dream.

But he didn't have the courage to make friends with someone who, in his opinion, was too clean and too courageous. He was afraid of getting hurt and was eager to create his own career.

When he came to his senses, reached the top, and got everything he wanted, he suddenly realized in his dream:

He is lonely.

He wanted someone to be with him.

Otherwise, it seems that getting everything is meaningless.

Who could that person be? He was confused in his dream.

Until one day, he went back to see his biological parents as usual and heard about Lin Tingyu.

In his dream, Gu Shiye discovered that he actually remembered his former deskmate.

The girl who was too kind in his eyes, kind to the point of being a little silly, but extremely pure and clear...

He realized that he cared about this girl.

At the same time, the girl died.

When Gu Shiye was dreaming, it was as if he was in his own body in the dream, so he knew exactly what he was thinking and doing in the dream.

In the dream, after feeling inexplicably melancholy, he went to collect the body of this girl who was actually just a passer-by in his life, arranged a cemetery for her, and selected a final photo for her.

The girl in the portrait was smiling brightly, and she looked like a very kind and simple girl.

But she left this world forever.

Standing in front of the cemetery, Gu Shiye in his dream seemed to feel that this world had become even more boring...

He knew what Lin Tingyu had done in his dream, and he also knew that since he went to collect her body, some people who knew the truth had come up to him.

They even pretended to be grateful to the former Lin Tingyu and tried to get close to him by using a dead person.

He seemed to feel even more bored in his dream.

"Lin Tingyu, why are you so stupid..."

In his dream, he stood in front of Lin Tingyu's grave, looked at the girl with a bright smile in the photo, and said the only words he had ever said to her.

Lin Tingyu listened to Gu Shiye talking, feeling a little dazed.

"So...you collected the body for me?"

"Um……"

Gu Shiye took a deep breath and hugged her tighter.

It was already daybreak outside, but the two of them remained motionless.

"Don't you dislike me and don't want to laugh at me?"

Lin Tingyu couldn't help but ask.

"Even the people I helped despised me and laughed at me..."

"Do not."

Gu Shiye kissed her on the forehead.

"I just feel heartbroken..."

"Do you believe it? Even Gu Shiye, who didn't have much interaction with you in the dream, felt heartache for a moment..."

"He had a vague affection for you as a young boy, but more than that, he was disappointed with that world because he found out that you, a kind and pure girl whom he secretly admired and appreciated, had died like this..."

"He buried you and prevented anyone from finding your grave. He would go to pay tribute to you every year afterwards..."

"He went to investigate the cause of your illness..."

At this point, Gu Shiye's voice suddenly turned cold.

Lin Tingyu had calmed down, but he keenly sensed that something was wrong.

"what happened?"

A ridiculous thought suddenly occurred to her mind:

"My death, wasn't it... an accident?!"

"Indeed not."

Gu Shiye hugged her, holding Lin Tingyu in his arms, and clasped his hands with hers.

This kind of hug made Lin Tingyu feel very warm and safe.

"That sick person knows that you are too kind and will not ignore anyone who gets hurt, so he deliberately appeared on the road you must pass..."

This is also what Gu Shiye checked later in the dream.

He always felt that the whole thing was too coincidental.

"At first I didn't think that there was anything wrong with an orphan like you, but I still felt something was wrong. Why would an infected person appear on your path, and why did he hurt you when he was injured?"

"I followed that person and found that you also knew him."

"I know?"

Lin Tingyu was puzzled.

She was sure that she did not know that person in her previous life.

"That person is He Qianxing."