She is so pitiful? I choose to pity myself first

"Our family is a little confused, but at least he's gone and I feel a little more comfortable."

"At that time, I naively thought that at least I had a place to live. As a result, within a few days, my family of three was kicked out of the house... I then realized that the house was not Jack's at all. He had found someone else's vacation house, changed the locks, and pretended that it was his home..."

"How could such a thing happen in China? Even if it happened, it would happen very quickly. However, the neighbors here are far apart and people don't know each other very well. Even if they knew what happened, they would rather avoid it than remind us..."

"What's more, my family is of the yellow race, whom they look down upon."

Sun Ranran smiled bitterly when she said this.

She once thought that if she could come here, she would become a superior person.

I never expected that from the articles I read before, this country of freedom, democracy, equality and liberty would have so many people who discriminate against race.

Sun Ranran's family is considered intellectuals and elites in the country and has never been discriminated against.

When I got here, I deeply felt the feeling of being discriminated against and treated unfairly.

"We were kicked out as a family of three. However, our relatives and friends in China envied our good life abroad. How could we possibly give up our dignity and go back?"

"So, we can only stay here and rent a cheap house in the slums. My parents line up to get relief meals every day. Anyway, they don't need money..."

"I came out to look for a job. I thought that since I have a decent education and I have American citizenship, I should be able to find a good job. I didn't expect..."

Sun Ranran sighed:

"I studied education, and no one wanted to take me in, even if I wanted to teach Long Mandarin. They had more suitable candidates. I could only do some manual labor."

"At first I tried to work as a translator and made quite a bit of money, but that bastard quickly squandered all the money... I then learned that he was not only taking illegal drugs, drinking, but also gambling... He cheated us out of our money and squandered it all in less than a month."

"He found out that I could make money as a translator, so he came to me and asked for money. I didn't want to give him any, so he robbed me. He also caused trouble for my parents when I wasn't at home. It was useless for me to call the police because he ran too fast. The police here would just take a statement and ask him to stay away from me, but they couldn't keep an eye on him all the time..."

What Sun Ranran didn't say was that someone wanted to take advantage of her at that time...

Later, she didn't even dare to call the police, or maybe she already knew that calling the police would be useless.

"Those who asked me to be their translator were also from Long Country. When they saw that I was always being harassed by a gambler, they were afraid that they would be implicated, so no one dared to ask me to do that anymore."

"So, I can only work in restaurants. Fortunately, I am an American citizen, so I won't be treated unfairly like those Run people."

"But this way I have a fixed place of work, so it will be easier for Jack to find me."

Sun Ranran smiled bitterly, "Look, today, he messed up another job of mine."

"Lin Tingyu, sometimes I really hate you."

Sun Ranran spoke out what was in her heart.

She stared at Lin Tingyu and found that when she heard her words, Lin Tingyu's expression didn't change at all.

This made Sun Ranran a little discouraged.

Although she was disappointed, her smile showed a sense of relief.

"Why would I think you would sympathize with me? You've learned your lesson a long time ago. Now you don't sympathize with anyone. You don't even care about me, right?"

This was clearly what she wanted, but Sun Ranran felt uncomfortable when she saw Lin Tingyu being so calm towards her.

"I should be happy that you don't care about me anymore."

Sun Ranran lowered her eyes, "Sometimes I really hate you. Why did you treat me so well in high school? Since you have been so good to me, why can't you continue to treat me well?"

"You should have given me the opportunity to participate in the competition and let me be admitted to the Department of Mathematics at S University. Seeing that I was not doing well abroad, you should have been kind to me like you did in the past, trying to help me in every way possible, and not dared to hurt my self-esteem... You have always been like this."

"But you changed, when we were not mentally prepared."

"You've become smarter and have become colder towards us, but sometimes when I think of you, I feel both regret and hatred."

"It would be fine if you weren't living as well as I am, but I heard that you are actually living better than any of us..."

Sun Ranran smiled bitterly. If it were in the past, she would probably be jealous.

But now, perhaps because her life was too miserable, she couldn't even think of being jealous.

"I can't even be jealous of you now."

Sun Ranran sat down, looking at the four-digit clothes that Lin Tingyu had casually given her, and smiled:

"In fact, I have already seen the reality clearly..."

"I've been dragging it on here just for the sake of face. I left so high-profile that I even changed my nationality. If I go back, I'll have no face and I won't be able to change my nationality back..."

"It's better to stay here and work hard to change your life. When you have made a name for yourself and it's not shameful to go back, then go back."

"But today, since you have seen it..."

"I suddenly felt that it didn't matter if I lost face."

"It's better than living like this forever."

"I'm planning to file for divorce. My parents have some connections. There's a distant cousin who works as a lawyer here. Even though it's embarrassing... I think she'd be willing to help me."

"My parents haven't been in good health recently, and medical treatment here is extremely expensive, costing thousands or even tens of thousands of US dollars... We simply can't afford it."

"Of course you are right. We should have come here to take a look first, instead of just running over here because we think the air here is sweet and the medical care is free..."

"It turns out that we are all just poor people who have been fooled by public intellectuals. Now that our nationality has been changed, it is useless for us to regret it."

"Fortunately, my dad had already retired when he changed his nationality. We have consulted and he can still use the medical insurance if he returns now. But my mom can't... Who told her to change her nationality before retirement and withdraw all the personal portion?"

"Now that she's back, she can only find a way to buy other insurance..."

"But no matter what, it's better than staying in the United States."

Sun Ranran seemed to have grown up and said:

"Lin Tingyu, thank you."

Lin Tingyu raised her eyebrows. What was there to thank her for?

"Thank you. If you hadn't caught me today and exposed my embarrassment to you, I probably wouldn't have been able to tear off my face and decide to return home."

"..."

Lin Tingyu was silent for a few seconds, "Oh."

Sun Ranran smiled, "You look so heartless now, it's really annoying to look at."

"but……"

"You're doing fine."