Rebirth is not a dream.

After seeing off the fourth prince, Su Yue felt a little heavy. She stood there quietly, and the figure of Lu Ming emerged involuntarily in her mind. Yuan Kun and Lu Ming did look very similar, which made Su Yue feel heartbroken.

Once, Su Yue thought she had completely let go of Lu Ming, but every time she saw Yuan Kun, the indescribable emotions deep in her heart would surge up like a tide. She tried to suppress this feeling, but found that the harder she tried, the stronger this emotion became.

Su Yue sighed silently. She knew that she needed time to slowly digest these emotions. Perhaps, only when she could truly face the past calmly could she completely get rid of this distress.

However, Su Yue still couldn't calm down at this moment. She turned back to the room, sat in front of the window and looked into the distance, her thoughts gradually drifting away.

Su Yue once did not realize the importance of family affection, but now she deeply understands that when you cannot feel the existence of your loved ones no matter what, the longing is as painful as a bone-eating and heart-piercing pain. Every day and night, she silently misses them, longing to be together again and feel the warmth and comfort. In this busy and vibrant place, she hopes to find a sense of belonging - a warmth and tranquility from the fireworks of the world.

Su Yue finally realized that things that can be solved with money are not really "problems". Although she has wealth now, she still cannot satisfy her inner desires and wishes. Could it be that she has become unsatisfied?

Thinking back to her past life, she had struggled to make money; however, now money was no longer a problem that bothered her, but life was still bitter. In fact, it was even harder than in her past life, and she could lose her life if she wasn't careful. In short, everything she experienced was full of suffering. Living was not easy, and she found that her negative emotions were expanding infinitely, so she had to find a way to vent her emotions. In her past life, she liked to spend money when she was in a bad mood, but she didn't seem to have spent money properly in this time and space, so she wanted to go shopping in Kyoto.

Su Yue led a few people in the courtyard to visit the Kyoto market. Su Yue and Sister Bijun walked in front, and Taozi and Qiuzhu followed behind. The New Year was coming soon, and the market was filled with a strong festive atmosphere. The streets and alleys were decorated with lights, and red lanterns were hung high, illuminating the entire city. Merchants put out all kinds of New Year goods, and the dazzling array of goods was dazzling.

Su Yue stood on the busy and noisy street, looking at the bustling and crowded scene, and couldn't help but sigh: For thousands of years, the time and way of Chinese people buying New Year's goods during the Spring Festival seem to have not changed much. Whether in the past or now, people are keen on shopping sprees at this special moment.

At this moment, the streets are lined with all kinds of stalls and shops, vendors are loudly selling their goods, and customers are walking around, carefully selecting their favorite items. The whole scene is very lively and full of the strong flavor of human life.

Although some shops in Kyoto provide door-to-door service, Su Yue prefers to experience the shopping atmosphere in person. She thinks that this is the only way to truly integrate into the festive atmosphere and feel the beauty and warmth of life.

Su Yue was walking excitedly among the crowd. She saw colorful lanterns hanging high, lighting up the whole street; she smelled the delicious aroma coming from the street food stalls, and heard the laughter of children playing and adults bargaining... All of this formed a vivid and warm picture.

Su Yue took a deep breath, enjoying this unique atmosphere. She knew that this place contained people's expectations and blessings for the New Year, and also carried the happiness and joy of countless families. Su Yue wanted to be infected by this joy, but unfortunately, although she had a smile on her face, she did not have much joy in her heart. On the contrary, a deep sense of loneliness surged in her heart. This was a strong longing for her relatives, but at this moment, even if she went to heaven and hell, she didn't know where to go to see her relatives.

Su Yue went out shopping happily, thinking that she could relax, but she found that it was not the case. She saw that people around her seemed to be having a good time shopping, but she felt bored. Although many things were very new to Su Yue, she always felt that these items were like antiques, which were far from her preferences and aesthetics in her previous life. Therefore, she just looked at them casually and did not intend to buy anything.

He Bijun picked a lot of things for her son. When she noticed that Su Yue was just watching and not shopping, especially when she saw that Su Yue was interested at first but then became uninterested, she couldn't help but feel puzzled. So Su Yue found a teahouse to sit down and rest.

He Bijun walked up to her and asked with concern, "Sister Yue'er, what's wrong with you? Are you feeling unwell?"

Su Yue silently looked at the endless stream of people on the street and replied softly: "It's nothing serious, I just suddenly feel a little homesick."

He Bijun nodded in understanding and responded, "Yes, every Chinese New Year, people always miss their hometowns."

Su Yue thinks that others miss home. She can go home and write letters, send gifts, take messages, etc. What should she do? She doesn't have many memories now. It seems that many of her memories of her previous life have begun to blur. Her memory of her mother is also a little blurry. She can't even remember what her son looks like. She doesn't know if she has had some strange dreams. She can't think too much. Once she thinks, she doesn't know whether she is in a dream or in reality. Moreover, she will have a headache when she thinks too much about the past. In the past, she would have a headache when she tried to recall the memory of little Su Yue, but now she will have a headache just by trying to recall some things. She feels that if she continues to think about it, she will become mentally ill. Is there a psychiatric department here? Her hometown is in the northeast, and it is not in Da'an now. She went to school and worked in Beijing, and now she is in Beiyan. The more she thinks about it, the more headache she has, but she can't control her thinking.

Su Yue sighed deeply, her heart filled with helplessness and confusion. In novels, the protagonists who were dressed more gorgeously seemed to be able to adapt to various environments easily, but she had been in this strange place for nearly four months, and it was still hard to believe that all this was real. What was worse was that she felt extremely uncomfortable with the lifestyle here. Whether it was the diet, culture or social habits, she felt out of place.

Although she usually comforted herself and told herself that everything would be fine, but every time when it was late at night, the fear in her heart would surge into her heart like a tide and magnify infinitely. She didn't even know what she was afraid of, but the inexplicable uneasiness made her unable to fall asleep. Recently, only when Qin Yi fell asleep with her could she feel a little relieved and sleep a little more peacefully. However, even so, she would occasionally wake up in the middle of the night from nightmares and fall into endless panic.

Su Yue was also strolling along the street in a lonely mood. She didn't know if it was because it was the end of the year, but she just couldn't cheer up. She thought that going out for a walk would make her feel better, but the result was still boring.

He Bijun looked at Su Yue who looked unhappy and didn't know how to comfort her. Taozi and Qiuzhu looked at each other. They also felt that the young lady had been in a bad mood since she met the Fourth Prince, and they didn't know why?

Taozi looked at the shops on the street and said, "Miss, the dim sum at Shixiang Pavilion is pretty good. Let's buy some to take back."

Su Yue looked at the shop across the street and said, "Go buy some if you want to eat. Close the window, it's a bit cold."

Su Yue thought about finding something to do, otherwise she didn't know what the maid beside her was thinking.

In ancient times, shopping was nothing more than shopping, tasting delicious food, and enjoying some performances. However, since there were too many people, Su Yue didn't want to join in the fun. So, they chose to go to Zuixianlou to enjoy a sumptuous meal and then went home. Su Yue was expecting to encounter some new and interesting things, but the result was dull and nothing. They only watched some acrobatic performances, but compared with the modern large-scale circus, it was really dwarfed. Taozi and Sister Bijun were very happy to watch it, and said that Xingyu would definitely like these performances, and they would definitely bring him to watch them next time.

At this moment, Su Yue was sitting in the carriage, thinking. She couldn't help but think of the plot in the TV series: usually, when rich daughters or noble young masters go out, they will always encounter scenes such as selling themselves to bury their fathers, or some small accidents, and then there will be brave people who stand up and perform a good drama of heroes saving the beauty. But this time when she went out, except for the crowds, she didn't encounter anything new and exciting. Could it be that she was not set as the heroine, but just an insignificant background role? In this way, does it mean that she will be relatively safe? Thinking of this, Su Yue secretly felt fortunate.