Mom, I was wrong

Rusty railings and a rooftop filled with garbage.

The haggard-looking housewife walked up the steps, her eyes dull and she looked aimlessly at the surroundings.

downstairs.

"Mom, I hate you. Do you have to force me like this?" The woman's son roared downstairs, unaware of the seriousness of the situation, with resentment in his eyes.

An old lady with a wicked face was also shouting downstairs, "You bitch, if you want to jump, jump quickly. Don't marry a young girl in front of my son. What are you pretending to do? If you want to jump, jump quickly. Jump. Don't pretend here, as if the whole world owes you something. You are the one who is most wronged."

A man who looked slightly better but had a look of disdain on his face echoed the other side, as if the person upstairs had nothing to do with him, "That's right, if you want to jump, jump quickly, don't just sit there and do nothing. If you die, I can still marry another 18-year-old woman. Gentle, considerate, and kind, you're nothing like her, you shrew, a bitch."

Shi Yinsi stood on the rooftop with empty eyes, while the three people downstairs, who should be said to be her closest people now, were still cursing at her without restraint.

Instead, the neighbors were comforting the poor woman and cursing this ugly and ignorant family.

Onlookers took out their mobile phones to take photos and call the police.

On the rooftop.

Shi Yinsi suddenly stretched out her legs and said goodbye to this world.

"Sister, don't do that. Brother is back and he will take care of everything." Shi Yintian ran over, but it was too late.

In Xijing City, in a huge office on the 66th floor of the tallest office building.

Qin Zeying woke up from his dream while sitting in the boss chair, his eyes were moist and tears were falling freely from the corners of his eyes. He took out a photo with his mother from the drawer of his desk.

He murmured, "Mom, this year marks the fortieth year since you left me.

I miss you so much!!!"

Pregnancy for ten months is not easy, and it is undoubtedly a lifetime of suffering. The son already knows that his mother has dedicated her whole life to him, but he still fails to live up to his mother's kindness and is left with only tears for the rest of his life.

Mom, my son has realized his mistake, but it's too late.

This year, my uncle and I transferred three quarters of our company's shares.

I have stepped back and no longer have to worry about the company's affairs. All I have to do is collect dividends at the end of the year.

My uncle is old and not in good health, so my uncle and I decided to take you to visit the beautiful rivers and mountains of our motherland and fulfill your wish before you died.

Qin Zeying was wiping the photo of him and his mother in his hand, looking at it infatuatedly, his thoughts drifting far away.

The sound of "Knock, knock, knock" on the door brought Qin Zeying back to his senses.

"Enter."

A white-haired old man walked in and looked at Qin Zeying holding the photo frame with red eyes.

"Missing your mom again?"

"Yeah." Qin Zeying took out his mother's handkerchief from his pocket and wiped his eyes.

"Okay, the company's affairs have been handed over. We can leave tomorrow and take your mother's ashes to fulfill her wish before she died. Don't be so sad. If she can see it, your current efforts will also make her happy." Shi Yintian patted Qin Zeying on the shoulder.

"Uncle, I..."

"Okay, don't dwell on the past. Everyone has made wrong decisions and will go through what they should go through. Your mother's decision during her low period was a bit extreme. I hope she'll be alright on the other side. It's not your problem."

"Uncle~I hope my mother can live a happy life in her next life, with a sensible and obedient child, a husband who loves her, and a family who cares about her."

"Yes, I will. Don't be sad. Let's go and pack our things. We'll be ready to leave tomorrow."

The vast Gobi Desert, the vast sea-like desert, the rippling grassland, the colorful Danxia landform, the immortal poplar trees, the endless snow-capped mountains, the beautiful Grand Canyon and the gem-like alpine lakes. Four seasons in one day, four seasons in one scene.

Mom, look, this is the frontier you’ve always longed for.

Did you see it?

There is the eagle you like, the sky you dream of, the snow-capped mountains you yearn for, and the poplar trees you admire.

Look, mom.

Their clothes are beautiful, colorful, charming and suitable for you.

There are herds of cattle and sheep here. The sky is vast and the wilderness is boundless. The cattle and sheep can be seen when the wind blows the grass low.

Mom, smell the fragrance of fruits and flowers here. You really have good taste. Let’s stay by the Sailimu Lake tonight and see the beautiful scenery here at night.

We will stay here for another week. The temperature will start to drop soon and it will be very cold. Then we will take a plane to the beach to watch the sun slowly rise in the morning light and the shy sunset in the fiery red sunset.

"We have been traveling with your mother in the border area for almost half a year. She must be very happy. I remember when we were young, your grandpa and grandma would always take your mother and me on a self-driving tour when they came back from vacation. We camped by the river, chased rabbits on the grassland, rode horses, and climbed mountains. Although your mother was still young at that time, she still remembers it.

Later, your grandparents participated in supporting the construction of the border areas. Every winter and summer vacation, your mother would ask me when your grandparents would come back and take us out to play. At first, we were thinking about climbing Mount Huashan and Mount Taishan. Later, we wanted to go somewhere farther away, so we thought about camping and barbecue by the nearby river, where we could go and come back on the same day. Later, we thought, as long as your grandparents came back, we would not go anywhere.

However, what we finally received were two urns. I was sixteen at the time, and your mother was thirteen, both in the midst of adolescence. From that time on, your mother's personality changed drastically. She was no longer as lively and cheerful as before, but became more sensitive and strong. She didn't tell me or her friends many things, as if she had shut herself off from me.

Later, I was called up to join the army in my sophomore year, and she was sixteen that year. Maybe she felt that the people around her had left her one by one, and she had no one to rely on. So when she met your father during her internship in her senior year, she thought his sweet words meant that this man was worthy of her entrusting her life to.

She gave all her love to your father and to you, but in return she received not a trace of gratitude or understanding, which made her depressed and she eventually ended her life by jumping off a building.

Your mother is very smart. She is a kind, warm and gentle girl. She should strive for a better life and enjoy a brighter life.

She forgot that she was a woman and that she had a brother. She also blamed me for insisting on going to the border to see the achievements of your grandparents and the older generation, and for caring less about your mother. Alas...

Tomorrow we will walk for another day and arrive at the place where your grandparents had the accident. We will stay there for two days and then we will leave." Shi Yintian said as he sat beside Qin Zeying, looking at the sky in the distance and wiping the tears from the corners of his eyes with the back of his hand.

"Then is mom's obsession with the frontier due to her longing for her grandparents?" Qin Zeying asked.

Shi Yintian nodded, "Yes. When your grandparents died, they were cremated right on the spot. When they were brought back, there were only two boxes of ashes. Your mother and I didn't even get to see their bodies for the last time. This is the knot in your mother's heart and mine. Maybe she wanted to come here to see your grandparents and why they swore to stay here until they died."

Two lonely men who had never married in their lives sat silently by the lake, and the dark blue sky purified their souls.

Thinking back on my life.

Qin Zeying seemed to see in the reflection of the lake, him smoking, drinking and fighting with the street thugs. In a trance, his once gentle mother was waving to him. With tears in his eyes, he wanted to reach out and hold his mother, but he saw his father beating and kicking her, and his grandmother swearing at her. He wanted to run over and hold his mother in his arms, but the scene before him turned into his mother jumping off the roof.

"Mom!" Qin Zeying suddenly shouted out of control.

Shi Yintian immediately stood up and hugged Qin Zeying.

"Uncle, I think I saw my mother."

Qin Zeying pointed at the lake.

Then he lowered his head and murmured, "Mom, she smiled at me. He still likes me and loves me, right, uncle?"

Shi Yintian looked at his nephew with gray hair on his temples and patted his shoulder. "There is no mother who doesn't love her children, not to mention that your mother risked her life to give birth to you."

Qin Zeying looked at Shi Yintian and opened his mouth, but before he could say the question in his mind, he was interrupted by his uncle.

"Go back and rest early. We will set off early tomorrow. It's getting cold, and your mother doesn't like the cold. After we leave here, we will take her to the beach."

The two returned to the RV, turned on the air conditioner, silently recalled their wonderful childhood, and silently confessed the ignorance of their youth.