The quick travel journey of the cold heroine

Bai Zhuo could hardly bear Jian Fan's gaze, but she had no way out.

"Because I don't want to be trapped in a family at this age, I decided to live the life I most wanted to live." This was the only excuse Bai Zhuo could think of.

"Bai Zhuo, what did you say?" Jian Fan once again doubted his ears. It seemed that his ears had been having problems since he entered the house today.

"I never asked you to stay home. I said I would support you no matter what you do."

Bai Zhuo sat up straight. After finding a suitable reason, he was already prepared for what to say next.

"Jian Fan, you should have heard that I didn't grow up in the Bai family. I was called Shui Zhizi before I was eighteen. Shui Zhizi before she was eighteen was more innocent and brave than Fang Minqing you have seen. She had a warm heart that was full of hope for the future."

Jian Fan's pupils shrank slightly. It was hard for him to imagine what the passionate Bai Zhuo was like. The Bai Zhuo he knew was gentle and calm.

"But then something went wrong at home. My adoptive parents died one after another, and my brother who grew up with me disappeared. I was the culprit for all this, but in the end I was taken back by the Bai family and continued to live a life of being pampered."

Jian Fan began to feel sorry for Bai Zhuo. Bai Zhuo said it simply, but his adoptive parents died one after another, and his brother was missing. None of these things sounded so simple, not to mention that Bai Zhuo said that she caused all this.

Based on Jian Fan's understanding of Bai Zhuo, the incident was not necessarily caused by Bai Zhuo, but something must have happened to make Bai Zhuo fall into self-doubt. Jian Fan wanted to comfort Bai Zhuo but didn't know where to start.

"I can help you find your brother, but nothing you said can be reason for our divorce. Whether you are the passionate and brave Shui Zhizi or the cold and gentle Bai Zhuo, it will not affect my feelings for you." Jian Fan's anger had dissipated.

As expected, Bai Zhuo knew that Jian Fan would not sit idly by if he knew about the Shui family's affairs, but things were not that simple, and she could not cause trouble for Jian Fan.

The nicer Jian Fan treated Bai Zhuo, the more Bai Zhuo blamed himself, and he started pinching his fingers again.

Because he was afraid that Jian Fan would worry, the Band-Aid that Bai Yao put on Bai Zhuo yesterday was torn off by her when he went out this morning. The obvious pain made Bai Zhuo regain his senses quickly.

"Jian Fan, please listen to me." Bai Zhuo looked at Jian Fan with a more determined look. Since Jian Fan was good to her, she should not become a burden to him.

"After returning to the Bai family, I was overwhelmed with self-blame and made many wrong choices."

So Bai Zhuo was trying to say that getting married was one of the wrong choices she made? Thinking of this, Jian Fan didn't feel angry anymore. He just felt sad, sad for himself.

If this marriage was a mistake for Bai Zhuo from the beginning, would he still choose to trap Bai Zhuo in this mistake?

As expected, Bai Zhuo said, "Because I felt that I had made a mistake and was no longer worthy of being carefully protected by my biological parents, and no longer worthy of enjoying the love of my family, so I didn't go home when I was in college. Later, when I was about to graduate from college and couldn't hide anymore, I just..."

"He agreed to the blind date arranged by my parents, and proposed to me as quickly as possible." Jian Fan replied with a wry smile. It turned out that Bai Zhuo married him in order to escape from the Bai family. He finally understood.

"So no matter who you're dating, you'll take the initiative to propose marriage, right?"

Looking at Jian Fan's hopeful eyes, Bai Zhuo really wanted to answer no, it was because the person she was going to have a blind date with was Jian Fan that she proposed marriage so quickly.

But when Bai Zhuo seriously recalled her state at that time, she could only choose to remain silent. According to her state of self-disgust and self-punishment at that time, the worse the person she met, the faster she would propose marriage.

The faint light in Jian Fan's eyes completely disappeared, so he was not special at all? He thought that at least he was a little special in Bai Zhuo's eyes.

"Then why are you so nice to me after we got married?" Jian Fan gritted his teeth. When he agreed to get married, he just felt a little special towards Bai Zhuo, but Bai Zhuo did so well in the past year that he fell deeply in love with her.

Jian Fan couldn't believe that Bai Zhuo was really so nice to him when she didn't have any feelings for him. His heart was heavy again.

New hope was rekindled.

"Because you are so good to me, I also want to be a qualified wife." Bai Zhuo told the truth.

"I will always treat you well, and I will definitely treat you better in the future." Jian Fan seemed to see hope.

"But I can't be a qualified wife now. Jian Fan, you can see that I can't accept you from the bottom of my heart. All I can do for you is superficial things."

Jian Fan couldn't wait to answer: "I don't care, this is fine, this is enough for me."

Even though Jian Fan still wanted Bai Zhuo to give him the same affection in return before Bai Zhuo came back, Jian Fan no longer asks for it. It is enough for him now that Bai Zhuo stays by his side.

Bai Zhuo's eyes widened. In Bai Zhuo's eyes, Jian Fan was gentle but very proud. But now...

Bai Zhuo pinched his fingers and said, "But I don't want to be like this anymore. I enjoy your kindness to me every day and feel your strong and sincere emotions, but I can't give you the same return. Jian Fan, you can't imagine how guilty I feel every day."

"Jian Fan, I'm not as great as you think. I filed for divorce not because I feel guilty towards you, but for my own sake. If I stay in this state of guilt for a long time, I will really have problems."

Bai Zhuo no longer has the face to look Jian Fan in the face. She is using Jian Fan's feelings for her to force him to divorce her.

Jian Fan looked at Bai Zhuo's guilty expression and had a lot to say in his heart, but he didn't know how to express it. He never knew that his kindness would become a burden to Bai Zhuo, but how could he accept this?

"But I never thought of asking you to repay me. You would feel guilty for being nice to me. So now you leave me without considering my feelings, won't you feel guilty?"

Mingming's question was more difficult to answer, but Bai Zhuo did not avoid it. "I would feel guilty if you left me, but I won't torture myself every day. You are such a good person, and there will be better possibilities if you separate from me."

"But if we stay together, my condition will only get worse and worse, which will also make your future worse and worse. Then I will feel more guilty and worse, and we will fall into an endless vicious cycle."

Jian Fan's breathing became rapid, his eyes revealed deep sadness, and he almost shed tears. "Bai Zhuo, you are so cruel. I never knew you were so eloquent."