The prince loves me like his life, but I force him to rebel

Sima Yao's lips slowly moved closer, and very close to Gu Nianzhi's ear, he called out her name very softly.

This sound seemed to have some kind of magical power, as if someone gently plucked Gu Nianzhi's heartstrings, instantly setting off a huge wave in her heart.

She could hear very clearly Sima Yao's even and slightly warm breathing in her ear. The breathing seemed to have a bewitching power that made her heart beat even more rapidly.

At the same time, she could feel her heartbeat more strongly, like the beating of a deer. The sound of her heartbeat echoed in her chest, as if telling of her inner unrest.

"Nianzhi, for some reason, I don't want to see you getting close to others."

Sima Yao closed his eyes slightly, greedily smelling the faint fragrance on Gu Nianzhi's neck. Although the smell was not strong, it had a unique charm that was enough to make him more addicted and unable to extricate himself.

It was a smell that was a mixture of Gu Nianzhi's own breath and the fresh air around him, like a wisp of light smoke, lingering in his heart and could not be shaken off.

When Gu Nianzhi heard Sima Yao's words, he didn't know how to respond for a moment and could only lower his eyes in silence.

A trace of panic and helplessness flashed in her eyes, and her gaze fell on Sima Yao's big hands wrapped around her waist.

Those hands held her tightly, as if afraid that she would leave suddenly.

Her thoughts began to become confused and she didn't know how to face his feelings.

"I know I should trust you, but I'm worried that you have someone else in your heart."

Sima Yao's voice echoed softly in Gu Nianzhi's ears, carrying a hint of barely perceptible sadness and helplessness.

It seemed that because he couldn't see Gu Nianzhi's face, Sima Yao dared to speak so boldly and directly about the secret that had been hidden in his heart for a long time.

Once the floodgates of his heart were opened, his emotions began to flow freely. He seemed to be immersed in his own emotional world, pouring out the pain and entanglement deep in his heart.

"Since I met you, my heart has begun to lose control of itself. Whenever I see you with someone else, I feel an inexplicable jealousy and uneasiness in my heart. I am afraid of losing you, afraid that you will leave me and fall into the arms of someone else."

Sima Yao's voice trembled slightly, and his words were filled with deep affection and attachment to Gu Nianzhi. "Can you promise me that you won't get so close to others in the future?"

Sima Yao paused and added: "Whether it is a man or a woman."

His eyes revealed an eager desire, as if he was waiting for a promise from Gu Nianzhi, a promise that would put him at ease.

Gu Nianzhi was overwhelmed with emotions, and she didn't know how to respond to Sima Yao's deep affection. She was touched by Sima Yao's care for her, but she was also a little overwhelmed by this sudden emotion.

Her lips moved slightly, but in the end no word came out.

"Your Majesty... I am on the battlefield, and I really can't care about so many things..."

Gu Nianzhi's words were like a bucket of cold water, pouring heavily on Sima Yao who was immersed in the charming ambiguity, and instantly awakened him.

"Your Majesty? Your subordinate?"

Sima Yao's tone also turned cold, and the arms that were originally tightly hugging Gu Nianzhi loosened a little involuntarily.

"Even if there are only the two of us, you only treat me as the prince? You only regard yourself as a subordinate?"

There was a hint of barely perceptible pain and disappointment in Sima Yao's voice.

"The prince is the prince after all, and the subordinates are subordinates after all. Moreover, we are still on the battlefield, under the eyes of many soldiers, Nianzhi really dare not act rashly."

Gu Nianzhi pursed her lips and tried to explain in a calm tone, with a hint of helplessness and confusion in her eyes.

She was not unaware of Sima Yao's feelings for her, but she had many concerns.

In Sima Yao's view, Gu Nianzhi was concerned about the eyes of the people around him, but in the final analysis, Gu Nianzhi was still trapped by her identity as a book wearer and did not dare to freely accept all the emotions from Sima Yao.

She was afraid that this relationship would disrupt her original plan and put her in a more complicated situation.

"rash?"

Sima Yao sneered, his tone full of disappointment, "I was too rash."

Sima Yao slowly let go of Gu Nianzhi, and at that moment, it seemed as if something precious slipped from his hands.

His eyes became dull and he seemed to have lost all life.

He jumped off his horse, and the moment his feet touched the ground, he felt his heart sink.

He walked straight to the shade of a tree, leaned against the trunk, and looked coldly at the city in the distance ahead.

Gu Nianzhi looked at Sima Yao's lonely back and felt a pang of pain in her heart.

She hesitated for a moment, then turned her horse and rode up to him.

She dismounted, tied the horse to a tree, and then stood quietly beside Sima Yao.

She looked at Sima Yao, her mind full of thoughts. She knew that what she had just said had hurt Sima Yao, but she didn't know what to do. She had too many concerns and too many uncertainties.

Standing beside Sima Yao, he pondered for a long time before finally speaking. "Your Majesty."

Gu Nianzhi's voice was very soft, as if he was afraid to break this moment of silence.

Sima Yao acted as if he didn't hear anything. Not only did he not respond, he was too lazy to even move his eyes.

"Your Majesty."

Gu Nianzhi, feeling nervous, took slow steps and approached Sima Yao cautiously.

Every step she took seemed to be filled with caution and awe, and finally, she slowly half-knelt down in front of Sima Yao.

At this moment, Sima Yao stubbornly turned his head to the other side. He looked like a child who was having a bad temper, with stubbornness and reluctance on his face.

He seemed to be using this method to express some emotion in his heart, perhaps dissatisfaction, or perhaps confusion.

Gu Nianzhi looked at Sima Yao, his eyes revealing a trace of helplessness and pity.

Her gentle voice slowly sounded: "My Lord, you are now shouldering a great responsibility. You are a Lord respected by everyone in the world. The entire country and countless people have high hopes for you. How can you become like this just for Nianzhi? You shouldn't be like this."

Sima Yao's chest rose and fell slightly after hearing her words. He took a deep breath, as if trying hard to suppress the dissatisfaction that was surging like waves in his heart.

"Your Highness is in a high position, wise and brave, and handsome. There are all kinds of women in the world that he can find. Why would he fall in love with an ordinary person like Nianzhi? Even Nianzhi himself can't figure it out."

Gu Nianzhi's voice was filled with complex emotions. As she spoke, she fell into deep thought.

She really wanted to figure out where Sima Yao's feelings for her came from.

She couldn't help but think silently in her heart that if Sima Yao was fond of men, he should be fond of those elegant, handsome and handsome men, not someone like herself who looked weak and had nothing special.

But if it was said that he liked women, he usually bound his chest, drew thick eyebrows, and hardly showed any feminine features and charm.

Compared with those stunning beauties, I was simply eclipsed and incomparable. Even compared with the ordinary women on the street, I was too ordinary.

So what does Sima Yao mean by "like"?

Is it a special kind of emotional sustenance, or are there other unknown reasons?

Gu Nianzhi's thoughts were constantly churning. She tried to find the answer from Sima Yao's every move and every word, but she always felt confused.

Gu Nianzhi's words suddenly changed their meaning when they fell into Sima Yao's ears.

He turned his eyes slowly, and his sight slowly moved to Gu Nianzhi's face.

That originally handsome face still had a little dust from the desert today. Sima Yao's eyes seemed to reveal an unspeakable emotion. He slowly stretched out his right hand. His movements were extremely gentle, as if he was afraid of breaking something precious. He gently brushed away the thin dust on Gu Nianzhi's brow bit by bit.

As for Gu Nianzhi, she was surprisingly quiet during the whole process. She did not choose to dodge or avoid. She just stood there quietly, staring straight at Sima Yao, as if she wanted to engrave his appearance deeply into her heart.

Thus, the two people's eyes met in the air without any obstruction. At that moment, it seemed that countless emotions and thoughts flowed and transmitted in the interweaving of these eyes, with an indescribable complexity and depth.

Finally, in this silence, Sima Yao was the first to break the silence.

His voice was a little low, with a hint of confusion and bewilderment, and he said softly: "I don't know why I would fall in love with a man. I have always disliked those officials' sons who have affairs with men, and I think their behavior is absurd and unreasonable, but I never thought that fate would play such a trick on me. One day, I would fall into such a relationship and like you so much."

When Gu Nianzhi heard this, her heart seemed to be touched by something. She couldn't help but bite her lower lip lightly. However, there was no escape or retreat in her eyes. She still looked at Sima Yao firmly and persistently.

"What do you like about me?"

Gu Nianzhi's voice was very soft, as if she was afraid of breaking the tranquility of the moment, but it was also filled with a deep curiosity and desire.

"Yeah, what do I like about you?"

Sima Yao seemed to be asking and answering his own questions, and also seemed to be trying hard to think about the answer to this question.

His hands slowly held Gu Nianzhi's face, his movements gentle and careful, as if he was holding the most precious treasure in the world. His fingertips accidentally touched her earlobe, and at that moment, a wonderful feeling spread between the two of them.

Gu Nianzhi's face seemed to be on fire, and it turned red in an instant. The blush quickly spread from her cheeks to her ears, as gorgeous and moving as the gorgeous and charming sunset in the sky, as if it showed the shyness and nervousness in her heart without reservation.

"My Lord, do you like men or women?"

Gu Nianzhi's face flushed red instantly. She was a little surprised herself. Why would she ask the question hidden in her heart so bluntly without caring about the consequences?

The moment the words came out of his mouth, Gu Nianzhi regretted it.

Yes, what if I find out the answer? What if I know the answer?

This may really be just a redundant question.

Her heart was suddenly filled with a complex emotion, mixed with a bit of regret and self-doubt.

Gu Nianzhi's sudden question made Sima Yao stunned on the spot.

In fact, he himself was also in a state of confusion and bewilderment about this issue.

Before he met Gu Nianzhi, he was absolutely certain that he liked women.

However, ever since fate made him meet Gu Nianzhi, everything became less clear and even his innermost thoughts seemed to be blurring.

Gu Nianzhi is obviously a man, but I have an indescribable feeling of affection for him. Does this mean that the person I really love is a man?

However, whenever he saw those sons of officials who had homosexual tendencies, the disgust that welled up from the bottom of his heart was so real and strong.

But if the person he loves is still a woman, then why is it that in this vast sea of ​​people, the only person who can touch his heart and make him moved is a man?

This should have been a very simple question, but at this moment, it seemed to have become a tangled mess that could not be sorted out, causing him to fall into deep thought.

Sima Yao's eyes became somewhat erratic, and his mind kept recalling the past. He tried to find the answer from these memories, trying to discern his true inner inclination.

However, the more he thought about it, the more confused and lost he felt.

Gu Nianzhi looked at Sima Yao who was lost in thought, and felt mixed emotions.

She didn't know what consequences her question would bring, whether it would make the relationship between the two people clearer or make it more elusive.

Her hands unconsciously clenched the corners of her clothes, as if she was nervously waiting for an unknown verdict. Time seemed to become particularly long at this moment, and the air around them seemed to solidify. Only the thoughts of the two people were constantly churning and entangled.

Sima Yao thought for a long time and then spoke slowly.

"I am not sure as well."

Such an answer made Gu Nianzhi seem a little disappointed, but also seemed to have a sense of relief.

When she felt the sense of relief, Gu Nianzhi suddenly realized that she seemed to be afraid, afraid that Sima Yao liked men and she was a girl.

So, that means, I fell in love with Sima Yao? I didn't want him to fall in love with the man I pretended to be.

If the person he loves is me as a woman, perhaps I can try to accept this feeling?

Perhaps, what I was actually expecting was his answer that he liked women?