The prince loves me like his life, but I force him to rebel

Cen Yu felt a sharp pain in his feet.

The part where the prosthetic limb and the severed limb were in contact had been rubbing against each other for too long today, and some blood had seeped out.

He had a painful expression on his face, his body tilted slightly, and he quickly held onto the bedpost next to him, looking at his legs involuntarily.

Although the bleeding contact surface could not be seen through the clothes, Gu Nianzhi roughly guessed Cen Yu's current feelings through his expression and movements.

She subconsciously helped Cen Yu up and helped him sit down at the table.

When he was seventeen years old, Gu Nianzhi broke his leg while practicing martial arts and stayed in the hospital for more than a month. The boy in the next bed was an amputee.

She still can't forget the child's desperate face and painful howls in the middle of the night.

"Do you have any painkillers?"

Cen Yu hesitated for a moment, and finally took out a small bottle of medicine powder from his arms. The bottle was shining brightly, and one could tell at a glance that the medicine powder in the bottle was of extraordinary value.

"Painkillers, there are some..."

"Let me help you apply the medicine."

As Gu Nianzhi spoke, he squatted in front of Cen Yu and reached out to untie his prosthesis and apply some medicine on it.

Cen Yu subconsciously pulled his legs back. He subconsciously didn't want Gu Nianzhi to see his most imperfect side.

"No, I'll find a place to do it myself later."

Gu Nianzhi did not stop, "Why are you doing this? It's such a long way, and you know I can't go back with you."

After untying the heavy straps of the prosthetic limb, the blood-soaked pad appeared in front of Gu Nianzhi's eyes.

Looking at the shocking severed limb, she was stunned.

She knew that Cen Yu had lost his legs, and Cen Yu had displayed his severed limbs through clothes before, but today was the first time she saw the naked severed limbs.

“It’s ugly.”

There was an obvious inferiority complex on Cen Yu's face.

He has always been concerned about his disability. Although he has a wheelchair and prosthetic limbs that can be used for a short period of time to allow him to pretend to be a healthy person, he is still disabled after all.

Gu Nianzhi gently dipped the powder into the bleeding area on the fracture surface and asked softly while applying the medicine: "Does it hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt. I've gotten used to it over the years."

The word "I'm used to it" made Gu Nianzhi's heart tighten. How much suffering had Cen Yu endured over the years for his crippled legs to be able to say these words so calmly?

The pain of having a severed limb while awake can be relieved by medication, but the pain of losing both legs will always appear in dreams at midnight.

“Sometimes I feel like my feet are still there, and I can even feel the pain in the part of my leg that has left my body.”

For some reason, Cen Yu was willing to tell Gu Nianzhi about his pain and vulnerability that he was unwilling to express.

"The doctors said it was impossible, but I could clearly feel it. No one else believed me."

Gu Nianzhi thought of the little boy in the next bed.

Every night he would cry and complain about the pain in the amputated part of his leg.

The attending physician said it was phantom limb pain. At that time, Gu Nianzhi even searched online to find out what phantom limb pain was. Unexpectedly, it would come in handy at this time.

"I believe it." Gu Nianzhi said slowly, "This is phantom limb pain. Among patients who have lost a limb, 50 to 60 percent will experience this condition. Some people will experience it very quickly, but some will experience it for the rest of their lives."

"Do you really believe that?"

Since there is scientific basis, Gu Nianzhi certainly believes it.

"Patients who lose their limbs at a very young age often don't have such troubles. This is because they can quickly accept the fact. If you still feel obvious pain after losing your limbs for so many years, it's because you haven't let it go and you haven't accepted it yet."

Cen Yu was silent.

He knew that what Gu Nianzhi said made sense.

The scene of losing my legs always appears in my dreams.

A chaotic crowd and flying swords.

Faces completely distorted by power kept flashing before my eyes.

The strange thing is that when the sword pierced through my legs, I didn't feel any pain, only a feeling of warm liquid gushing out, and then everything in my ears became quiet and empty, and my eyes became dark...

Perhaps it was because there was no pain at that moment that I suffered the pain of that day day and night for the next ten or twenty years.

Over the years, Gu Nianzhi was the only one who believed that his stump would feel pain.

"It's been tied up again."

Gu Nianzhi stood up and looked down at Cen Yu who was sitting on the stool.

"Cen Yu, please go. I don't know why you care so much about my life or death, but I want to tell you that we are not on the same path, and from now on..."

Gu Nianzhi's eyes swept towards Cen Yu's legs.

"There's no need to take the risk and come to me so hard in the future. I can't give you any response."

Gu Nianzhi is not a fool.

Cen Yu had known for a long time that she was a girl, and there was only one reason why he treated her so specially.

Cen Yu likes her.

But her feelings towards Cen Yu started with misunderstanding and ended with understanding.

She felt pity for Cen Yu's disability, sympathized with his experience, and even understood Cen Yu's desire for revenge, but she could not agree with what he did.

After all, they can't be the same kind of people.

Even though Cen Yu risked his life for her several times, it did not move her, but only troubled her.

Just like now, she hopes Cen Yu will leave quickly.

"I don't need any response from you. I just want peace of mind. I just want the only person in this world who cares about my life and death to be safe and sound." Cen Yu said.

"But your appearance has brought me trouble. I don't want to be misunderstood by Sima Yao. Please leave now."

"Sima Yao? Sima Yao is as dumb as a pig! He doesn't even know that you are a woman. How can you be sure that he only loves you who is pretending to be a man?"

Gu Nianzhi knew that Cen Yu was trying to sow discord, but he had to admit that what he said was exactly what he had been worried about deep down in his heart.

"What he wants is gay love. Maybe he doesn't need a woman like you."

Cen Yu looked at Gu Nianzhi's expression and understood.

It turns out that Gu Nianzhi has always been concerned about this.

In this case, he must make such concerns and rifts become bigger and bigger.

"Whatever you say, I don't care. It's getting late and you should go. Please."

Gu Nianzhi lifted the door curtain and made a gesture of invitation.

Cen Yu, however, sat upright, looking outside the door, expressionless and silent.

Outside the door was Shu Huaiyuan with a frosty face.

Following Cen Yu's gaze, Gu Nianzhi turned around and saw Shu Huaiyuan at the door, his heart sank.

He should have heard a lot of the conversation between himself and Cen Yu at the beginning.

Shu Huaiyuan's eyes were sharp. Seeing Cen Yu in luxurious white clothes, he immediately thought of the man who had led Gu Nianzhi out of the city to seek safety on the day of the explosion.

"Who is this……"

Shu Huaiyuan looked at Gu Nianzhi, but Gu Nianzhi didn't know how to answer.

"I am Nianzhi's friend. I know she will be in danger on her way to Qiangyi. I don't know when we will meet again, so I came to see her off."

Shu Huaiyuan has been staring at Gu Nianzhi, his tone stern: "Mr. Gu has many friends from all walks of life. But the military camp is a restricted area, no outsiders are allowed to enter. Didn't Prince Yao tell you this rule?"

"General Shu, there won't be a next time. Once we leave Dasheng tomorrow, no friends will come to see me anymore."

After saying that, Gu Nianzhi turned around, with his back to Shu Huaiyuan at the door, and winked at Cen Yu in the room.

"move."

Gu Nianzhi's expression was quite interesting, his mouth was crooked to the point where it almost reached his ears, and his eyes were rolling around almost popping out of their sockets.

Cen Yu couldn't help laughing, but since Shu Huaiyuan was present, he had to hold it back.

"In fact, I had expected that since you followed him here, you would not return to the capital with me, but I still... well, I made the last effort, and I have nothing to regret."