Crazy childhood sweetheart always thinks of me

When I went over, the princess was already sitting there drinking tea calmly, just like the princesses I had seen since childhood, graceful and elegant.

The moment she saw me, she didn't show much anger, which gave me the illusion that the person who was furious and yelling in Yun Hance's yard just now was not her.

I walked over to greet her, and she grabbed me and reached out to touch my face. I turned my head away, and she had to put her hand down, blaming herself, "Ranran is blaming me, right?"

I whispered, "Ranran didn't."

When the princess heard this, she was delighted: "Does it still hurt? I was really angry and hit you just now."

I hung my head, my swollen face burning with pain, but I just shook my head: "It doesn't hurt."

Seeing how understanding I was, the princess immediately pulled me to sit down and asked, "Princess, do you want me to leave Yun Hance?"

The princess didn't expect me to say it so bluntly. Her smiling face immediately froze: "Ranran, I know you like him, but have you ever thought about yourself?"

I looked at her pretending not to understand.

The princess patted my hands and brought a bowl of rice dumplings from the table over to me. "I remember you loved eating this when you were little. Try it and see if it tastes like your childhood."

I held the bowl, and the white and glutinous meatballs were small, sweet, soft and sticky in the mouth. I had eaten them many times when I was a child, so I knew what they tasted like without tasting them.

I remember that night, Yun Hance went crazy and took me to a remote yard and forced me to admit my feelings. That night, he also had someone make wine-fermented meatballs.

When I thought about this, I suddenly lost my appetite. I put down the bowl and looked at the princess helplessly: "Princess, I know you want me to leave Yun Hance. I'm really sorry. No matter what you say or do, I will not leave him."

The princess smiled faintly: "Ranran, you are my child who grew up with me, how could I not like you and not want you to be my daughter-in-law? But have you ever thought about it, the princess is becoming more and more mentally unstable, and she keeps nagging that she wants to kill you and A Ce. If you insist on being with A Ce, the consequences will not be something you can bear."

I looked at the princess, who seemed to be worried about me and concerned about me. Unfortunately, I had seen her not care about even her own son, so I didn't believe that she would truly worry about me.

"No matter what the consequences are, I am willing to live and die with him."

Seeing my stubbornness, the princess stopped pretending to be kind and stood up. She said sternly, "You and he are together in life and death. Is it because he has been in front of me to block all the harm, the emperor's blame, the princess's anger, including today's life hanging by a thread? Do you think you love him when you say life and death together? Look at what he has become now? Or do you think the emperor will let it go so easily?"

I stood up as well, my back straight. "What the princess said is absolutely right. It is true that he has always been protecting me, so I cannot leave, because in his heart, I am not a burden or a nuisance."

The princess said several times in a row: "He protected you. If you have any conscience, you shouldn't let him get hurt so much for you. Besides, don't forget that your brother is still at the border."

My brother is still at the border? Is she threatening me, using my brother's life to force me to leave Yun Hance?

The princess saw my questioning look and said, "I have watched you and your brother grow up since you were young. I won't do anything to him, but the emperor may not. The daughter he loves the most in these years is Junhua. He can spare half his life against A Ce because he is concerned about A Ce's company for so many years. He can't bring himself to do it. But I don't know if you and your brother will have this blessing."

I forced myself to calm down, but the ending of my brother in the previous life made me panic. If the emperor really wanted to kill someone, there would be many people who would work for him, and he wouldn't have to do it at all.

"No, he is the emperor, a wise and powerful ruler. How could he attack my brother just for his own personal grudge?" I didn't notice that my voice was shaking.

The princess seemed to have discovered my weakness and immediately smiled with satisfaction: "You are so naive. He is the emperor and a father. Everyone will take revenge. And when he saw his most beloved daughter become like this, he couldn't bear to touch Ah Ce, so naturally he had to vent his anger on you."

I bit my lip, trying to sober myself up, telling myself that my brother would be fine, he just wanted to defend his country, he did nothing wrong, the emperor would not blame him, and with Yun Hance's reminder, my brother would be fine.

The princess wanted to further defeat my persistence: "I have been so good to you and your brother since we were young. Please have pity on me and leave A Ce. I don't want to see him covered in bruises."

"The princess said that she felt sorry for him, so why did the Prince of Zhenbei ignore him when he was locked up in the torture chamber by the emperor? Why didn't you believe him when he went to Fengcheng and was wrongly accused? You keep saying that you feel sorry for him, but you don't love him at all. You asked me to leave him just because you were afraid that we would implicate the Prince of Zhenbei's Mansion, right?" I said so much in one breath, and I felt relieved for no reason, because this is what I had always wanted to ask.

The princess looked at me with amusement, "You are really stupid. He was imprisoned in the palace and we ignored him. Does that mean we don't care about him? If the prince went to ask and got him out, the emperor would be even more angry. Would it be useful to get him out like that? What you said about the incident in Fengcheng was even funnier. I had witnesses and evidence at that time. Don't say I didn't believe him. Didn't the emperor not believe him either?"

I don't understand the princess, just like I don't understand all the powerful people who are good at dancing with long sleeves: "No matter whether it is useful or not, you shouldn't just ignore it, right? Besides, the King of Zhenbei has soldiers at his disposal. If you ask, the emperor will always have some concerns."

The princess didn't want to discuss this with me any further: "I have already advised you about your matter. If you insist on doing it, I can't do anything about it. Your brother, father, and mother will be buried with you, and you might even cause trouble for the Zhenbei Palace."

When I heard her say the word "involvement", I no longer had the mood to listen to her. She kept talking about fear of involvment. I bowed and turned away.

"You don't care about your brother, nor Miaomiao? She is your best friend."

I actually don’t quite believe that the matter between Yun Hance and I can implicate the Zhenbei Palace. My family has no power or influence, but the Zhenbei Palace has soldiers and generals at its disposal.

I paused for a moment and then walked out. The sunlight outside was even more dazzling at this moment. I limped in the yard, shivering with cold. What worried me most now was my brother.

If I live my life again and my brother still dies young, then what is the meaning of my life? I gritted my teeth, the wounds on my legs and face were getting more and more painful.

I had just walked out of the gate of Zhenbei Palace when I saw ice on the steps. I stepped on them slowly but fell to the ground all of a sudden. I sat down on the steps and the wound on my thigh was hit. It hurt so much that I almost cried. I had been to this place many times when I was a child and I was very happy every time. I had also sat on these steps many times when I was a child, and most of the time I was waiting for Yun Miaomiao and Yun Qingchi. Have I ever sat here waiting for Yun Hance?