Maybe I shouldn't die.

She couldn't remember clearly, but she knew that one day, she suddenly became impatient to hear any more news about A-Yue.

Sometimes I would even wonder in my mind, why did Ayue's health improve? Why did her cultivation become faster and faster? Why was it not me who got the flying boat?

She soon realized that this idea was wrong. She tried hard to get rid of these thoughts, but she couldn't control herself at all.

In order to prevent myself from doing anything to hurt A Yue out of jealousy, I could only gradually distance myself from A Yue.

Her friends also noticed this change in her and came to ask her if something had happened and why she suddenly distanced herself from A-Yue.

She couldn't answer, because it was impossible to say that she was jealous of A Yue. She could only answer that she was too tired from practicing and didn't want to talk, and she was not distancing herself from A Yue.

She didn't know whether her friends believed her or not. Maybe they didn't. But seeing that A Yue didn't react to her behavior and was still the same as usual, she never asked about it again.

She thought that their relationship would remain like this until she figured it out, and they would still be as close as before.

However, when she learned that A Yue had successfully established her foundation and had accepted the mission to go to the mortal world, she could no longer control her inner jealousy.

She thought about the life she had been abused by her parents since childhood, and about her sister who was also abused like her but always persuaded her to leave home to find her immortal destiny.

Thinking of what her sister said to her in a longing tone before she left:

"Sister, if you cultivate to become an immortal, you won't have to be beaten all day, and you'll be able to have enough food to eat and sleep in a warm house."

"Sister, the Taoist priest said you have a destiny with the immortals. Run away and find your destiny."

"Sister, I don't have any destiny to be an immortal. What's more, I have two younger sisters. If I leave, who will take care of them?"

"Sister, my parents will never take care of my two younger sisters. In their eyes, girls are just money-losing goods. As long as they are given a bite to eat, whether they can survive depends on luck."

"Sister, you took care of me, and I want to take care of my two younger sisters, too."

"Sister, my sister and I will wait for you to come back from cultivating immortals and take us with you to live a good life without being beaten and with enough food to eat."

"Sister, you must find your destiny."

She also remembered that time when she held her sister's hand tightly and swore to her firmly:

"Sister will definitely find her destiny and come back to lead you to a good life. By then, we will be able to live in a warm house in the winter, eat snow-white steamed buns, and no one will be able to beat us anymore."

Later, she left the village with such aspirations and the ascension order in her pocket.

It is very difficult for a little girl wandering alone to survive in this world. She didn't know how much hardship she had to endure before she successfully entered Yishui City.

He was successfully selected into the sect.

She indeed lived a good life without having to worry about food and clothing, without having to suffer from the cold, or being beaten.

But she was still confused, especially after learning that her home was in another world and that the only way to go back was through the Ascension Ceremony held every ten years.

Thinking about my sister at home who is still living in dire straits.

Thinking that her sisters were still waiting for her to come back.

She did not dare to slack off at all. She worked hard to learn knowledge and squeezed every bit of time to practice.

But cultivation is not that simple. Learning knowledge requires points, resources for cultivation require points, and even eating and staying require points.

She doesn't think this model is unreasonable. As long as she works hard, she can earn points on her own, which was something she couldn't even imagine before.

When she was at home, she had to do a lot of work every day and take care of her younger sister, but she couldn't eat the chickens she raised, nor the pigs she raised, and even the vegetables she grew and the meals she cooked, she could only eat a little bit.

She started working as soon as she opened her eyes and worked until dark every day, but she still could not get enough food to eat or clothes to keep warm.

Therefore, life in the sect was like a life that only gods could live for her.

And this group of people who practice cultivation would indeed be called immortals in the eyes of mortals, and she indeed lived a life that only immortals could live in the eyes of mortals.

But getting points also requires spending time on tasks, so her time for practice becomes less and less.

Even though she tried hard, it was impossible for her to successfully build a foundation within ten years. Failure to break through the foundation meant that she could not go home and could not fulfill her promise with her sister.

Although there is still another ten years, her sisters will have grown up and married by then, and she doesn't know if it will be too late for her to go back.

So when she knew Fang Yue was willing to help them bring things home, she couldn't control her ecstasy in her heart. She had the opportunity to help her sisters escape from suffering.

She planned carefully for a long time before deciding to ask the village chief to help her break up the relationship. She even revealed her identity in the letter in order to make the plan go smoothly.

She also knew that this behavior might lead to the disclosure of A Yue's identity, and she should inform A Yue of this news in advance.

But at that moment, the jealousy in her heart grew wildly, and in the end she concealed the matter.

She didn't know what she was thinking at that time, maybe she wanted to cause some trouble to A Yue, or something else.

Whatever the reason, she chose to conceal the matter, even though she regretted it very much afterwards.

But by that time, A Yue had already left the sect.

For the past three months, she has been suffering from guilt.

She was worried that her concealment would bring serious trouble to A Yue, and she was also worried that the relationship between her and A Yue would be completely broken because of it.

Even A Yue would resent her for this.

Until now, A Yue finally came back and brought back letters written to her by her family.

Even though it was possible that A Yue was unaware of her little actions, she was unwilling to deceive herself.

Regardless of whether A Yue knew about this or not, she should confess to her and apologize to her.

Even though the consequences might be disastrous, she decided to do it.

This is the best ending for them now.

A Yue forgave her because of their past affection, but their relationship could never go back to the way it was before.

This incident will always be a thorn between them, for Ayue and for her.

It would be fine if we were just ordinary fellow students.

That way, she wouldn't have to worry about doing something irrational towards A Yue out of jealousy and causing harm to A Yue.

That was also the result she didn't want to see.

Perhaps, from now on she will no longer be jealous of A Yue.

Feng Sisi's tears continued to flow. She looked up at the blurred figure and said softly:

"Ayue, I wish you a smooth journey to immortality in the future."