Good luck every time

Li Ruyi's heart was touched for a moment by his words.

She had many, many questions she wanted to ask, but she never got around to asking them.

Han Shian didn't want to talk about things in her previous life, and she didn't want to talk about it either.

Only today, Li Ruyi can face her past calmly.

No matter if your soul was once bound by worldly shackles and you were like a trapped beast.

Or is it that I want to break free from the shackles and spread my wings to fly?

It's all part of her.

It is all these past experiences that make up who she is today.

Li Ruyi didn’t want to face the pain before because the memories would make her sad.

Only after a long time had passed and she had experienced so much, Li Ruyi suddenly looked back and realized that the feelings of suffering had remained far behind her and had become monuments to her complete soul.

"Have you ever thought about finding someone to live a good life with?"

Li Ruyi looked at Han Shian very seriously, and also wanted to hear Han Shian's most serious answer.

Two people were together, talking about ordinary and somewhat boring things.

But these words made Han Shian a little surprised.

After a moment, he suddenly burst into laughter.

Li Ruyi had seen Han Shian smile, a faint smile, or a smile with pursed lips, but she had rarely seen him smile so exaggeratedly.

She did not stop him, but just watched quietly. When Han Shian stopped laughing and lay back on the roof, Li Ruyi just followed him with her eyes.

"Of course I haven't thought about it! I think about it often, and I often wonder what life would be like if I got married."

"There are also classmates or good friends who want to matchmake with me, those with good looks, good family backgrounds, and talents..."

Li Ruyi did not show any surprise. People like Han Shian deserve to be treated like this!

When Han Shian said this, he suddenly looked at Li Ruyi.

"I hated you for a while!"

Li Ruyi remained silent, but her eyes flushed slightly as she looked at Han Shian.

"Ruyi! I am also a human being. At that time, I often thought that if hating you could make my life better, I would..."

Han Shian said this and suddenly sighed.

"I am young and ignorant!"

"I thought the end of love was endless hatred, but later I realized that what I hated was that I couldn't get it."

"When love really comes to an end, there should be no love or hate!"

"After all, I can't let go..."

"After that, there are only two women in this world for me: you and not you!"

"I have an obsession in my heart. This obsession belongs only to me. It has nothing to do with you or anyone else."

"I'm learning to understand you and myself. I think one day, I'll be able to let it go."

Li Ruyi slowly lay down beside Han Shian, keeping a distance from him that was neither too far nor too close.

Han Shian's voice seemed to come from far away, but it was so faint that only two people could hear it.

"Ruyi, if you were not in this world, I would still be myself. I would eat when I was hungry, wear clothes when it was cold, study hard, and pass the imperial examinations to gain fame..."

“Although there is a piece missing in my heart, I will not stop there.”

After hearing this, Li Ruyi slowly closed her eyes and laughed.

"Han Shian, if there was no you in this world, I would still be me."

"Now that you are in this world, I am still myself!"

A slightly trembling hand held Li Ruyi's hand, and Li Ruyi shook it back with force.

Not only that, she also turned and leaned towards Han Shian.

"Ruyi, thank you!"

Li Ruyi shook her head.

"I'm sorry...I didn't mean to lie to you. I was just too scared!"

Han Shian turned around and placed his other hand on her shoulder.

"Don't be afraid. The past is all in the past. From now on, I only wish you happiness every day and every moment."

Li Ruyi looked up at Han Shian and asked him.

"What about you? What do you want?"

Han Shian thought about it, hesitated for a moment, and then spoke.

"I want to live a hundred years..."

After hearing this, Li Ruyi suddenly smiled, thinking that who wouldn't want this wish!

But the moment this thought came to her mind, her face suddenly turned ugly.

She never asked Han Shian when he died in his previous life.

Earlier, he just felt that he died too early and miserably, and he didn't want to talk about it. But now when he thinks about it, Li Ruyi just feels a chill rising from his tailbone.

She can be reborn with Han Shian, so what kind of bond is there between the two of them?

She only wanted to cherish such great fortune, but never thought about where it came from.

"You...you are..."

Li Ruyi wanted to ask him why he died, but when the words came to her lips, she couldn't say them.

Han Shian looked at Li Ruyi in confusion, and then immediately understood what she meant.

He was silent for a moment.

"I died in the spring of my third year in office because I discovered something and was killed when someone tried to rob me!"

Li Ruyi got goose bumps all over her body and she stared at Han Shian in a daze.

“I also died at that time…”

She thought that even if Han Shian did not have an enviable future, he should have a peaceful and smooth life. However, she never thought that Han Shian would die!

Died in the same year as her.

Li Ruyi felt a wave of tingling all over her body, and she felt an indescribable fear lingering in her heart.

Han Shian sensed her abnormality and reached out to hug her.

"You too? But I received a message saying that you..."

Li Ruyi's grip tightened a little more.

"I didn't die at the beginning. I was imprisoned by my opponent for two years. I starved every day. Although it was painful, she didn't torture me too much. On the contrary, I felt that I was living more like a human being at that time!"

At that time, Li Ruyi's body was imprisoned, but her soul became much freer.

She had time to think and was willing to sort out her past. Even though there were still many things she couldn't figure out, she had a sense that she really existed.

She doesn't live for anyone but herself.

She didn't die for anyone, she died just for herself.

Fate led her down a path that was beyond her control.

But in the end, she finally realized that she did not lose to anyone, but to herself.

I lost to myself who was turned into a tool by worldly advice.

She is not just her, she is just a microcosm of thousands of down-and-out women.

They live different yet similar lives in this world, making the 'only' choice pointed out by others.

All this until the moment she finally figured it out.

She had her own name and became different from thousands of other people.

Li Ruyi is Li Ruyi, no one can replace her.

So she accepted Han Shian's obsession, because she understood that what the other party saw was not the self wrapped in the world.

But it is Li Ruyi who has crossed time and life and finally stands here!

same!

The person in front of Li Ruyi is so lively, and he is not someone who is bound by rules and regulations.

He is also unique!

Just like Han Shian said, if he were to choose between two women in this world, there would only be two people: Li Ruyi or not Li Ruyi.

He chose the former, and that's all he could do.

In his previous life, Li Ruyi chose to kill himself and accepted the unfairness of fate.

When it comes to love in this life, she has created two choices for herself through her own efforts.

Han Shian, or no Han Shian!

Han Shian hugged her tighter, and Li Ruyi rested her head on his neck.

"If you say so, I will believe you!"

The fear in Li Ruyi's heart was dispelled by him. There was someone in this world who shared her secrets and unwillingness, and knew her past and the entanglement in her heart.

And she, just as Han Shian trusted her, trusted and protected him.

"Han Shian, I will protect you for the rest of my life! Don't be afraid."

After hearing this, Han Shian laughed again.

Li Ruyi heard it and reached out to push him.

"You do not believe?"

Han Shian quickly denied it and shook his head.

"I believe it! My senior sister is the hero Li, she is a martial arts expert and a righteous person!"

"If you say you will protect me, then you will protect me!"

Li Ruyi looked at his face.

Although he looks to be less than 20 years old, he has the maturity of an older man.

Li Ruyi suddenly realized that Han Shian was now walking the same path as in his previous life.

Pass the exam and then become an official.

Even if someone takes a fancy to me, I will not compromise.

He will once again be sent to a remote place, and may once again experience similar things as he did in his previous life.

"Han Shian, did you ever regret it?"

When Han Shian heard this question, he seemed to be lost in some memories. He spoke after a few breaths.

"I thought at the time whether there would be better results if I made a different choice."

"It's just that, Ruyi, I'm a bit stubborn. Even if I have to start over again, I still want to walk the same path again!"

Li Ruyi was not surprised by his choice.

Just like before, even though he knew that Li Ruyi might still lie to him in this life, and might not become what he imagined.

But he would still choose Li Ruyi without hesitation.

Han Shian may seem gentle, but he has a madness deep in his bones that ordinary people cannot understand.

The madness is hidden deep in the bones and blood. It's not that it has no edges, but that its edges are as numerous as tiny scales. You can only see it when you get close.

Li Ruyi thought about it and asked again.

"Then you rejected the daughter of the Minister of Personnel because of your obsession with me?"

This question has been hidden in Li Ruyi's heart for a long time, and she has never been able to let it go.

She has met many people and experienced many people.

This seems very unfair to Han Shian's persistence.

Even if she was living in a daze at that time, there was no reason for all the pain and suffering to be left to one person passively.

After hearing this, Han Shian didn't hesitate much. He turned over, lay flat on the roof, and looked at the twinkling stars in the sky.

He then said lightly.

"Ruyi, my decisions are all for myself! You don't have to bear so much."

"At that time, I was in high spirits and hated you to the core. If there really was someone suitable, I would have made the choice that was best for me."

"Afterwards, I might just become ordinary, like most people in this world."

"Perhaps I will regret my impulsiveness and spend the rest of my life paying for the anxiety in my heart."

"But none of this is because of you."

"I didn't agree to the marriage because I didn't think highly of the Minister of Personnel and didn't want to be in the same faction with him."

"The situation in the officialdom was complicated, and I had my own considerations at the time."

After hearing this, Li Ruyi felt that the burden on his heart was lightened.

These words were beyond her expectations, yet they made sense!

Han Shian sighed deeply.

"I know you came to see me off! You sat there for a whole day, and I watched you from a distance for a whole day."

"That was the day that made me stop hating!"

"You have your choice, I have my life, I have you in my heart, and I know you have me in your heart."

"Your wandering is not caused by me. My obsession is deep and belongs only to me."

When Han Shian got to this point, he suddenly didn't know how to continue.

He is still selfish.

I was too selfish to dare to say that I had chosen a path that would lead to my own death.

Selfishly, I understand that sooner or later, the two of them may be separated forever.

When Li Ruyi heard these words, she suddenly felt sad.

She didn't know how long these thoughts had been in Han Shian's mind.

Does the other party necessarily know how to endure the suffering that she cannot bear?

They are all dust floating in the sea of ​​people, trying to influence their own lives with their meager power.

She lived a miserable life in her previous life and she had no choice.

But Han Shian was not much better than her. He was also homeless, unable to get what he wanted, and died in a foreign land at a young age...

"you……"

Li Ruyi reached out and turned Han Shian's head over.

"You haven't told me this. If I hadn't asked, would you have kept it a secret from me?"

When their eyes met, Han Shian felt a flash of guilt.

Li Ruyi just looked at him like that.

The night became the last euphemism between the two, and those little thoughts hidden in the darkness became a sense of security that allowed them to open up their own hearts.

"I haven't thought about it, but I don't know how to start."

Li Ruyi moved forward, very close to him.

"If you have made your choice, you must tell me. I just wanted to live a more comfortable life, raise Xiaoman, avenge my master, and see more vast scenery..."

"After that, I have a little more. I want to protect me...my sweetheart. When he watches me soar, I will also be the wind that helps him soar into the sky!"

For the first time, their hearts were so close, so close that they seemed indistinguishable from each other.

Li Ruyi always kept her composure no matter who she was with, but at this moment, all of her characteristics were revealed to Han Shian.

She could let down all her defenses and lie here without any burden, feeling that it wouldn't matter even if the sky fell.

Han Shian always had to pretend on weekdays, but at this moment, his dark and selfish side was completely revealed to Li Ruyi.

He can throw off the shackles of obsession and worldly constraints and become Han Shian, rather than just someone in the eyes of the world.

He nervously probed, and every word seemed to be asking Li Ruyi.

Would you still like me like this?

Are you willing to face this kind of thoughts?

After cautious testing, they hugged each other more tightly.

Hard to separate anymore.

What they like from beginning to end is the living person around them.

Instead of bluntly pinning your own fabricated imagination on this person.