Lima syndrome

"Shi--Squad Leader, we shouldn't eat together anymore."

"That's more like it." Che Jingcan was secretly happy to hear that he changed his address, and pinched Bai Zhiyan's shoulder with satisfaction.

"Why?" Xu Shiyuan's face turned pale. "Aren't we always eating together? Why did you suddenly say something like that?"

He turned to look at Cha Kyung-chan and pointed at him, "Is it because of him, Ji-yeon? Did he threaten you?"

"Stop talking bullshit! Dead Fish Face, just say it yourself, don't let him slander me."

"Be quiet!"

Bai Zhiyan glared at him and said to Xu Shiyuan, "Squad leader, I was the one who pestered you in the beginning. Didn't you hate me at first? Although our situation has changed since then, you really don't have to put up with me any more."

"What are you talking about?" Xu Shiyuan looked at him in disbelief, "I'm not tolerating you at all."

"I'm sorry, monitor. Let's stop here."

Ever since Che Jingcan came back, Xu Shiyuan felt that his daily life had changed completely. He was like a fly around Bai Zhiyan, always influencing his thoughts and actions.

Even if his motives for being friends with Bai Zhiyan were impure, it didn't mean that others could take away what belonged to him.

"No, now you just want to break up with me, right? I don't agree!"

"Why is a man so hesitant? Are you deaf and can't hear what he says? Do you want me to clear your ears?"

Che Jingcan was annoyed to see his entangled look, and stood up, rubbing his hands, ready to take action.

"Can you please be quiet?" Bai Zhiyan was extremely annoyed, so he stood up to stop him and forced him back to his seat.

"Squad leader, I think you should think more about your life now, and..." He remembered what Li Enna said to him, "I think Li Enna is pretty good, you should consider her."

(Li Enna: A-choo, who scolded me?)

"What? Li Enna? What does this have to do with Li Enna?"

After hearing Bai Jitai's warning, although Xu Shiyuan thought about breaking off the short-lived fake friendship with him, it didn't mean that Bai Zhiyan could mention it to him first. The depression and uneasiness of being abandoned came over him again.

His father abandoned him and his mother after he got into debt, leaving them with only a bottomless pit of debt. In his early years, he would ask his mother whether his father would come back, but every time she mentioned his father, she would just cry silently and shake her head without saying a word. Later, when he grew up, he understood.

He had been abandoned and not chosen since he was a child, but he didn't expect that he would taste this feeling again ten years later.

"Hasn't Li Enna been pursuing you these days? I don't want to hinder your development."

Xu Shiyuan found it ridiculous. Did they want to discard him like trash with such an excuse?

He did not accept this reason, and was more angry at Bai Zhiyan for being the first to propose breaking off relations. Why should he just let go of him so easily? Even if he wanted to sever ties, he should be the one to propose it!

"I don't like her and I can't possibly be with her, so why are you breaking up with me because of her? I can't accept such a ridiculous and hasty reason!"

Xu Shiyuan's voice became louder, and his usually pale and gloomy cheeks were now covered with a thin layer of red, and his clenched fists were shaking slightly.

He rarely behaved like this, and Bai Zhiyan just found it novel. He didn't expect to see this kind of expression on his face again in his lifetime.

"Monitor, I just said that we should not eat together in the future, but we can still chat and talk with each other. Why are you so excited?"

Is he excited?

Xu Shiyuan looked at his slightly trembling hands, and he knew that he must look very embarrassed.

"Xu Shiyuan, don't make such a scene." Che Jingcan sneered, "You're acting like a lost dog."

"Why do you always speak so harshly?"

Although Bai Zhiyan complained about Che Jingcan, he actually agreed with him in his heart, because Xu Shiyuan really looked like a lost dog, embarrassed, confused and at a loss.

Xu Shiyuan opened and closed his lips trying to find his own voice. He was now emotionally unstable and his mind was confused, while Bai Zhiyan and Che Jingcan sitting opposite him were calm and composed, as if they were deliberately appreciating his miserable appearance.

He fled again.

"This shady poor fellow is finally gone. I thought he would continue to pester you."

"Ah--"

Bai Zhiyan sneered and didn't reply to him.

Che Jingcan ignored his sarcasm and just felt very good after getting rid of Xu Shiyuan, the clingy guy.

So at noon, Che Jingcan happily took Bai Zhiyan to the barbecue restaurant.

Xu Shiyuan, who was hiding in the dark and observing the two of them, was caught by Li Enna, who shamelessly stuck to him and asked to have dinner with him.

In the barbecue restaurant, Che Jingcan picked up the tongs and turned the pork belly on the grill. He raised his head to Bai Zhiyan with a smug look on his face, "I have never grilled meat for anyone before, but seeing that you look dead now, I can reluctantly grill it for you."

Bai Zhiyan hadn't come here voluntarily and was in no mood to eat. Seeing him grilling the pork clumsily and cursing at the same time, he felt impatient.

"Don't waste the meat."

He snatched the tongs from his hand, picked up the burnt meat and threw it away, then picked up the meat again and started roasting it skillfully.

"Tsk, I just haven't baked before."

Bai Zhiyan ignored his muttering and cut the roasted meat into pieces and gave them to him.

"Take care of yourself first, you don't need to clamp it for me."

Che Jingcan looked disgusted but was secretly happy inside, and he still had to grumble and find fault with him.

Bai Zhiyan was already used to his self-centered young master's demeanor, and at most he would roll his eyes in his heart without showing any sign on his face.

then--

"Hey Fish Face, I still want to eat beef, grill it for me now."

After hearing what he said, Bai Zhiyan didn't say much and grilled the meat for him as he asked. If he quarreled with him in the store about whether to grill the meat or not, they would probably be treated like monkeys and watched by many people.

So he grilled him quietly.

"And pork belly. I want more pork belly."

Seeing that Bai Zhiyan did not resist or retort, Che Jingcan's mouth was almost raised to the sky, and he began to order him to do this and that.

"I want to eat the sausage in your bowl, give it to me."

……

But Bai Zhiyan's patience is limited. When Che Jingcan asked him to help pass tissues and pour soda for the Nth time, he finally exploded.

"Che Jingcan, are you done yet?"

Che Jingcan was startled by his sudden growl, and then saw his angry little face. He was gritting his teeth and his cheeks were bulging. He couldn't help but pinch him and asked him with a smile.

"Why are you angry?"

"How dare you ask me why I'm angry?"

Bai Zhiyan opened his hand and Che Jingcan was not annoyed. He just felt like he was scratched by a kitten.

"Hmm... I'm not sure..."

He pretended to be distressed, withdrew his hand, stood up and sat in the empty seat next to Bai Zhiyan.

"What are you doing here?"

Not only did he not answer Bai Zhiyan's question, he also insisted on moving closer to him, forcing Bai Zhiyan to lean against the wall.

"Don't come any closer."

Bai Zhi reached out and grabbed his arm, keeping a safe distance from him.

When Che Jingcan saw him extending his hand, he raised his eyebrows, grabbed his arm and brought him into his arms.

"Uh--"

Bai Zhiyan lost his support and rushed towards him. After a muffled sound, his entire face was buried in Che Jingcan's chest.

"Then can you come closer?"

When Che Jingcan's clear and bright voice sounded, Bai Zhiyan, who was lying in front of him, could clearly feel the rise and fall of his chest when he spoke and breathed.

"What's wrong with you!"

He struggled to sit up, and Che Jingcan stopped teasing him. He picked up the lettuce on the table, wrapped the meat in it and handed it to Bai Zhiyan's mouth.

"Come on, ah——"

But Bai Zhiyan just looked at him like a fool.

"Aren't you dissatisfied with serving me? I will serve you for free now."

He then passed the lettuce wrapped in meat to his mouth and motioned for him to open his mouth, "Ah——"

"Oh my god—mmmm—"

Che Jingcan guessed that he would definitely open his mouth to curse him, so he stuffed the meat into his mouth while he was opening it to speak.

"Hey, you can do it twice, you didn't deliberately fall for me and want me to feed you?"

"Uh-huh--"

Bai Zhiyan wanted to refute but couldn't make a sound. Seeing this, Che Jingcan smiled even more, and took advantage of him because he couldn't speak now. "If you want me to feed you in the future, just tell me directly."

Bai Zhiyan's mouth was stuffed full, so he quickly reached for a cup to drink some water to calm himself.

Seeing his flushed face and puffy cheeks, Che Jingcan didn't care that he was still glaring at him fiercely and pinched his ears. Bai Zhiyan was still drinking water and he couldn't dodge, so he pinched his small and delicate ears until they turned red before letting go.

"Damn, even the ears are so soft."

Che Jingcan always felt that Bai Zhiyan was like a doll, soft and fragrant all over. Whenever he touched her, he wanted to hold her in his arms and rub her, making him unable to let go.

He also hoped that Bai Zhiyan's reaction would be like the time he bit her and she cried, with red eyes and a soft voice, just like a little rabbit.

After swallowing the food, Bai Zhiyan wanted to settle the score with him, but when he turned around, he saw Che Jingcan staring at him with a malicious smile, and he instantly got goose bumps.

"Why are you laughing so disgustingly!"

"Fuck! Who's laughing so disgustingly!"

Che Jingcan was afraid that he would see through his thoughts, so his expression changed immediately and he stood up hurriedly and returned to his seat.

"What the hell are you doing, you psychopath? Don't touch me so casually anymore!"

Hearing him calling himself a psychopath, Che Jingcan remembered the scene in the morning when he called Xu Shiyuan's name, and his eyes suddenly became turbulent.

"You call Xu Shiyuan so intimately, but you call me all kinds of dirty words, right?"

Bai Zhiyan really thought he was sick.

"You've been calling me dead fish face, too. Why are you blaming me?"

Che Jingcan choked when he heard his words, having forgotten about this.

"Then I won't call you Dead Fish Face anymore, and you are not allowed to call me those messy nicknames anymore."

"I do not want it."

Bai Zhiyan already had a stress response when he called his name. Although he was not so afraid of Che Jingcan now, his body's instinctive reaction and psychological effects still kept him stuck, so he would rather Che Jingcan call him a dead fish face.

"Are you okay? Are you unhappy if I don't call you Dead Fish Face?"

"Don't call me by my name. You can call me anything you want. My name won't do."

There is nothing wrong with what Bai Zhiyan said. He is older than Che Jingcan, and it must be uncomfortable for someone younger than him to call him by his full name.

"Why are you so nosy? What's your name?"

Che Jingcan was a little impatient. Xu Shiyuan was the only one in the world who could call him Zhiyan, right?

Bai Zhiyan looked at his face that looked like it was about to snow and suddenly came up with a bad idea.

"Didn't I tell you before that I'm older than you?" He paused slightly, and when he saw Che Jingcan deliberately avoiding his gaze, he instantly felt like he had gotten revenge.

"Why don't you call me brother?"

"Don't be so self-indulgent here. If you are not allowed to call me by my name, then don't call me by my name. Don't wait until I call you dead fish face and then regret it!"

Che Jingcan kept uttering harsh words, but the tips of his ears were unknowingly covered with red gauze.

The rest of the meal was finally finished by the two of them quietly.

After finishing his meal and walking out of the store, Che Jingcan saw that Bai Zhiyan had no reaction or expression, so he couldn't help but speak first.

"Dead Fish Face, you had a good meal today, didn't you? If you continue to eat with me in the future, you can eat this kind of food every day." Che Jingcan crossed his arms and raised his eyebrows at him.

"And let me serve you as a servant, huh?"

"Tsk, I'm not familiar with that. I'll serve you next time."

Bai Zhiyan glanced at him coldly and then quickened his pace to walk in front of him, "Stop talking nonsense, there won't be a next time, I'll finish this meal with you today and we'll be even."

"What do you mean?"

He grabbed Bai Zhiyan who was still moving forward.

"What does it mean to be clear of all charges?"

"You asked me to have a barbecue with you today in return for bringing me breakfast, and I've done that, so we're even now."

What is the meaning of "clearing up"? It is clear that they will never be clearing up. He does not know whether it is wrong to take revenge on the people in this life for the resentment in the previous life, but he knows that no matter how many times they are reborn, the nature of these people will not change.

It is said that every evildoer will be punished by his own evildoer, but Bai Zhiyan always has a stubborn persistence in his heart. He cannot bear to become an evil person, but he cannot pretend to be a saint who can forgive everything. This leaves him with this frustration and turns him into a contradiction that he does not want to live or die.

But now he said that everything was clear with him. He began to recall the misfortunes of his previous life. Dizziness, nausea and pain came over him again. He always had a feeling that his body and brain instinctively rejected his memories of those tragic past.

Is it more painful to remember or to forget? He was puzzled.

Bai Zhiyan suddenly felt that he was ridiculous and pathetic. He was willing to make friends with his enemy for revenge. He was clearly hypocritical but he pretended to be deeply in love.

"Bai Zhiyan, what do you take me for?"

Che Jingcan tried to pull him hard, but Bai Zhiyan was stopped by his strange strength.

"What should I think of you as?" he asked back. "Every time we met, we didn't have any memorable memories. If we have to say we have any relationship, it's just that we were classmates from the same school."

"Classmate? Is this the relationship in your mind?" Che Jingcan gradually increased the strength of his hands and frowned.

"Otherwise, do you think we are friends?"