Lima syndrome

Bai Zhiyan didn't know how many days had passed since he was taken away by Che Jingcan.

Since he left country H, he has rarely had contact with people from country H. Even Ji Seung-hoon and Bai Ji-young don't know where he is or what he is doing after he went abroad. They would only briefly report their safety during the holidays.

So the situation is very bad for him now.

He had no means of communication and had no idea of ​​the situation outside. He was locked up by Che Jingcan in a villa surrounded by mountains. There was only an aunt who cleaned the house and cooked for him every day. There was a security guard outside the door, apparently because they were worried that he would escape.

Bai Zhiyan sneered in his heart. There were surveillance cameras everywhere in the room, but he was still so uneasy. Was he not confident in himself or was he overestimating him?

Although Che Jingcan has locked people in his own area, he doesn't come here every day.

The reunion after many years was worse than he had imagined. Perhaps Bai Zhiyan hated him even more now than when they first met. Even though he could touch Bai Zhiyan at any time now, he still didn't dare to get close to him.

Whenever he met Bai Zhiyan, he would uncontrollably want to possess him completely, but he always had that disgusted expression on his face, and the hatred in his eyes suffocated him.

So Che Jingcan cowardly chose to escape, perhaps it wouldn't be so painful if he didn't see him in person.

Every day he stared at the surveillance camera connected to the villa like a voyeur. He wanted to know what Bai Zhiyan was doing every day, whether he ate and slept well, or... whether he had ever thought about escaping.

But Bai Zhiyan seemed calmer than he thought. He made a lot of noise and beat and scolded him madly when he was first brought back, but now he seemed to have accepted the reality. He ate on time every day, read books and watched TV, and occasionally sat on the balcony on the second floor and daydreamed.

Compared with his calmness, Che Jingcan felt that he had reached his limit. The person he had been looking for for so many years was now by his side, but he didn't dare to get close.

Over the years, he suffered from insomnia almost every night, and had to rely on alcohol to fall asleep most of the time. He originally thought that this condition would disappear after finding Bai Zhiyan, but except for the few days after he brought him back and forced himself to sleep with him, his insomnia became more and more serious.

Why, Bai Zhiyan, is it only by giving up on you that I can get close to you?

Che Jingcan looked at Bai Zhiyan who was sleeping peacefully on the monitor and drank glass of wine frantically.

He would occasionally stay at his own home, lie on the bed, unbutton his collar, grab a piece of clothing that was already beginning to fray and hug it tightly in his arms. That was the piece of clothing he had gotten from Bai Zhiyan six years ago by pretending to be pitiful.

It was the only thing that belonged to Bai Zhiyan that he got.

Holding the clothes in his arms, he felt so pathetic. The person was clearly in his hands, but because of his cowardice, he could only hold his things like a poor creature and think of him.

The man who had been unable to sleep to begin with was now even more awake. He stood up and wanted to take a shower, but his calf accidentally hit a cardboard box while walking.

He lowered his head and frowned slightly, only to find that this was Bai Zhiyan's thing.

After he brought Bai Zhiyan back to Country H that day, he asked his men to pack up his things and bring them back. After he asked his men to put them in his room, he never thought about it again until now.

A small cardboard box with very few things in it, just like Bai Zhiyan's indifferent personality. He doesn't like anything and seems to have no attachment to anything.

He squatted down and briefly flipped through the contents of the cardboard box. There were a few books, all of which were works by Shakespeare. Bai Zhiyan had good grades in school. When he recalled the past when he was his deskmate, his eyebrows softened a lot.

Che Jingcan randomly opened a book, it was "Romeo and Juliet", and he saw a sentence marked by Bai Zhiyan.

"On the wings of love I flew over the garden wall, for walls of brick and stone could not keep love out."

In an instant, there was a flash of thunder, and the dazzling light shone on his tense face, making it look pale. He put down the book with trembling hands, and the blood in his body began to boil.

He once said this to Bai Zhiyan.

Six years ago, in order to apologize to Bai Zhiyan, he sneaked into his house, climbed up the tree in front of his window to the balcony on the second floor, and waited for him for a long time on a stormy night before he softened his heart.

He used this sentence to confess his love to Bai Zhiyan at that time.

But why did he mark this sentence separately?

It was as if an electric current ran through Che Jingcan's limbs and his body trembled uncontrollably. After putting down the book, he began to look for other things.

It was like he was looking for proof that Bai Zhiyan also had feelings for him.

He succeeded.

When he found the cat pendant that he had given him six years ago among the junk, his heart was deeply moved. He held the thing tightly to his chest and knelt on the ground crying bitterly, just like when his mother died many years ago.

He wanted to rush to Bai Zhiyan immediately. He wanted to question him with these things. He wanted to get a real answer.

Stormy nights always make people uncomfortable. Bai Zhiyan tossed and turned in bed for a long time before he felt a little sleepy. As soon as he fell asleep, he was drawn into a dream.

He dreamed of the day when the news of Bai Zhengren's death was broadcast on TV.

It was snowing heavily outside the house at that time. He was controlled by Bai Jitai and could not escape from the Bai family. He was standing in front of the window watching the snow outside. Because the cold air caused the glass window to fog up, he unconsciously wrote something on the window, and then he quickly wiped it off when Bai Jitai appeared.

Bai Jitai was unable to see what he wrote, but he clearly saw what he had written on it in his dream.

It’s Cha Kyung-chan’s name.

Another thunder flashed outside the window, and Bai Zhiyan was awakened. He hunched over and gasped.

Recalling the content of the dream, he himself was not sure whether it was because of those words or the bad weather that woke him up.

When Che Jingcan arrived at the villa, he ignored the driver who offered to help hold an umbrella for him. He braved the wind and rain and strode straight to the door and headed for Bai Zhiyan's room.

Bai Zhiyan, who was awakened, stared blankly at Che Jingcan who broke into the room. His clothes were wet from the rain and stuck to his body, and his red eyes were under his messy hair.

"Why are you here?"

A statement that was not a question came out of Bai Zhiyan's mouth. He never hid his disgust when facing Che Jingcan. He frowned and spoke in an unfriendly tone.

Che Jingcan has long been accustomed to his attitude towards him, but his heart still hurts.

He wanted to get closer to Bai Zhiyan, but he was still concerned about his wet clothes. He took off his clothes and sat on the edge of the bed.

“Ji Yan, were you woken up by the thunder?”

Bai Zhiyan moved away from him with an unpleasant look on his face, and said in a cold voice, "What? Are you worried that I couldn't sleep and came to see me?"

After smelling the alcohol on him and looking at his naked upper body, Bai Zhiyan sneered contemptuously, "Or do you want to do that kind of thing with me?"

Che Jingcan didn't say anything. He looked at Bai Zhiyan with complicated and fiery eyes. When Bai Zhiyan thought he would not answer and was about to send him away, Che Jingcan suddenly asked him.

"Why do you still keep the things I gave you?"

His voice couldn't hide the trembling, and in the dead silent room, it fell into Bai Zhiyan's ears exactly.

Bai Zhiyan was stunned for a moment, and a trace of panic flashed in his eyes as he turned his face away. He suppressed his wildly beating heart and pretended to be indifferent and calm.

"what are you saying?"

Che Jingcan turned his body over, held the cat pendant in front of him, and asked him again, "Why do you still keep the gift I gave you?"

Bai Zhiyan closed his eyes and did not answer. Che Jingcan did not let go either. The room fell into an eerie silence.

"Why did you keep it?" Che Jingcan pressed on in a hoarse voice.

Bai Zhiyan was silent for a moment before he finally opened his eyes and replied mockingly, "I just forgot to throw it away."

"What about your books?" Che Jingcan pinched his cheek to make him look at him, "Why do you have so many Shakespeare books? You know I read his books every day when I was in school."

"I just like reading. This has nothing to do with you."

"What about Romeo and Juliet? Why did you choose to mark the words I once said?"

Bai Zhiyan opened his mouth, but didn't know how to refute. Che Jingcan's eyes seemed to see through him, leaving him nowhere to hide.

"It has nothing to do with you..."

Seeing his evasion, Che Jingcan's tone became more and more urgent. He almost shouted the last words, "You have been on the run for so many years, why did you stay in Country Y? Isn't it because I once told you that we could get married and live there!"

"I didn't! I didn't! These are all your imaginations!"

“You can’t fool me, Jiyeon.”

Che Jingcan hugged him tightly in his arms, his eyes full of sadness, "Don't lie anymore, you like me too, you do like me."

"Shut up! I don't like you! There's no way I can like you!"

Bai Zhiyan didn't have the strength to break free from Che Jingcan. His whole body was shaking, cold sweat was pouring down his forehead, and his heart felt like there was a hole in it and air was blowing in.

Che Jingcan held Bai Zhiyan and refused to let go, as if the person in front of him would disappear again if he let go.

"Get away! Let me go!"

"Why? You obviously like me, why don't you admit it!"

Che Jingcan will never know the reason.

Bai Zhiyan tried his best to push him away, but instead he fell to the ground in embarrassment. Che Jingcan's words kept echoing in his mind.

He recalled the countless nights in the past when he had stared at the cat pendant; his heartbeat would speed up every time he read Shakespeare's books; during his days in Country Y, there was always a hint of uneasiness and anticipation deep in his heart.

But he couldn't like Che Jingcan. Once he admitted that he liked him, how would he give an explanation to his previous life, how could he be worthy of the self who died with hatred, how could he betray the self who was in so much pain.

"Don't dream about it, Che Jingcan. There's no way I'll fall in love with you."

Che Jingcan pulled him back to the bed and slid his fingers across his pale face. "You little liar, you are a habitual liar."

"You lied all the time. I won't believe you anymore."

His palms were deeply embedded in Bai Zhiyan's hair. The calmness beneath his forced endurance was actually surging with sinisterness. This crazy look made Bai Zhiyan feel suffocated.

He pinched Bai Zhiyan's jaw with his other hand and kissed him fiercely on the lips.

This was a kiss full of bloody smell. Che Jingcan bit through Bai Zhiyan's lips, bringing the fishy-sweet smell into his mouth, pressing against the tip of his tongue and entwining endlessly.

"Well--"

Bai Zhiyan was breathless from his kiss, his chest heaving up and down in the darkness. Che Jingcan held him down forcefully, and his two hands could not push his body away.

When Che Jingcan let him go, both of their lips were stained with blood, which flashed a seductive and strange light under the dim light.

He raised his hand and pressed Bai Zhiyan's bitten lip, and blood slowly flowed out.

A trace of pain appeared on Bai Zhiyan's face. He wanted to avoid Che Jingcan's touch, but he was pressed on the bed and couldn't turn over.

"What do you want to do?" He asked Che Jingcan with forced calmness.

When their eyes met, Bai Zhiyan was not sure whether he saw a smile in his eyes. It was as if the evil smile that he often showed to her six years ago was brought to Che Jingcan's face today.