When Wei Wuxian traveled back in time

Just six simple words sum it all up. There’s no need for any lengthy discussion, just six words.

I can't find you.

In the illusion, Little Lan Zhan saw everything in Big Lan Zhan’s vision from a first-person perspective, including how Big Lan Zhan had gone against the crowd and brought Wei Wuxian back to the cave in Yiling, how he had received thirty-three lashes, and how he had searched for Wei Wuxian at the mass grave after learning that he was dead, searching like crazy for days...

He had seen and felt everything through Lan Zhan's body in the illusion. The grief of learning that Wei Wuxian was dead, not believing it, and running to the mass grave, but not being able to find him, was so real that he could not extricate himself from it.

Tears kept flowing down uncontrollably. If his body lying on the bed had not sensed Wei Wuxian's movements, little Lan Zhan would probably have sunk deeper and deeper into it, and might even never wake up from the world without Wei Wuxian.

After little Lan Zhan said those words, tears already welled up in his eyes.

Wei WuXian hurriedly coaxed him lovingly: “Alright, alright, I’m right here, not going anywhere, right in front of you, I’ll appear in front of you anytime you want, okay?”

The faint light of water in little Lan Zhan's eyes made his eyes look watery and misty. Coupled with his unchanged expression, he looked like a beautiful martyr.

Wei Wuxian couldn’t stand Lan Wangji like this, he looked so vulnerable: “Don’t cry, okay? I’m yours, no one can take me away.”

Little Lan Zhan blinked slowly and uttered two words lightly: "I didn't cry."

"Okay, okay, I'm not crying, I'm not crying."

Wei WuXian kissed his forehead and said, “Lan Zhan, no matter what you saw, it’s all in the past. Let the past be the past.”

"Originally, I was thinking whether I should tell you about the Wen family. If I tell you, you can take precautions in advance when you go back, so that you won't make the same mistake again."

“Perhaps after I tell you, our future will change.” Wei Wuxian smiled.

"Don't put too much pressure on yourself. The Wen family is at its peak at this time, and it can't be eliminated overnight. After all, there are still many cowards in the family. They don't know how to resist unless the fire burns on their heads."

"Even if you knew it in advance, it wouldn't change the course of the Sun Shooting Expedition. But maybe if you knew it, you might be able to take precautions after returning, and the result might be different."

After being kissed, little Lan Zhan's eyes were a little erratic and evasive. In fact, ever since he woke up from the illusion, his mind had been struggling with one thing, which was whether or not to say that this was actually just an illusion.

But what little Lan Zhan could never understand was why everything here was so real, the Xuanwu Cave, the Nevernight City, the mass grave, the thirty-three whips, every scene that happened frightened him, and every event was so grand, not at all like an illusion, otherwise he would not have been so obsessed with the scene of losing Wei Wuxian.

Is this really just Wei Ying's obsession? Or is there something else about Wei Ying that he doesn't know?

Should he just say it now? But it would seem so pale and powerless. After all, even little Lan Zhan's own consciousness has begun to feel that everything that happened here is real.

He was attracted by the people and things in this world and wanted to stay here, with Wei Ying.

Here is the Cloud Recesses, his brothers, the naughty but polite younger generations, and Wei Ying, who can communicate with him and is accepted by the Lan family and the secular world.

He... really likes this place, not for anything else, but just for Wei Ying who is so warm and sincere in this fantasy world.

Little Lan Zhan had a sullen face, his hands tightly grasping the quilt on one side, his brows becoming increasingly tight. He wanted to speak, wanted to tell Wei Wuxian, wanted to take him away from here quickly, but there was another consciousness in his mind that kept pulling him back, telling him not to speak, and to stay here with them.

That consciousness was telling him that if he said it, how could he explain this grand illusion and make Wei Ying believe that he was truly from the real world.

The two consciousnesses are pulling at each other.

At this moment, even the consciousness of little Lan Zhan that wanted to bring Wei Ying back to reality was in a very weak position, and was gradually dominated by another consciousness.

It was really, really pale. Now that he thought about it carefully, in the real world, he and Wei Ying had been classmates for less than three months. But here, they had not only experienced life and death, but also known each other for more than 20 years. After going through so much, they finally became Taoist companions. And his less than three months was really, really insignificant.

He was so insignificant that he really couldn't say it. If he hadn't seen so many things happening in the environment, he would have found a suitable time to tell him about it, and then they would go back together.

But he happened to see it. He had a lot of Da Lan Zhan's memories. He could imagine how Wei Ying had lived alone for so many years after his death. He put himself in Da Lan Zhan's shoes and felt that he should not disturb them.

Little Lan Zhan was confused and felt that he was the superfluous person. Wei Ying and Big Lan Zhan were very happy now, and he was like an intruder.

His mind was in a mess at this moment, and he even began to doubt the reality of his real world.

The reason and memory of both sides were competing with each other. The memory of taking Wei Ying back in the real world conflicted with the memory of Lan Zhan he saw in the illusion. Too many things had turned his brain into a mess.

The memory of little Lan Zhan wants him to take Wei Ying back quickly, while the memory of big Lan Zhan tells him that Wei Ying originally came here, and you are the outsider.

This helpless and entangled feeling made him almost collapse.

It was rare that the second young master Xiaolan, who was always well-behaved and elegant, lost his composure for the second time in one day.

He leaned weakly against the wall beside the bed, staring at Wei Wuxian with a distracted look.

He couldn't stay here any longer. If he stayed any longer, his consciousness would sooner or later be engulfed by everything that happened here.

In fact, if little Lan Zhan had not seen so much in the illusion and had not experienced so many things in such a short period of time, his mind would still be able to remain clear and make accurate judgments, that is, he would wake up Wei Wuxian and take him away with him even at the cost of his life.

But now there are many more things about Lan Zhan in his mind. Lan Zhan's loss of Wei Ying deeply hurts his heart.

His subconscious began to compete for the position of his main consciousness, making him unable to judge why he came here and what he should do. Even after regaining the memories of Da Lan Zhan, he began to feel that he was himself and that he belonged to this world.

(Hint: Little Lan Zhan stayed here for too long, and after integrating a lot of Big Lan Zhan’s memories, his consciousness began to be assimilated.)