Quick Wear: I was a Favored Concubine in the Qing Dynasty

Chapter 80

The cold outside the window turned into a sweet warm breeze inside the carriage.

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The queen's carriage was the third one. When she saw Yu Suisui sitting in Qianlong's carriage, she thought of her past self. At that time, when the emperor invited her, she always thought about the rules and must not make things difficult for the emperor.

I never went up every time.

The person who went up now was the little orphan girl whom no one had ever thought of before.

Thinking of this, the queen felt that she had been ridiculous before. The emperor's love could change in an instant and disappear in an instant.

Yuzhu sat in the carriage with the queen, and her heart ached when she saw her dazed and dejected look.

"Your Majesty, it's all that Concubine Jing's fault..."

"Yuzhu, stop talking. Without Concubine Jing, maybe it would be Concubine Chun." The queen felt very sad, but the pain during this period made her start to see things that she had never seen before.

The emperor always said that he liked her and always distinguished her from other concubines. She also always felt that she was different from other concubines.

But what's the difference?

She would also lose the emperor's favor, and even as the queen, she could not rule the six palaces by herself and had to share power with Concubine Gao.

Does the emperor really like her?

The queen began to doubt at this moment. The heartfelt words spoken by the queen mother now entered her mind again.

What is she?

Is she a queen? Or a servant?

After leaving the Queen Mother that day, she went back and had a dream. She was not clear about what was in the dream, but she only remembered that she was alone at the end, walking across the Naihe Bridge.

There was no emperor, no children, and no one to accompany her. She floated across the Naihe Bridge alone and drank Mengpo soup, but even one bowl was not enough.

She drank three bowls in a row, saying that she wanted to forget about her future.

Yuzhu observed the queen carefully. She was even more silent than before.

"Your Majesty, if you are unhappy about something, please don't keep it in your heart. Talk to me. Although I can't do anything, I can at least listen." She had heard the old ladies say that when a person is sad and desperate, they will not say a word.

Yuzhu was very worried about the queen's condition.

The queen raised the corner of her mouth, smiled, and comforted Yuzhu, "Yuzhu, I'm fine, it's just that some things seem to have been figured out by myself."

She seemed to have emerged from the fog all of a sudden, as if she had seen the sun through the clouds, but she was still very confused.

She was a little overwhelmed and didn't know where her future lay.

The emperor does not need a queen who loves him, nor does he need a queen who can manage the harem diligently.

Any of the concubines mentioned above, such as Concubine Jing, Concubine Chun, and Concubine Jia, can be replaced.

The next noble concubine Gao has already taken her place.

By now, she had begun to understand why the Queen Mother had been so disappointed in her in the past. She really did it for her own good, but she hadn't grasped the situation at all.

She hated the empress dowager for not being good enough and the emperor for going back on his word. The sweet words were still ringing in her ears, but the beauty in her arms was even more in her heart.

The emperor must like Concubine Jing very much, so much so that he can promote her as long as he finds a reason.

She didn't understand it before and had no idea that the emperor had abandoned her without her knowing.

She had long been abandoned by the emperor.

Yuzhu became even more worried when she heard the Queen say this. "Your Majesty, please don't be like this. It's okay if you're still the same as before, whether you're angry or scolding people. Don't be like now, as if you don't care about anything."

This is really like what those mothers said, that they have seen everything and have nothing to love anymore.

Too dangerous.

Seeing that she had frightened Yuzhu, the queen quickly comforted her, "Yuzhu, I really have come to terms with it. I don't want to commit suicide."

I just realized that I am not the most special person in the eyes of the emperor.

That was just a casual remark from the Emperor. It wasn't true. It wasn't true that she was the most special one in the Emperor's eyes. She really had no self-awareness in the past.

How could she take it for granted that what the emperor said was about her?

"Really?" Yuzhu's eyes were filled with worry. "Your Majesty, if you have anything, you must tell me. Although I am useless, I can still listen to what you say."

The queen held Yuzhu's hand tightly. Until now, Yuzhu was the only one who remained consistent. She had done what she herself could not do.

"Yuzhu, I'm really fine. I seem to have let go of the obsession in my heart, seen through those obstacles, and broken through them." She no longer thinks about testing the emperor.

I don't want to test the emperor again and again to prove whether I am the one and only one in his heart.

The emperor doesn't have her in his heart at all.

"I will be fine in the future. I won't be like before, always making you worry." Yuzhu followed her from Fucha Mansion to the Prince's Mansion, and now to the Imperial Palace, and she has never had a good day.

She couldn't go on like this, she wanted to become the queen that the Queen Mother said she would be.

When Yuzhu heard the queen say this, tears of emotion burst out like a flood, "Your Majesty, this servant..."

"Good Yuzhu, don't cry, we will live a good life from now on." She will be the emperor's queen in the future. She will shoulder the responsibilities of a queen and will no longer be confused like she is now.

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The Queen Mother heard a faint sound behind her and asked, "What happened to the Queen?" The carriage she was riding in was very close to the Queen's carriage.

Aunt Chun: "Should I ask someone to go and ask?" There seemed to be some movement, but she couldn't hear what it was.

"No need. It will be troublesome to travel on the road." The Queen Mother had given up on the Queen, but she was thinking about Yonglian and Fulgochun, the two children. Sometimes, she still had to consider the Queen from the perspective of these two children.

Aunt Chun said: "I heard that before leaving, Concubine Chun sent two cans of milk to Concubine Jia." Concubine Chun did not hide this matter. She sent it over openly.

The Queen Mother: "That's how the Su family is. They'll step on you whenever they get the chance." The Queen Mother had no feelings for Concubine Chun, nor did she dislike her.

This wasn't the first or second time she had done these little tricks. It was said that when they were in the palace, Concubine Chun and Concubine Jia didn't get along. Now that she had the chance, she naturally wanted to take advantage of them.

"But you should also remind the Imperial Concubine that the child in Jiapin's belly is, after all, the Emperor's offspring. Don't let Concubine Chun really cause any trouble."

Aunt Chun nodded and said, "The Empress Dowager now trusts the Imperial Concubine more and more." No one would have thought before that the Empress Dowager did not dislike the Imperial Concubine's beautiful appearance at all, and even thought that her appearance was very generous and comfortable.