I failed again

Si Heng finished his meal in silence, looking at Lin Ze who was still eating and thinking about how to start the conversation.

Lin Ze glanced at him, then looked away, wondering what he was going to do.

Si Heng pondered for a long time before speaking, "How about we finalize the divorce today?"

Lin Ze put down his chopsticks and looked at Si Heng. After a long while, he asked, "Do you really want a divorce?"

Si Heng nodded and said, "You told me before we got married that we would divorce once the Lin family's affairs were resolved. Now that they have been resolved, it's time to deal with the affairs between us."

Lin Ze closed his eyes and did not avoid the topic anymore. He said, "But I don't want to get a divorce now."

Si Heng clenched his hands under the table. He tried to calm himself and said, "Lin Ze, this joke is not funny."

"I'm not kidding, I really don't want to divorce you." Lin Ze said.

Si Heng blurted out, "Why?"

Lin Ze looked at him steadily and spoke clearly, "Because I like you, so I don't want to divorce you. I want to be with you forever."

When Si Heng heard this, he was stunned.

Although he had this guess, before Lin Ze said it, he could still deceive himself and say that he was overthinking it.

But now that Lin Ze said this himself, he could no longer lie to himself.

"No, Lin Ze, are you sure you are awake now? Let's wait until you are awake and then talk about this again." Si Heng stood up in a panic and was about to leave, but was grabbed by Lin Ze's wrist.

"I am very sober and can repeat it to you again, I like you..." Lin Ze was interrupted by Si Heng before he could finish his words.

"Lin Ze, do you think I will believe you?" Si Heng asked, "We have been married for so long and have developed no feelings for each other. Now we are about to get divorced. You come and tell me that you like me?"

"Other people who get married first and then fall in love at least have to spend time together day and night and fall in love over time. What's going on between us...? It's nothing, right?"

"Your love comes too unexpectedly, doesn't it?"

Lin Ze held Si Heng's hand as he tried to break free and said, "You may think that my love for you is inexplicable, but it's not the case for me."

Acting together in front of his grandmother, one of the few private parts in the old house, made his feelings sprout little by little, but because of Xia Youyan's existence, he ignored this emotion.

"Okay, you said it wasn't. Come on, tell me in detail how it happened." Si Heng was so angry that he laughed. If it wasn't inexplicable, what else could it be? Huh?

Mingming, not long ago, because of Xia Youyan's false accusation, he forced himself to kneel down and apologize to Xia Youyan; at the wedding banquet, he indiscriminately pushed the Chinese medicine incident onto him and used him as the antidote; and because he was afraid that he would retaliate against Xia Youyan, he locked himself up in the manor until now; not to mention what Lin Ze had done before, just these were enough to make him wonder how Lin Ze's feelings came about!

What? Could it be that because he saw me being bullied without any ability to fight back and thought I was weak and could be bullied, he fell in love with me?

Leaving a big spectrum!

"...You were very well-behaved and clingy to me in front of grandma and the others." Even though he knew that Si Heng was acting at that time, Lin Ze still felt excited when he recalled that scene.

He liked them like that, as if they were really a loving couple who got married first and then fell in love, without so many things between them, and they were not acting, but really had a good relationship.

Si Heng's face was full of confusion.

Excuse me, is Lin Ze serious?

Is he mentally ill?

"No, brother, do you remember that we were acting?" Si Heng's voice was trembling. He began to doubt whether Lin Ze had forgotten that they were acting and pretending to be a sweet newlywed couple!

Lin Ze nodded silently, "But I really hope that it's not acting."

Si Heng looked at Lin Ze dully. What? Did you fall in love because of the drama?

Si Heng tried to hold back, but couldn't hold it back any longer and said, "No, Lin Ze, if it really doesn't work, let's go to the hospital to check our brains, okay?"

"If you are worried that the news of you going to the hospital to see a neurosurgeon will have a bad impact on the Lin family, you can ask your private doctor to help you check it out, really." Go and have a look. If you are sick, you should seek medical treatment as soon as possible!

"...No need, I'm not mentally ill." Lin Ze said.

Can you say this if you are not sick?

Lin Ze looked at Si Heng's suspicious eyes and miraculously understood what he meant. "...I really think so."

"Si Heng, why do we have to get divorced? Isn't our current life together very good?" Lin Ze asked.

"Stop." Si Heng stretched out his hand and said, "First of all, we agreed on our divorce before we got married. Secondly, we were just acting in front of Grandma Lin to hide it from them. This was also agreed before we got married. Finally, I don't think our current lifestyle is good. It's not good at all. I really don't like it."

"In fact, I feel uncomfortable being with you. What you call good is only for you and has nothing to do with me."

Lin Ze's eyes were dim, and his eyebrows were full of sadness. Si Heng ignored it and continued, "Besides, when we got married in the beginning, it was also made clear that I would be a fig leaf for your relationship with Xia Youyan. When you completely control the Lin family and don't need me anymore, you will divorce me and then marry Xia Youyan."

"This is a promise you made before. You can't break it just because you and Xia Youyan broke up."

Lin Ze didn't say anything. What Si Heng said was all true and he couldn't find any point to refute.

If only he had known his feelings for Si Heng earlier; or, if he had known Xia Youyan’s true face earlier, he and Si Heng would not be facing the current situation.

Lin Ze said in a hoarse voice, "Si Heng, give me one chance, just three months. During these three months, we will get along as we acted in front of grandma and the others. After three months, if you still don't like me, we can talk about divorce, okay?"

"Just three months, okay?" Lin Ze looked at Si Heng with pleading eyes.

Si Heng was hard-hearted and said, "Not good."

"Why?" Lin Ze asked, "How do you know if it's good if you don't try it?"

"I can tell you clearly right now that I will never fall in love with you no matter what. Not to mention in three months, even in three years, I will never fall in love with you."

"So, there is really no need for us to waste these three months. It would be better to get the divorce done as soon as possible." Si Heng said.

He must be mentally handicapped to agree to give it a try with Lin Ze. By then, the matter will be suppressed, and it will be difficult for him to file for divorce again.

It is better to resolve the matter now. The longer we delay, the more uncertainties there will be.

Isn’t this an example?

Lin Ze, who treated me coldly a few months ago, now says shamelessly that he likes me. If I really believe what Lin Ze said, I may not be able to leave in another three months.

"It's not a waste, Si Heng, just give it a try. If you don't try, how do you know that you will not change your mind?" Lin Ze pleaded.

"I won't change even if you kill me, so just give up on this idea." Si Heng said, "Don't be like this, why don't we just follow our previous agreement and get a divorce?"

"No." Lin Ze said, "I don't want to divorce you. I want to spend my whole life with you."

Si Heng laughed sarcastically, "Lin Ze, what kind of joke are you talking about? Can't we just part ways amicably? Do we have to end up with a mess that will make both sides unhappy?"

Still want to spend the rest of your life with me? Pah, he wants to, but I don't.

When I thought about spending the rest of my life with him, I felt dizzy.

However, Si Heng was still very scared when he saw Lin Ze's red eyes, fearing that he would suddenly explode and do something bad to him.

After analyzing the pros and cons in his mind, Si Heng decisively chose to calm Lin Ze's emotions first before talking about other things. Otherwise, he was really afraid that Lin Ze would go crazy and hurt him by accident.

By then, the loss will outweigh the gain.