I became Kevin: Star Railway

Her expression was filled with sorrow.

"I... forgot the name of God..."

"What does it mean?"

"Each god becomes a God of Judgment after choosing a Chosen One, but I... have forgotten all my memories before becoming the God of Judgment."

Haiyue stated quietly.

"The only thing I remember is the tenderness in my heart... and the desire for beauty."

Kevin could sense a sense of sadness from her every word.

"And the fact that I'm... not gentle."

She thought back to the distant past.

"God is merely the embodiment of power. He should be controlled by the omniscience and omnipotence. He has no emotions and is not considered alive. I think I should have exchanged God's name and memories for emotions, love and tenderness. What I got should have been the taboo that God should not touch."

What Haiyue said was similar to what Kevin knew.

The Herrschers of their world had no emotions at first, until Alicia's sacrifice, which gave the Herrschers of later generations the possibility of awakening their humanity.

So Haiyue is...

"Without noticing this, I followed my heart as the nameless god, performed miracles of God underground, and saved everyone I could without anyone knowing. Somehow, I just wanted to do this."

Haiyue looked up at the sky blankly, but there was only dirt above.

"One day, I met a believer who made a vow to God for revenge because his daughter was killed. His daughter was the chosen one who died in a holy war. According to Rodney's teachings, the chosen one will go to God after death, which is more pleasing than anything else. However, his daughter said..."

There seemed to be drops of water flowing in Haiyue's eyes.

"She wanted to be with her father more than with God, which made him extremely sad. He wanted revenge even if it meant betraying the teachings. He begged me repeatedly, hoping that I would kill that person. He said that only in this way could he be redeemed."

"What did you do?"

"I was not the Judge God at the time, and I could not punish the Chosen One. I tried to persuade him, but it was useless. So I used my power to create a fake doll that inherited his daughter's memory. It was no different from the real thing. I lied to him and said that I had resurrected his daughter."

Haiyue pursed her thin lips.

"After that, they lived happily. I thought I had saved him, but one day, he met the Chosen One again, and that person told him the truth. He couldn't accept it, so he fought to the death..."

She remained silent for a long time, her expression gloomy.

"That was my fault. I have been thinking about how to save his soul. Should I stop him from seeking revenge? However, the price for redeeming his heart will be the death of the Chosen One. In the end, someone will not be redeemed..."

His daughter would be killed, and it all came down to a question of upgrading the trial.

"It's impossible for a father to just ignore his daughter's murder. It's normal for him to seek revenge. This is not your fault."

Kevin tried to comfort.

"After that, I finally noticed that everything was connected. More than once, my salvation would unknowingly erase the salvation of others. Every time I saved someone, another person would die. Even God cannot bear the wishes of everyone."

Haiyue closed her eyes.

"There is no such thing as an omnipotent being. Even God is not omnipotent and cannot save everyone..."

She turned and looked at Kevin.

"I always hoped that my conclusion was wrong... I always hoped that someone would overturn the answer I came up with, and then when I went to the ground, I met you."

The corners of her lips were slightly raised, and that faint smile was incredibly beautiful.

"You are the savior who can crush the gods. I think you have a power that even gods cannot contend with. Maybe you can answer my question."

So she asked that question after they met?

But how much better can Kevin be than her?

Comrades, companions, and loved ones left one after another.

It was difficult for him to save any of them...

The sea moon gently caresses the ice crystals falling from the sky.

"Why am I a god if I can't save everyone?"

she said to herself.

"Why am I a god when I can't save the wicked, the sinners, the fools, and sometimes even ordinary people? God is just the shadow of the cocoon, and a shadow can't save anything."

The ice crystals slowly melted.

"I want to become a god who can save everyone, a real god."

Tears like glass flowed down her beautiful face.

"I probably... no, I must have thought so, so I gave up the past."

The ice crystals in her hand condensed into a long sword, and her right hand held the hilt.

"I was wrong. Perhaps sinners should not be saved. The failure you gave me is a punishment for my sins, but at the same time, it is a salvation that surpasses everything for me."

Haiyue swung the sword towards his neck.

"Goodbye, I hope you can win in the end."

As soon as she exerted force, the flames of destruction melted the ice sword.

She looked at Kevin in confusion.

"Watch carefully and see how I would deal with the man who couldn't even save you."

Haiyue still looked confused, but nodded.

Kevin walked up to Abel.

"It's almost time for you to come out of this fantasy."

Hearing this, Abel's hollow eyes brightened up a little, and after a few seconds, he stood up with wild laughter.

"Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!"

"I'm back! I'm finally back!"

The ecstasy of liberation from hell enveloped him.

After experiencing tens of thousands of times and being tortured by Rodney's followers with various methods, he is now a little crazy.

"You haven't lost your mind, that's a rare willpower."

"I am very clear-headed. I have never given up my faith in God!"

Good fellow, this person is a liar, worthy of him. Because if he does not publicize the fact that God does not exist, he will never wake up.

"Haha, heretic, I don't have time to care about you now. God's oracle has been sent down. My God Haiyue, let's retreat first. I have already figured out his abilities. As long as we gain new divine power, we will definitely be able to defeat him!"

Abel ran towards Haiyue.

"Sure enough, you didn't disappoint me."

This guy is pretending to believe in God and is ready to defeat me.

"Haiyue, tell him who you chose in this upgraded trial."

Kevin walked over to her.

"Let us go, my god."

Haiyue glanced at him lightly and declared with cold eyes.

"I can not do it."

"Huh!? What?"

Abel was speechless for a moment, but he quickly put on a pious expression again.

"What do you mean by can't do it? My God, for you, I am willing to challenge any trial. Please give me the oracle again, and I will bring relief to everyone."

Abel knelt on the ground and bowed deeply.

"Announce to my believers, Abel, that I chose you as the Chosen One in order to bring you salvation. I believed that it was precisely because you were hopeless that you were worth saving."

Haiyue said coldly.

"I would like to express my deepest gratitude to God for his kindness!"

Abel thanked him with a big smile on his face.

“But this was a mistake.”

His smile froze on his face, and then he forced himself to speak: "What are you talking about? How can God make mistakes?"

Haiyue looked at him with pity.

"Gods also make mistakes sometimes. I shouldn't have chosen you. Therefore, Haiyue, the God of Judgment, abides by the covenant and issues the final notice to you."

She spoke in a cold tone.

"You are not worthy of being God's agent. The person I choose is the one who has passed the judgment, the savior, Kevin Kaslana. Abel, I sentence you to become an ordinary believer and try to survive."

The light of the Covenant Necklace dimmed.

He lost his own God of Judgement, which meant that Abel lost his qualifications as the Chosen One.

Abel was stunned by all this, and suddenly thought of something.

How could his own god betray him? He chose a heretic who didn't believe in God.

Suddenly he understood.

"Fuck, I see, that's how it is! Kevin, that bastard, said that it would be over after 10,000 times of promotion, it turns out he was just fooling me, I was deceived by him for so long, it seems that the real way to leave this illusion is not what he said..."

"You're wrong, Abel."

Haiyue said from the side.

Abel scoffed at her words.

"Go away, stop telling me what to do. You don't think I really believe in any god, do you? This is just a disguise to better take advantage of you and those idiots."

Kevin looked down at him.

"Your attitude has really changed."

"What's the big deal? It's just an illusion. I don't have to act like a believer in God. It's really much easier. From childhood to adulthood, I have never felt so comfortable."

Abel got up from the ground. His broken leg was already healed thanks to his self-healing ability.

"If I could defeat Haiyue, I would really like to have a taste of this goddess. I just don't know if gods have that. It's a pity to lose such a beauty in the world."

He shook his head regretfully.

"It's the thousand and first time, Kevin, you should let me out."

Kevin chuckled at the clown.

"I've made it more difficult. If you want to get out, you have to work harder."

Abel glared at Kevin angrily.

"It's pointless to continue talking to you in the illusion. I tell you, Kevin, I have never really lost to you. I will never let you go. Just wait for the moment when I wake up. Hahaha!"

He ran away, leaving behind only a burst of laughter.

"You may never wake up again."

From this moment on, he will spread the word throughout the country that God does not exist, and because of the escalating difficulty Kevin mentioned, his behavior will gradually escalate.

When he realizes that this is not a nightmare but reality, I wonder what kind of dumbfounded expression he will have?

"As you can see Haiyue, I am not a god, and I have no intention of becoming one, so I will not extend a hand to save a terminally ill man."

Kevin walked up to her.

"If you want to be a god who saves everything, then don't expect others. Not everyone can let go of hatred, not everyone will be as heartbroken as you are, and have a kind heart. I am one of them."

Kevin stared into Haiyue's deep blue eyes.

"I will not take away your power, nor will I kill you. I will not do what you ask for on your behalf. If you still seek the god who can save everyone, then you can become that god."

Haiyue was stunned by Kevin's words.

But she still shook her head.

"I have committed a sin that should not be committed. I am a god who deserves to be punished. I have betrayed the trust of my believer and caused him to die..."

Kevin saw Haiyue's self-blaming look.

"Who would trust a god who has made mistakes? Who could forgive a god who is burdened with sin?"

What caused her so much torture was just a white lie. She wanted the believer to live happily, but the real culprit was the Chosen One.

Let me ask, does her sin really exist?

"Then let me forgive you."

These words made Haiyue's mouth open slightly.

"I am here to forgive your sins. If anyone in the underground dares to challenge you, I will be your backer."

Haiyue stood there in a daze, listening to what I said.

"If you firmly believe that you are guilty, then go and atone your sins."

Haiyue asked with her thin lips slightly opened.

"…What do you think we should do?"

"Save more people."

Kevin gave the answer.

Haiyue was silent for a long time.

Kevin spoke again: "You should have discovered the cause of the tragedy. Ask, how do you want to atone for your sins? Judge Shen Haiyue."

Haiyue stared at Kevin with empty eyes.

Then the will burned like a raging fire.

Haiyue confided to Kevin firmly.

"I want the Upgraded Trial to disappear. The death of that man's daughter and Rodney's desire to destroy Beloberg were all caused by the Upgraded Trial. If this continues, new disputes will arise and people will die again and again."

Her tears kept flowing.

"Savior, Kevin Kaslana can end this ritual if he joins you."

Haiyue said with tears in her eyes.

"Please... let me atone for my sins."

Kevin used Jiemie to cut his hand and dripped his blood on the covenant necklace that Haiyue gave him.

"I believe in you. I will never doubt your kindness."

Believing in God is a necessary condition for concluding a covenant.

"Become my god. Since you want to end the Ascension Trial, let me help you."

Haiyue's tears dripped into the necklace.

Kevin's necklace lit up with blue light.

That is the light that reflects the covenant between man and God.

There is only one oath between us.

——Destroy the upgraded trial.