Opening wedding night: the delicate heroine is pregnant

Qin Feixue looked at her and said, "Don't just look for the reasons in yourself in many cases."

“When you don’t have a problem, think about whether it’s someone else’s problem.”

Yan Juan's eyes widened: "Are you saying that there is something wrong with my man?"

No, no, no, that's definitely not the case.

She couldn't believe it. Most women these days regard men as their heaven.

If there is no man in the family, it would be like the sky has fallen. How could men who are like gods be wrong?

It must be her own fault.

"Impossible, how could there be anything wrong with him!" Yan Juan denied it directly.

"I must be the one with the problem. Maybe I drank your medicine and it got better on its own."

"Since you think so, you can go now. I have other things to do."

Qin Feixue was too lazy to tell her that a stubborn person who was trapped in self-doubt could not be awakened.

Seeing Yan Juan's expression, Aunt Wang also stammered, "Maybe what Fei Xue said is true. Think about it carefully. Have you had any physical discomfort in the past two years? Is your menstrual period normal?"

"If everything is normal, then why can't the one who doesn't work be your man."

Yan Juan is a typical rural woman. The knowledge and ideas instilled in her family since childhood are that men are respected and that women should not disobey men.

Changing her mind now is not something that can be accomplished with just a few words.

"Don't worry about it. Maybe I can get pregnant like Zhao Mei in a while."

After she finished speaking, she walked outside angrily.

When Aunt Wang saw Yan Juan leave, she pulled Qin Feixue's hand and whispered to her:

"In fact, Yan Juan's husband had broken off an engagement with someone else before marrying her, but Yan Juan was from another village so she didn't know."

"I heard that the reason for breaking off the engagement was infertility. This matter was a big deal at the time, so no one mentioned it."

"Yanjuan later married him and thought they could live a good life together, but she didn't expect that the man would leave the problem of not being able to get pregnant to her."

"Every day, he beats and scolds her and takes it out on her. Yan Juan endures it and always thinks it's her fault."

"She didn't even think about it. If that man was really her fault, he would have divorced her and remarried. Why would he keep her in the house?"

Qin Feixue did not participate in the discussion. She rarely commented on other people's affairs.

She would not show too much sympathy to people like Yan Juan. It was not because she was hard-hearted, but because it was not worth it.

They were willing and happy to do it, so they didn't need her sympathy.

This kind of feudal remnant thought should disappear with the traces of time.

Qin Feixue didn't think too much about it. Yan Juan didn't look very smart, so there must be someone behind this incident today.

As for who it was, she could probably guess, but she couldn't think too much about it.

As the saying goes, when soldiers come, the water will be blocked and the earth will cover it.

......

When Yan Juan returned home, she was relieved to see that Wang Daniu and the others had not returned yet.

This meant that she didn't have to be beaten as soon as she entered the house.

In fact, on the way home, the words of Qin Feixue and Aunt Wang kept echoing in her mind.

Why must she be the one with the problem? Is it just because she is a woman?

She didn't dare to say it, for fear that she would be beaten again if they found out.

But she would feel uncomfortable if she didn't do something.

Yanjuan thought back to when she first got married, Wang Daniu would take out a large piece of paper covered with densely packed small words every night and read it.

Whenever he saw her enter the room, he would quickly put it away without exception. If she curiously asked what it was, he would inevitably beat her.

Over time, she forgot about it.

I thought of it again today because of what Qin Feixue and Aunt Wang said.

Yanjuan returned to her room and searched through all the drawers for the paper, and finally found it in the deepest part of the closet.

She had not read much and only knew a few simple words. She also did not know how to read the black and white pictures printed on the paper.

She searched for the words on the paper one by one, and finally found the words she had been avoiding in the last large blank space.

Yan Juan's eyes turned red as she racked the few things in her mind and pronounced these two words.

Infertile.

It turns out that it really is...

It really wasn't her fault.

At this moment, she burst into tears. This was the education she had received for so many years, but now a report directly shattered her understanding.

She didn't know what to do.

Yanjuan put the things back where they belonged. She needed to think carefully about what to do next.

At this time, Wang Daniu and the others came back. She saw Yan Juan coming out of the room with red eyes, and it was obvious that she had just cried.

He was so angry that he took a few steps forward and slapped her several times:

"You're crying right after you got back. What bad luck."

"You just stay in the room and don't cook after coming back. Are you waiting for me to cook for you?!" Yan Juan was shocked by Wang Daniu's shout.

She was terrified, fearing that she would be slapped again, and hurried to the kitchen.

As he walked, he heard Wang Daniu cursing behind him: "You useless thing who can't even give birth to a child. You eat my food and live in my house every day. You are useless."

Yan Juan lowered her eyebrows slightly. This was the first time she thought it was not her fault when being scolded.

It was a completely new feeling, very subtle, and it was the first time she thought about fighting back.

But she still couldn't resist the deep-rooted ideas in her mind, and she worked hard without complaint.

......

Qin Feixue and Shen Xingzhou were having dinner at this time.

After more than two months, Shen Xingzhou's leg has completely healed.

His leg healed, which meant he could return to the army.

So the meal was particularly dull.

Shen Xingzhou put down his chopsticks and said, "The troops learned that I had recovered and called me yesterday to ask me to return to the team as soon as possible."

Qin Feixue paused while eating: "It's okay, you go, I'm fine staying at home alone."

There was no expression on her face, as if she was trying to pretend to be indifferent, but her eyes betrayed her.

After all, we have been together for more than two months. It would be a lie to say that there is no feeling between us.

Shen Xingzhou smiled and said, "Why do you look like you're about to cry? It's not like you won't be coming back."

After hearing this, Qin Feixue's face, which was not very happy to begin with, became even more sad.

"After I return to the army, I will be able to bring my family with me once my rank is promoted one level."

In the 70s, the qualifications for family members to accompany the troops were very strict, and not all officers' families were allowed to do so.

Instead, it must be the family members of officers above the rank of army commander or division commander.

Shen Xingzhou's position is battalion commander, just one level lower.

Qin Feixue nodded, and then was stunned. In fact, she didn't really want to follow the army. It would definitely be troublesome to follow too many soldiers. It would be better for her to live alone in a large compound with other officers' families.

Maybe I've been with Shen Xingzhou for too long, and I feel uncomfortable when I suddenly have to separate from him.

"Then when are you leaving?" Qin Feixue asked sullenly, poking the rice in the bowl.

Shen Xingzhou paused and said: "Tomorrow."

She paused, feeling suddenly sad.