Dr. Lin, you hurt me.

During the past few years of chatting with Professor Zhao, Lin Feng had a very thorough understanding of the principle that "doctors cannot treat themselves".

He listened to advice and gave up internal medicine at the beginning, but he is still willing to listen to advice now.

So, this time, he decided not to figure it out on his own and asked Zhai Xiuming to help him sort out his anxious emotions.

Zhai Xiuming felt that his early rise was definitely not in vain. This guy would make a big splash if he didn't make any.

He was the first to hear of this shocking news.

I heard from the doctors and nurses in their hospital that Lin Feng has a special feeling for the God of Wealth named Zhang Yan.

At first, I thought it was because the other party was a rich young master, plus the pressure from the dean. But I changed my mind and knew it was wrong. When did Lin Feng bow down for a few dollars? He was definitely a representative of not fearing power. Otherwise, it would be impossible for him to be among the top three in the number of complaints every year.

Is it because the work pressure is too great, and it is a rare opportunity to meet a peer with similar experience, so they feel a sense of sympathy?

Hey!

It turns out that there is such a reason behind this emotion.

"You don't have paranoia nor do you have a split personality. You're just anxious. What are you anxious about? He's just a patient with whom you have a good relationship." Zhai Xiuming was testing step by step. He was afraid that if he took too big a step, he would scare this dead duck away.

Lin Feng was not a fool, so he naturally knew that Zhai Xiuming was testing his bottom line.

There is nothing to test. Since he has called people here, he is ready to lay everything out.

"It's not a simple doctor-patient relationship. We have spent a few days together in private. I have some feelings for him, or maybe I like him."

Zhai Xiuming felt that he was completely awake and was frightened.

He finally pried open the pearl oyster, but what was inside was not pearls, but shock.

I have been friends with him for so many years, and I followed Raymond Lam like a little dog for so long. Even after those rumors spread in school, he used Raymond Lam to break up with his girlfriends.

Zhai Xiuming is a typical straight man. He thinks Lin Feng doesn't have a relationship because he is obsessed with studying and doesn't care about other things.

It turns out that’s not the case!

Zhai Xiuming didn't know whether he should be grateful to Lin Feng for not attacking him.

The more Zhai Xiuming thought about it, the more he felt that something was not right. It was not right.

If Raymond Lam likes someone of the same sex, why doesn't he do it to me? Is it because I don't have enough personality?

This shouldn't be the case. At the time, the girls who were chasing Zhai Xiuming lined up from the entrance of the East Canteen to the entrance of the West Canteen.

"Are you sure you like the same sex? This may also be an illusion caused by other emotional dependence." Zhai Xiuming said to Lin Feng earnestly. He suspected that Lin Feng had never had a deep relationship with the opposite sex, coupled with some experiences in his youth, which led to his emotional dependence on Zhang Yan.

Lin Feng knew what Zhai Xiuming was worried about, and he had analyzed it himself, and it should not be what Zhai Xiuming thought.

“I never got along well with girls when I was in school, but I never accepted a confession from a boy either. It doesn’t matter that I have no interest in dating, otherwise you wouldn’t have kept dragging me to breakup dinners.” Lin Feng laughed at himself, his fingers still tapping on the table.

When Zhai Xiuming heard Lin Feng talking about the ridiculous and outrageous behaviors he had experienced when he was in school, he touched the tip of his nose in embarrassment.

It makes sense. When Raymond Lam was in college, there were always boys and girls confessing their love to him, but he always rejected them and focused on studying. It is rumored that there are godfathers and godmothers who want Raymond Lam to be their godson, but this is just a rumor and no one has ever verified it.

Even though Zhai Xiuming is extremely bold, he won't seek death.

Lin Feng is such a weirdo. He can’t talk much and is always so vicious.

Lin Feng ignored Zhai Xiuming's embarrassment and continued with his analysis.

"But after I started working, the head nurse never stopped arranging blind dates for me. I also felt that I should seriously pursue a relationship now that I was old enough. I went on countless blind dates, but not many of them made it to the next level. But in the end, we all ended up breaking up because I couldn't provide emotional value in time."

"I've never had a throbbing feeling, and I can't even say I like someone. Maybe it's because I don't like them enough that I don't care, and I've never been proactive in managing those relationships. But I don't reject getting along with the opposite sex."

"But when I was with Zhang Yan, I paid more attention to his mood swings and would consider him. Sometimes, I even treated him beyond the gender-neutral treatment between doctor and patient. Sometimes, I would react to some contact. At this time, I also wanted to get some response from him, whether it was emotional or physical."

Zhai Xiuming also listened to the general situation, "In fact, you just like this person. It has nothing to do with your previous experience. It's just because he appeared and he happened to be of the same sex."

"Since you are sure that you have feelings for him, why do you have to worry so much? Worrying about gains and losses will not solve the problem. What you need to be sure of now is his feelings towards you. Dating is not something that can be done in a one-sided way. If you want to pursue someone of the same sex, it will be very difficult."

Zhai Xiuming also gave some advice. If the other party is a straight man like him and only regards Lin Feng as a friend or brother, he would advise Lin Feng to stop the loss in time.

Love is not about possession, it is about wanting to make him better.

Zhai Xiuming decided to use an indirect approach, "Does he have any intimate behavior towards you, beyond the social distance between friends, and has a special side to you?"

Lin Feng recalled the scene when they first met. His hands were covered with Zhang Yan's blood. It was not a dream. He bandaged Zhang Yan's wound and sent him to the emergency room in time.

His thoughts at the time were very simple. Out of a doctor's instinct, he didn't want the person in front of him to die.

When did it start to become impure?

It was probably when he used the ridiculous excuse of "sexual dysfunction" to make Zhang Yan's ex-fiancee give up.

It was probably when he was pushing Zhang Yan past the NICU and told him the stories of those children.

Perhaps it was because he saw that when Zhang Yan was receiving treatment alone without the care of his parents, he still did not forget to protect his younger nephew from the childhood love he had missed.

Probably when he was drunk.

It was probably when he saw Zhang Yan’s legs propped up out of a sense of responsibility.

I don't know the origin of the love, but the love is deep.

"Zhang Yan had a fiancée arranged by his family before, and he is single now. I don't know about his past, but I think he doesn't mind my physical contact with him, and he may even be a little shy." Lin Feng gave an uncertain answer.

Lin Feng knew that pursuing someone was difficult, and pursuing the same sex was even more difficult. He was afraid that Zhang Yan would not treat him the same way he treated Zhang Yan. He was afraid of the pressure from Zhang Yan's family, and he was afraid of the world's opinion of him.

The negative impact of the online violence he just experienced is still there, and he still feels scared.

He doesn't dare to gamble, he can't afford to lose.

But he also believed in a saying: Love can conquer mountains and seas.

Maybe, you can give it a try.

What if.

Take it step by step.